Whazzup!

Okay I'm officially back from the best camp i ever had.Seriously,it was fun,but tiring.So just seat back and read what had happened during the camp.

Monday,27 Feb 06
Shikin is in my troop!Phew!PC,Sir Lim Zhi Cheng.Well,gotta say he is funny and he often encourage people that they can do it.Okay,we all started at this mini hall.Since bro didn't come,alot of CLT asked me "How is your brother?Why your Mum don't allow your bro to go?You CLT Muhaimin's sister right?"That question kept repeating.And some just went like "Eh,that is CLT Muhaimin's sister you know!" Shikin said i was famous.Haha right..Had this low something something.It really needed alot of co-operation and some good leaders.My team is always the best.Whoosh!

Ate lunch and it taste so raw and dry.Well,its not nice.But have to eat it for the sake of hunger.Rock Climbing soon after that.One of the Instructor thought i was a boy.Haha!Okay so the rock climbing,my helmet was too tight or too lose.Shikin was before me.As she went,she was stuck and a place.She didn't give up and continue but still at the same place.Everytime she fall,i had to pull my PC belt which is very sweaty.And yea its near the butt.So i actually didnt hold his belt.Only when Shikin looks in trouble.And yea,Shikin was stuck for bout quite a long time.And our troop had to go to other station.As Shikin went down,the Intructor told me to demostrate to the other troops.And yea my elbow bleed.I didn't go for repelling.If you wanna know what happen,just ask me.

Camp FEAST night was fun.We had performance from every troop,did the Father Ibrahim dance,hocky-pocky,chi-ku-kia and finale,everyone dance.Than the OC was really dramatic and so into the dance.I really had fun that night.And when i thought bout all the things we did reminds me of Sec1 camp.Slept at 12am.I get to sleep!!YEAH!

Tuesdays,28 Feb 06
Woke up at 4.50am by the sound of "eh" from my new friend.Bathe at 5am.Fall in at 6am.I guess all of you are still asleep right?HAHA!Did PT and ran 2 rounds of a set which is tiring.I felt like flying.Breakfast ate bread,hotdog,hashbrown,onion rings and drank milo.It may sound really nice and taste nice,but everyone was too full and didn't finish it.Did MOC which have 10 station.Climb over the wall,go down on a long pole like a fireman,crawl,blance on a bridge,blance on hand,climb up a rope and swing with a rope above a pool of water(the best!).We didn't do some items cause maybe there isn't any time or underage.Archery was damn fun.I missed only 1 shot.Did 2 times cause there is a vancancy.At that station is when i had splinter on my right thumb.I was feeling uneasy with it on my thumb.Told my PC that i wanted to play Painball first.Painball,was really fun!Girls are only allowed to play twice.For my first round,i was shot at my right leg near my scar.For the second round,i was shot at my eye and my left leg and it left me limping.I shot two bottles.

After the painball,went to Medic for a splinter operation.Haha!The Medic couldn't feel or see the splinter.But the OC could feel it.How much they press and tried to take it out,they could.Then after a few moments when i thought it was out,i was happy.Then one of the sirs went "How?Happy?Pain?No worries ah!"As soon as i went back to my troop,i felt the pain again.Told the Sir and they tried again.Still couldn't come out.Went to each lunch first.I couldn't even hold the spoon!After eating,they used a needle to take it off and FINALLY it went off.Had to clean up the place,and this and that.

After all of that,we had our last final gather.Was sad cause i really miss my new friends.Especially this girl,who told me to call her BIG MAMA.She was nice.And this CLT which happen to just say "Hi!I am CLT Zarifah." when i was talking to Shikin.Received out certificates and photo.Fall in to our school.MR Feraj was late.So we had to wait longer.While waiting,the CLT Zarifah called me."I want to wish you all the best in your future and take care.OKay?"Was nice of her.Then more CLT crowd around me.One asked whether i know his sister i Sec1 and which i don't know.OC said he saw me before.At first i thought he saw me outside then in the end he say at the medic there.One told me to keep a pile of magazine and give the sec1s.All around me was filled with CLT and i was blur cause don't know who to attend first.But well,the CLTs was nice.There is one of the CLTs in which he is SO TALL.His legs are so long and he has an Airborne badge.WOAH!So that is the last time i saw the nicest CLT in any Camp.Wish can meet them during Spec Course.

March the bus and went back to school.And at that moment,i felt like staying.Well,meet new friends and we apart.Reached school and went bonkers with Natiara.Danced to the Song Reach.I was really happy and bonkers.But then it was like a disaster happen.Xiao Yan came to me saying i had 27/50 for my Hist.I was shocked.It really spolied my day.What to say...haizz..

Okay I'm too tired now.See if i can wake up tomorrow.~Off now

Felt slightly better after the motivations Suhaimi reminded me.Told him some bout the ignoring and the look down.Yea,i feel totally useless for that.And also embarrassed being around them.Sometime,i actually avoided them.Sigh...

Now adding to my problems is Nisha.She have totally misunderstood me.Firstly,no one is perfect,so sometime you just don't like a particular attitude of you friend.That doesn't mean you just hate her/him for it.People get into best buds cause they understand each other and can tolerate each other.I personally think there is a negative attitude about me that a person hates.I prefer if you guys reading this can comment at my tag board bout my negative attitude.I'm ready to face the fact.And back to the Nisha.And yea,i'm so sorry what i said about her that she misunderstood.Forgive me.

Tomorrow is officially Camp FEAST.2nd bro isn't going to be there or instruct us cause the list of voleenteering CLTs are full.Well,i have to bare with it then.What seems like ages is the paint ball.I just can't wait for the paint ball session.The desprate feeling of it is,i hope i'm the same platoon as Khairin,cause she is the joker one.She often makes the Camp a humourous one.Going to school in NCC No.4 . Just hope i'm not dreaming cause it would be somehow like 'paiseh'.

Sad thing for missing school is,am gonna miss my favourite subject,PE.Haha!And good thing is,miss 5 periods of Mdm Fauziah's lesson.Hehe!Oops=X

Alright,tell me if i'm useless too.~Off now

It's such a bad day.

• Being looked down(as usual)
• Being ignored by fellow classmates
• Being teased by fellow classmates (Especially Danial Khalis and Azri)
• Feel insulted by Jian Xin comment
• Pupils in 2e2 are ignoring and if i'm not mistaken,i think they look down on me too
• Iffa is having a problem which i really feel for her(i almost cried when she told me)
• 2e4 is inconsiderate and some just don't talk to me
• Mrs Kho seems upset bout me
• I seriously feel so down,insulted,left out and being looked down

I just went home with an upset look.Didn't smile that much today.Feel so hurt and as though I'm slashed by a sickle at my heart.Stabbed by a dagger through my feelings.And poured with boiling water on my head.

I'm treated like a stinking shit that Alvin just stepped just now.I'm being pushed around.I'm being teased by my hair.I just can't wait for a haircut.More problems are adding on.And all i can think of is,to be alone.I just want to cry at the summit of the highest Mountain excluding Mt Everest and Mts on Himalayas.I want to run away from reality.And come back in insanity.

I just wish i was someone else.I wish i wasn't Fatin.I wished that i was some kind of atheletic from TKGS where my old best buds are.I wish i never had this kind of feeling.

Dont you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Dont you ever say
You dont like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
Youre better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause theres nothing bout you I would change

I never had known anyone saying this words.This words in the song of my blog seems not to be heard by me.

I'm so sick of all this stuff...~Off now

Yo!Sup!

These days have been going well for me and its really great.But some just didn't go right.So had to accept it too.

-Pass my MT !! Scored 30/50 for my MT.Cikgu Jeffri said "Now I am happy with you results.I'm proud that you actually improved.Keep it up.Don't decrease on your marks.Happy or not?"Obviously i was more than happy.I even jumped.
-Second in class for my Sci.Overall 79/100.Was really glad and it was my first time getting an A1 as i said.Cried to Mdm Punitham and she is happy too.Tears of joy filled my eyes.
-1st-runner-up for Amazing Maths Race.Mrs Kho was happy and proud of us.

Bad times-
-Danial Khalis aka goggles kept calling me crenting.He kept repeating that i look alike Mdm Punitham.
-Literature paper is so difficult and which i don't think i can even scored an A2 for it.
-Maths is heart-beating for me now.Expecting full marks.
-I'm too tired..

But it wasn't all that.Today went really well that i actually can't forget today.But after the fun i had,was something sad happened.
The fun part was,Syafiqah,Natasha and I were laughing our heads off at every joke and every move we made.The part that i laughed till i fall on the floor and couldn't get up due to lots of stiches was,Syafiqah was trying to get a 10cent coin between the vending machine when all of the sudden she fall and as though her leg was stuck.But not gonna say much of it.Its not bout that also.We laughed alot today.My jaw hurts.Hahaha!Went home laughing and people who pass by me thought i was crazy laughing to myself.

The sad part was,went home and my aunty told me that my grandma slip and fall.I was shocked but she look pretty strong.Of all elderly i know,my grandma is the most strongest one i know.Her right arm hurts.But she didn't limp or have backbone problems after she fell.Glad too but hoping she receive a speedy recovery.Be strong Grandma!You go girl! Haha!

And yea,Iffa if you are reading this,don't be sad bout them alright?At least you have your best friend,Fadhillah.Chin up girl.Your PSLE this year,and you won't be seeing them cause you are going to different schools.And hope you get to mine.

Ending this entry still laughing bout this afternoon.HAHAHA!~Off now

Things are getting tougher for me these days.

Listen people.I really appreaciate your encouraging words.It isn't about soccer,friends or anything pertaining normal stuff.There is,a major feeling why i am useless.I just don't wish to let it out here.If i wanted,i think I've let it out earlier.I just don't know..probably someday,I would think bout it and cry during Mdm Punitham lesson and she would bring me to the school counseller.That's something stupid.I prefer it to be confidential.Times when i think i can trust someone then,probably they would be the first person i let out my problems to.

Okay received Sci test results today.I mean,why so fast?Our second test is just today and we received it so fast.Okay was shocked upon my results.Cause i never had an A1 for my Sci.Seriously,i cried in my heart.I was the one who used to fail Sci or get boderline cases.Maybe for some professor would think its just some kind of peice of shit type of mark.But it really mean alot to me.That reflects on how hard i have work for my Sci.From a C6 to a A1.Had 39/50 for it.It really meant alot to me.But the next thing i hope for is my MT.

Must she show the feeling of jealousy or the type of "I-can-beat-you.For-sure!" type of expression?That's when the tough part comes to me.Why must people show and tell me that,I'm no other person but a pathetic and useless person?You guys can't blame me for feeling it that as a fact.But it was really proven,as seen right infront of my naked eyes,heard through my sensitive ears and hurt my emotional heart.

I'm too tired.Tomorrow is Maths TA1!All the best everyone!~Off now

Someone took my pen while we were writing the t-shirt size.If anyone found it,please return it to me okay?It has my name written on it and there isn't any cover.It was a token from Syafiqah.Its precious to me.Hehe!

PE,was rather pathetic.I kept shouting to them to co-operate and appoint a captain in their team to play soccer,but they just stood there and as though i was speaking Spanish,Portuguese or some other language.Okay,well that didn't matter much cause i was laughing at how blur they were and some of them were chasing each other.Had fun too.But something just made me didn't have that much of enthusiasium during the captain ball game.It went when Iryana was out of the court.And she was my team member.I told her "Iryana,go in.You are out of the court!" before Anqi passed the ball to her.When others realise when she caught the ball,it was the oppenents ball.Iryana went to me and said "Fatin!Why you 'teguh' me?Aiyah.." in an angry manner.'Teguh' is in malay,I'm not sure in Eng.Ask the malays who know.

Okay back to where i was.I was speechless and couldn't say a word.Was it all my fault?I kept scolding myself for telling her.On the other hand,i was playing it as a fair game right?At then i notice,I am a troublemaker in the group.So went to Syafiqah and squat beside her seeing her how pro she caught the ball.Some asked me why I was squating there,and just told them "Scared fall cause too many people."That's when i really had not single mood of playing.Next week is test for soccer.And also my camp feast.So there wouldn't be any test for me.

For Maths,i didn't understand what Mrs Kho is teaching.How much she explain to me,i don't get a single thing she said.Met her after her lesson and i still didn't understand.I think she gave up on explaining.Haha!Well,i was thinking of asking Ms Arnita for help.
Did Mr Lim missed something which is 'IMPORTANT' that Suhaimi told me?Asked Mr Lim and he told me not to worry.I'm just scared that what if it come out for the test.

English was fun this time.Mdm Fauziah told us to do group work and which i love it.She teached us a song "I feel good" that Garfield sang after the show.Bravo to our group.

Yea,wasn't at the right mood today since the incident in the morning,shattered me into peices.Didn't want to set up a long face or a sad face.Didn't want to plus more burdens over to my friends.Natasha looked moody this morning.So i decided to cheer her up and as well as myself.But Natasha got bonkers in the late morning.HAHAHA!

Wouldn't you feel angry if someone were to tease bout your CCA and tell that how pathetic and not even getting our ranks yet? My anger was up to my neck when Irfan,D. Azri were teasing bout my CCA.As to myself,would they like if i were to do the same to them?I doubt so.Just wait and see what happens,is what i told them.

After the speechless incident,i have proven how i am useless.Yea,I'm becoming more useless.Pathetic me..~Off now

Today is the worse day of all NCC trainings.

Recess,saw Shikin,Shuhada and Farah crying.I console Shikin and notice she had leg cramp.Everyone was crowding around her and as though they are watching some kind of an 'example' for "injured during recess,search St John's".My scar hurts whenever i see something happen to someone.Its like Harry Potter,but his is when danger is coming.Mine is when my sympathy is coming.

I gotta blurt this out.My comment is,Mr Alsagoff isn't an interesting PE teacher like Mr Jae,who cares for every individual.Yea,Mr Alsagoff is funny,but,he isn't those who gets serious when something serious happen.But even though,that didn't forbid me from enjoying PE.But i rather like Mr Jae to teach PE.

NCC,i gotta say,cock up.Nurril was angry with us and she didn't even care anymore.If only Hanisah was there.And how pathetic can it be?Only 11 people came.Its like ants mann!I was damn tired and my voice is getting out of tune.Some didn't want to co-operate and drag their boots.I'm so sick of this.For once and for all,can all the Part B NCC cadets,improve?And realise what they did so far?

Was asked what we reflected and what we felt.I wanted to say "Pathetic" as what i felt but i said "Disapointed".

I have no single energy anymore.I just can't wait till camp feast.~Off now

I guess the science test have finish,and i am not suppose to blog.I'm too stressed up with things around me.Not studies.So i have decided i should blog today.

I having a headache with it.Why am i meant to be looked down by the people who is just like any ordinary people?I can't help it.Should have stood up for myself earlier.I don't want it to happen every NCC.She is beginning to be my enermy everytime I talk to her.She is heartbreaking.She peirce throught my feelings.She stabbed my happiness.She is my hatred.I'm too linient.I let everyone step on my head.Can't help it anymore.God,please give me the strength and courage to stand.

Alot of things have been bothering me.That is why i always come to school with a tired expression.I'm just too tired not getting enough sleep at night,thinking about the problems bothering me.Sometime,i even cried of How stupid can i be?How pathetic am i?How linient was i?Where is my courage? How much i thought of being someone else,the lyrics of the song 'Stay the same' and 'If you wanna be somebody else,change your mind" kept playing in my mind.I wish i could let this out to my friends.But,i just can't find the right person to tell.I just don't want to trouble them.At this time is when i really wished Aashi was by my side.She was always the one who lend a shoulder to cry on,and ears to hear and gives advices i really needed.

Letting out my feelings here makes me feel a lil better.I just hope tomorrow's NCC wouldn't be another disaster.Please...~Off now

Happy Valentine's Day.

I hate pink,and am typing in pink.Terrible...

Homec,my partner is forever Karishma.I told her to do the cutting cause I'm afraid i would cut my finger.So as she cut the ingredient,she cut it BIG.Then i told her to cut it small and she went like "Aiyah nevermind larr."Then when we were cooking,Mdm Teo came and she screamed at me."Why is your potato so BIG?Fatin,you are SO small and you cut BIG BIG!I tell you,its going to take a looong time to cook."I just kept quiet and didn't say anything.I didn't even say it was Karishma.I didn't even blurt out a word.Found a way to solve the problem and to which i cut the potato while its cooking.I just felt that what Mdm Teo said was like an insult to me.But didn't bothered that much.

Mr Lim told me to follow him.I thought he was going to give his normal chocolate that he usually gave.He stopped by at the bookshop and asked me "Fatin what you want?" I was blur and confuse.Then he meant something at the bookshop.I rejected his offer.I help him by the bottom of my heart and sincere.Danial told me that its good Mr Lim wants to treat me.Mr Lim just nod and waited for my answer.Told him i need a small blue note book for Mdm Fauziah's lesson."Haiyah don't want ah.Take the bigger one better.For your notes and everyday work." I was dumfounded and by the time i wanted to say anything he pass me the note book he brought.I thank him repeatedly.

After school,i was juggling lotsa stuff.To follow Mr Lim,put recipe at peigeon hole,meet Mrs Sharon Tan.Asked Mrs Sharon Tan about the Broadway thingy.It was last minute cause i just knew it today when someone recommand it to me.She thinks i can act pretty well for the story of olden days or what-so-ever.I went for the audition and the judges look at each other and smiled.Does it have to mean something?
I'm looked down by every single human being.I'm so pathetic..Talk this another time.

I need painkillers.My tailbone hurts badly!All the cause of the sitting tuck during PE.Mann..
Mum says,the doctor probably wont recommand an operation because,its going to be a fatal one.I'm hopeless,I'm useless,I'm meaningless.
I HATE MYSELF !!!


Won't be blogging for some time,probably.Exams are around the corner.All the best everyone.~Off now

Seriously I'm tired right now.PE was tiring.Well,the workout was kinda fun.Especially the one like when we were like jelly.Jumping jacks,sigh,i think cock-up.Haha! I just miss Mr Jae's PE lessons.Its way better than Mr Alsagoff's.PE couldn't go to the field cause it was under-construction.Had to run 3 rounds around the school.I just don't know why i wasn't that enthusiastic when i heard Mr Alsagoff said we are running and i gave him a reason in which "I am on MC for 1 year.Only for 'Running'.The rest can." and people around me laughed.Well,of course its fake.Hahaha!The warm-up of Mr Alsagoff is non-sense.I mean,i don't know..But it doesn't make sense and i don't think it helps on 'Warming-up'.There was something Natasha,Syafiqah and me spotted on Mr Alsagoff which i think its really DIRTY.So its sensored.Sorry!

Ran 3 rounds and my timing was 9 mins 52 sec.Was the first girl in class.But i suddenly don't feel the feeling like "YEAH!" when i heard my timing and my position.After running,we had to do push up.Mann!Mr Alsagoff is really terrible and expect us to do 15 push up when i barely did one.But i just move my stomach up and down so total was like 7.Haha!Shhh!

MT,was expected to do blog.So my malay blog is http://fatinhanani.blogspot.com .Yea,its in malay.That blog isn't about my life.Trust me.Its about school and Mr Jeffri.So if any malay student,especially Sharifah,would want to check my MT.Go ahead.Its kinda humilating.

Mrs Sharon Tan called my up after recess and told me i need not have to pay for Yi Wei's specs.Its quite long to explain here.I'm so guilty.Any guilty medicine?Mrs Sharon Tan is really,absolutely nice.For the first time i saw her for NCC,i thought she was the fierce one.Can't judge the book by its own cover.And yea,alot of people ( not from NCC ) knew i broke Yi Wei's specs.There is nowhere i can hide my face but to admit.Couldn't less deny.Sigh..

ENGLISH!Whoosh~ We acted.And we failed!Hahaha!Infect everyone failed.
Once embarrassing part that happen during Eng.My face was burning of humilation and the apologisation kind of look.Firstly,i accidentally poke Melvin's glutius maximus with my pencil cause i was holding it side ways and he was standing with his glutius maximus facing the pencil.Secondly,Melvin was seating beside me.He told me when he hit the ruler at his sole of the shoe it hurts.I told him i help him hit at his calf.When i wanted to hit,i missed and accidentally hit his.I was burning in humilation and kept saying "Sorry" over and over again.He didn't mind.
Asked Suhaimi whether it hurts.He just laughed.I knew i made a mistake.Shouldn't have asked him.Can tell he is filled with embarassment.

Mr Lim said he can depend on me for anything he ask to do.I was instructed by him to help him do some powerpoint presentation for NE on Wed.So everyone,the lyrics of the "We will get there" is done by me.Haha!

My muscles ache.I suddenly hate myself for no reason..~Off now

I know,its all my fault.Blame me.

Couldn't help crying during NCC today.Was playing dog and bone.Chased Yi Wei and i accidentally push her cause i was about to fall and her glasses dropped and i stepped on it.It broke!Asking for forgiveness isn't enough.I mean,its someone's belonging.I told her,I don't mind paying.But,I don't have that much of sum of money.And if i were to ask Mum,mum would diffinately get furious.Nurril told us to find a solution to solve her problem.I cried.I mean,i was the one who broke it and everyone is involved.In the end,everyone is expected to pay $10 each.

I cried,cause i was afraid some of the cadets blame me.Was called out by Staff Hanisah and she told me,in NCC,everything is 'One for all,and all for one'."We didn't blame you.If we blame you,we already expected you to pay all of it.Don't be sad okay?" was what she said.That didn't refrain me from crying.Then,Mrs Sharon Tan called me up.She was nice.She knew that it wasn't my fault...

Was really upset.I could feel all the fingers pointing to me and the anger of Yi Wei.I couldn't even look myself crying.Just imagine you were in my shoes.Now,the blame is all on me.Me,my leg,my fault.I shouldn't have participated.But that's fate.Can't avoid it but only overcome it.I still don't feel that good with my fellow cadets contributing the money..can't help it.

IT'S MY FAULT !!!

I hate myself...~Off now

These days have been a difficult one.Just don't wanna talk about it.

School is rather okay.I'm suddenly feeling like a tutor.Hahaha!Went around the classroom to teach fellow friends one boggling sum cause Mrs Kho was busy teaching others.Okay,if people needs a tutor,fees for 1hr is free.Haha!I don't mind teaching people.But depends if I'm free.Exams are around the corner and,I'm already revising every single notes.Hoping to get A1 for all subjects.But,I'm not quite sure about my Malay.Its atrocious!Anyone can be my tutor?

Okay,final results that,the successful councilor list has been out.I was in.Yea!I just love being involved in special events.Kamil said that he already knew that i would be chosen.Don't know why,don't bother asking.But,do i have something written on my face that says that i would be?Haha!I'll try my best not to let anyone down *wink .

I practically pushing my body.Physically,mentally and emotionally.I'll just try my best.But I'm so near to giving up.I just wish it would rather be 'So near,yet so far'.I just can't help it.I..give up..~Off now

Is it my leg or myself? I just can't get this question right everytime it comes to PE.Why must something very disapointing must happen every PE lesson? We are suppose to run 3 rounds around the school.I was all ready to run and come back to reality.And imagine i was flying.As we start,Izzati and me were tie.At the end of round 1,i could feel the tightening at my stomach.I felt as though i was gonna puke out my stomach.For round 2 i just walk leaving everyone pass by me.Syafiqah stamina was great at then.There were Sec1,Sec2 and Sec4 passing by.Some stop to asked why i stopped.The reason i stopped was, I feel like puking.Furthermore,I just recover from high fever and my head is spinning.After PE lesson,I talked to Mr Alsagoff,saying that not to record my timing first.He just said "Nevermind,next next week we test again".I can't help about my health anymore.Its dropping.What's wrong with me?I knew Mr Alsagoff couldn't help.He is a joker PE teacher and of course,i don't think he is the kind who understands,especially me.

I just don't think today turn out well.Infect terrible.
I hate myself.When i thought something can turn out well,it went the other way round.I can't help it nomore.No one understands.I'll just leave myself here.I give up...~Adious

I just don't feel that good.Had a high fever yesterday with a temperature at 39.5 degrees.And i puked at 3a.m for 4 times and at 8a.m for 3 times.Went to Tampines Polyclinic when the doctor referred me to Changi General Hospital.They were worried that my next vomit would all be blood cause there were nothing left in my stomach and also,if i were carrying any disease like dengue or bird flu.Had a blood test which when the doctor poke 3 injections at my right hand just to get blood.I cried in pain because this blood test was way much pain than the blood test i had at Kandang Kerbau Hospital.They took about 7cm by 1.5 cm of a test tube filled with my blood.And also had a urine test.Was relieved when the doctor said everything was fine and clear.I wasn't admitted.Received anti-biotics for 5days and MC for 2days.I want to go school tomorrow.I hate to miss school cause i would miss out everything.But hopefully i wont get a headache during 5 periods of Mdm Fauziah's teaching.

Talking about teachers and saying their negatives really offend me.Especially teachers whom i think don't carry that much of negatives.I couldn't bare when Sabri and Suhaimi were blurting out all the negatives of Mdm Punitham.In the first place,they should bare in mind that Mdm Punitham is at an aged stage and often can get very naggy.And also,they should understand Mdm Punitham.And to all people,if you have some negative thoughts about others just keep it to yourself please?Unless the other party has the same feeling as you.To me,every teacher is special even Ms Yuen.How much they have done badly to you and push you,they are trying to make you suceed at the mistake whereby you should avoid.I personally have the feeling of hatred towards Ms Yuen when i realise that if i co-operate with her,i would definately understand.Trust me.

Mum is practically buying strawberries everyday.I love it!Was thinking of another way of eating strawberries with when Grandma told me to eat it with sugar.Haha!

I just feel like puking everytime i think about the mash potato i ate on Friday.And also everything i eat,i would feel like puking.I just hope tomorrow i won't puke anymore or even get any scolding.I didn't complete some question for my HW.I couldn't think and i had a terrible headache.I hope teachers understand...

Should i attend school tomorrow?~Adious

How has these days been you mean?I just don't know what to judge it as.Its good and bad.

Yesterday was a hectic day.Mrs Kho asked who wants to participate in the Maths Amazing Race.A person like me would definately want.There were 8 people who voleenteered.I was desprate and i pleeded to Mrs Kho.She appointed me to be the Leader and told me to choose group members.The first person i chose was Junior.He is good at Maths too.I chose Shyhida.The last person,I wasn't sure.I know i can't rely on Danial Azri.To me,i really can't work with him.Everyone was like begging me not to choose Danial.I felt bad when they told me that.But I didn't want to.I wanted to talk to Mrs Kho in a privacy when lots of people came around and i just felt i couldn't talk to her.

Yea,I admit,Danial always think everything has to go his way or he would get mad.I somehow pity him,cause he is everyone's enemy in class.Not only that,I have to respect everyone.So i just told him personally that I was sorry i couldn't choose him in.He understands!!Phew!So it was between Fadhly and Jeremy.I don't care even if Jeremy threatened me.I didn't know what came out in my to choose Jeremy in.I almost wanted to cry when people who wanted to be in ask me.I couldn't make the dicision.Anyway,today had a private talk with Mrs Kho and she is willing to change the Jeremy to Fadhly.Mrs Kho personally said,she thinks Jeremy can't work with us.Now,all i have to do is to tell Jeremy.I just don't want people to go against me.But i don't mind if people insult me or hate me just for not choosing them in.

Mr Lim said about acting and everyone said i was the best actress.Couldn't less blush but I deny it.Mr Lim was saying about my career being an actress."No Thank You" was my reply.I'm not that desprate to be an actress.I'm not like my cousin who really wants to be.Haha!Okay,I think there is no need to recommand me to be one.I'm Sports Maniac here.Not Actress Wannabe.

NCC!I gotta say,it was increadibly great!Just for some tough parts that make my knee hurts.I just can't affort to stamp my feet.It hurts!I sat aside and some came asking why I'm not participating.When they were gone.I felt alone and terribly uselss.I almost cried.Then it comes to games.We played cling.It was way FUN!Especially Sharifah who shouted when she had to run.I can't stop laughing.I had stiches.

And yea,i ran just now.And guess what?I really run faster than last time!I almost cried out of happiness.Everyone especially Hanisah and Nurril was shock when they saw me running in the lead.When i ran,i just felt like flying.It felt like i was lifting up from the ground.Well,so now,I know what i takes in believing yourself.I trust in myself and asked God for strength.I knew i could do it.Thanks God for giving me the ability of believing in myself.

This paragraph is delicately dedicated to Iffa.
It isn't easy to give up in your dreams.And never say you should.Never think life is not worth living.Everyone has its own ups and downs.Take the time to understand yourself and believing in yourself.I don't want to see the new you.I like the old Iffa.Don't be upset with things happening around you.Take the time to know it and understand it.Believe in yourself and especially the almigty god.Cheerios smarty panties~

I'm too tired to blog further more...~Adious

So how should i describe today as?A major headache day...

My major headache is not caused by things around me but what's happening to me.Whenever i look at the whiteboard or paper,or even this computer screen,i would get a headache.Mum says that if i have a headache on doing work,its probably because I'm getting myophia.Yea,my vision is getting more blurish.So,if i am gaining myophia,means,its either I'm shortsighted or longsighted.But,currently,I'm shortsighted.Arghh!Getting glasses!

Currently the song played at my blog is Joey Mcintire-Stay the same.I've been searching the song all over.I once sang this song with the whole pri school of mine for teachers day.And that's when i like this song.When at last,i found it by,when Sharon sang it.Haah!FINALLY !

School went just fine,except just ignore the headache part.Received our Maths test paper which i scored 17.5 /20.And yea,i scored 1st in class.I didn't expect that,cause everyone was shouting Junior's name.Natasha scored 3rd in class.WELL DONE!She improved.Syafiqah,don't be discourage okay?If you have trouble in maths,you can always approach you friends or better still,Ms Arnita!Hehe!

My secret for passing Maths is,practice.Take my word.I didn't mean Practice makes perfect.That is just some kind of idioms i guess.Its only used to encourage people.Eventhough no one is perfect.But the actual saying is "get a hang of it".Doesn't it sounds weird like "Practice gets a hang of it" or what-so-ever?That is why the person who invented that pharse wanted to make it sound so encouraging.Whatever,if i'm wrong,just ignore this pathetic paragraph.But if you agree,say "Aye" hahahaha!I'm getting bonkers~~

Yeah,i asked Mdm Punitham about next year courses.She said something out of my question."Yea the courses is this year" said Mdm Punitham.Huh?What on earth is she talking? was what is at my mind.So i guess like nod and say "Ohh".But,i still don't know what she said.Oh well,now who shall i ask?Nevermind,who can answer just tell me.Then i shall ask the questions.

God,this entry is so long..~Adious