Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to Muhaimin
Happy Birthday to you !!!!!!!

Happy 18th Birthday Bro ! I love you!Thanks for being there for me through thick and thin.Thanks for the encouragment.Thanks for spending time for my running.Thanks for your LOVE =)

I'm just plain tired...just shuddup...~Off now

Yea,what's wrong with me?

I don't know.Only god knows why.And if i found out what's happening to me,or even know now,i don't wish to tell out.

School was fine,and fun.But i'm acting as though each and everyone of my friends are irritants.Just that i don't wish to talk to them.I want to be alone.

Parade Commanding was smooth.Mdm Fauziah didn't actually scold,but encouraged me more to speak with pride.I'm proud of myself that i made it.Growing to love my classmates.Even the boys are like my brothers.Irritating and cute.

Izzat said he is going to push me for 2.4km.Unfortunately,today was the station retest.It was kind for Izzat and Irfan to be supporting for me.Retook my sit and reach.It was 37cm.At least there's a 3.My shuttle run improved to 10.1sec.Haha.

Yesterday was given a counselling form.Was shocked.What did i do wrong?Elaine said probably i'm too stress about my studies.Do i look stress?I don't even feel stress!So found out that the counselling was a RAINBOW counselling.For those students with single parent.Yea...my parents divorced.I still can live.

The funny part was,Mr Silva was kind.He was shock to see me in the counselling room.He asked Ms Krishnan "Why Fatin needs to go for counselling?She is a nice girl."Ms Krishnan replied "Shutup!" Hahaha! Mr Silva looked as though he was going to cry.Silence for 5sec.And he said "Fatin,i was scolded because of you."Hahaha! Had a good laugh of the day.Mr Silva is actually nice.Don't overlook him.

Yes,what i said last post was clear enough people don't appreciate me.Helped Dan.Azri in his BGR problem,his maths problem and even gave my drink to him.He returned by throwing erasers on me.Was called a LOSER by JianXin.It's true enough.Can't deny.

Tomorrow is 2nd Bro birthday.Still don't know what to buy for him.I can't buy him an Ipod or PSP,i don't even have that sum of money!Thinking of buying...chocolate?? Or treat him a BK Meal ? He likes BK so much.

And i'll sing a song of home..
a land of peace..
where dreams are born everyday...~Off now

Don't know what to update.Just dumbfounded by the msg at the Tagboard.

Nervous is what i'm feeling now.Just nervous about the Parade Commanding.Shame on me.Name to be in NCC when i just don't have the courage.We'll see bout tomorrow.

I don't know if the Anonymous is right,but hey....
nevermind,don't wanna talk bout it.

Helped friends when i just totally forget about myself.Forgot how they treated me.Never been appreaciated before.Never had anyone understand my dreams.Tried to tell bro about my Napfa,but he ignore.Tried to tell Iffa bout my Napfa,she ran away.Why i cared,listened to their problems,solve their problems,help them in things they need,when i was treated for a return as a pile of shit.Patronized,teased,ignored.

Just that, you guys don't understand my goals.Even i had to tell you,you would NEVER understand.Only bro does,but he gave up on me.Even telling my Napfa results seems to be like a paper filled with invisible results.

Thanks Anonymous.Thanks for your comment.I don't want to tell you the very truth,cause i know,you won't understand.By the way,i know who you are.Next time,it's better telling straight in my face.It hurts more being Anonymous.By the way,i won't be angry with you if i see you in school.

Won't be going online on weekdays.Bro don't allow.Maybe,i'll just go for maximum 5mins,to know or get important notice.Anyway,why go online when there's no one to chat with?Thinking of deleting this blog.It's useless.

I'm too emotional.
Stabbed through my sensitive feelings...~Off now

Arghhh...it's so hard to breathe normally.

The drugs the doctor gave isn't working.Infect,its like getting worse!Confused,if i should go back to the doctor.I want to complete my 2.4km.And feel good without any worries.But,would it be dragging to wait till next week?

I wonder,is it myself or being nervous, that prevents me from breathing normally?Nervous about the parade commanding this Mon.I'm already trembling now.Don't wanna fool myself infront of whole school. I'm pinning hopes on Izzat for helping my 2.4km .I just want to breathe,normally,freely.Struggles...

Mrs Kho didn't come to class today.Mdm Punitham took over.I'm loving Sci.But,have to work harder cause he ain't gonna tutor me.Broken friendship.Mrs Kho said "Good Luck" for the iconnexion test.Thanks Mrs Kho.After school met Mrs Sharon Tan.She asked me how were my grades.GREAT,i shall say.She said she wanted me to go for the Maths Australian Challenge,or something like that.Wowsers!

What happened to him?If he changed,i don't care.But hurting others,i do care,especially my bestfriend.You aren't the friendly,caring,sci nerd,joker i knew.You aren't the god-brother i always thought you were.You aren't the bestfriend i always threat !And to the fact he had to be suspended because of your unsympathy.Everyone asked,what happened to you.
Beyond words...
Oh yea,i forgot,you are the evil.Haha.
You don't realise you changed,we do.Good Luck with your no-geek-friends.
So long Sci Freak...

Ms Abidah is going for further studies.Gonna miss her.
And that isn't ironic...~Off now

I just love Thursday.

Music,PE,Recess,Eng,Geog,
Art,Lunch,Maths.

Just tell me,how can i ever hate Thursday?

Music,teacher like our group.Cause we compose our own song.Hahaha!Ms Tan angry cause the boys didn't cooperate and very playful.And one group only sing 1 line!PE,kept thinking if i should run.In the end,i didn't.Don't want to cause trouble.And last night i had a dream of me fainting while running.Mr Alsagoff told me to go back gate and count the number of people.

Decided to push Natasha at her 3rd round.She stop alot of time.Her final timing was 16 plus!Last week was 18!She thank me.But,it's actually her choice.To listen to me or her body.She insisted on listening to me.She did it herself,not me.That girl got 14.27 .And i got 14.38.Not even a 5.I'm too disapointed in myself.Khalis then decided to help me next week.

Art,drew drew drew.Can say that,i can draw nice.Haha! Oops.

Napfa,i was kinda nervous.And especially Shuttle run being the first station!
My timing was 10.6sec.
Incline pull-up did 40 pulls.
Sit and reach is the worst.35cm ! I got 2 points.Just need 1 cm to get 3 and get gold.
Sit up i did 48.Yay improve.
Standing broadjump 179cm.Disapointed.Last year got 188.I wanna redo again.

I got highest for all in class except the sit and reach.My hand short.
Kinda disapointed in most of the stations especially 2.4km.

I might be putting up a new song."A shoulder to cry on" its dedicated to my buds,
NataSyafiqaHuda,my partner Elaine and my bestfriend Sabri.I'll always be by your side.Won't leave you guys.

Doo Wappa Doo Wappa Doo Wappa Doo...~Off now

Okay,so Friday took off my stiches,and had parents meeting session in the evening for the sec3 combination thingy.Many have asked,and yea,i'm going for Amaths class !!! 3e3 or 3e4 ! Okay,that's it.I'm working extra harder than before.Have to get top 20 for level position for Bio.

About the Thurs incident,yea it seems okay,but i'm not.Just find it hard to breathe.Like something is stuck in my windpipe.Is it really bout the operation?Or am i getting Asthma,or HAVING asthma? Lets find out...

So went to see the Doctor today and he said my lungs were clear and no signs of Asthma.I wonder why too.Yea,there's phlegm.Given anti-biotics. That's it? You are feeding me with drugs! on second thought... how long would it cure ?

Given 1 week of EXCUSE FROM PE. Okay that's fine actually...



NO !!!!!

What about my Napfa?I'm suppose to retake my 2.4 ! Hey,you can't do this to me !
Oh god...
Maybe...i'll take Napfa.Since,its not that heavy excercise...I'll shall consider.

I think,it a bad start of the week.Today,i shall say,i hate it.Sharon kept knocking my head.C'mon,give some respect to my head.It's my head.And Azri kept Shhh me when i didn't even do anything.Buzzing sound on again.

Arghhh! What happen to this class? I want the old sitting arrangment.And PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE,stop that Buzzing sound.It's driving me nuts..SOON.

I think i'm over distracted by Elaine.Sorry Elaine,but i think,we gotta stop our crap,and start serious from now on.I really need to pay double attention.

Just hope i can breathe normally...
Breathless...~Off now

Thursday went wrong...

First time in history,i collapsed after running.
Had our 2.4km today.It was terrible.During the running,Syafiqah overtook me.From that,i knew there was something wrong with me,but i couldn't feel the pain yet.At the 3rd and 4th round,my body starts to give in.I could feel the pain at my entire body,even my head.I stopped more than 5 times!Even my mind wasn't being that strong,and my body overtook my mind and everything was numb.

As i reached the finishing line,i collapsed.Mr Alsagoff held on me.And i was swaying.My vision was blur and i felt at any moment i'm going to black out.I couldn't breathe properly.Struggled for oxygen.I could feel an extreamly pain,like as though someone punched,at my stomach.

A whole bucket of mucus came out from nose and mouth.And i meant,ALOT.I couldn't even walk,cause my legs aren't receiving much oxygen and it's weak.People came crowding around me.All i wanted to say was " BUZZ OFF.I need oxygen. " I hate people crowding around me asking whether i am okay or what happened.

Didn't eat recess.I was starving.My protease,lipase and carbohydrase would die!Hahaha.Mr Alsagoff made stupid,lame jokes.And Natasha kept making silly jokes.They made me laugh.Thanks to Syafiqah,Natasha,Huda,Kharishma,Shyahida and Zafirah for being there for me.

Anyway,what caused this problem was, recently,i had an operation.As i said,they inserted a tube in my nose to my lungs.So it hasn't healed fully.Being stubborn,i didn't follow what the doctor said which was "No vigarious excercise for 1 week." So this happened.I regret.I'm so stubborn.I am on anti-biotics,and 8 days MC,today is just the 6th day.

Secondly,Chloe and Zafirah heard a struggle for oxygen while i was running.I wonder,do i have asthma?I wish,i plead,that i don't have asthma.
I don't know what was my timing.I didn't hear cause i collapsed after that.Asked Sharon the recorder and she said 10mins or 12mins.Ohmigawd!! She must be kidding...but Syafiqah said 14mins plus.Yea,i kinda feel its 14mins.Cause,i've stopped alot of time,and my speed was slower.

Was confused if i should tell bro,but in the end,i told him...


he was extreamly disapointed.

He was shocked when i told him 14mins.I'm not sure the timing,but i hope what Sharon said was true,10mins or 12mins.But,its so not real.He was disapointed.And he looked as though he gave up on me.He was absolutely disapointed.He wasn't the one like "Really?Not bad ah your timing.You must do better,and you can.Don't think bout the pain."But 14 mins was too much for him.ARGHH!!!

Preasure.

I don't know if i would stick to the 14mins timing.I feel like giving up.My head,knee,lungs hurts.

Lucky Napfa was cancelled.Or,i'll be double the dead.
I'm sorry...i disapoint you...~Off now

ITALY WON !!!

Things that are not important are bothering me.

I just feel like a useless councilor.I just seat there,watching other councilor doing things which i don't know i'm suppose to do.The terrible moment was today,11 July 06 at 11:15pm.Decided to help Jonathan return the cards.

Gabriel told me to catch the ball as he throw in the cage.The thing is,i didn't say i wanted to catch,cause there was another sec1 guy who threw the ball while Gabriel threw the ball.It hit the cage cover and it slam,causing the loud sound.I didn't have time to save it.If i had,i'll hurt myself.

Being the nearest person there,an administrative lady,called me from a small room nearby.She scolded me.After all the scolding,i told her "It wasn't me.I didn't slam the cage cover."Gabriel,i knew he was guilty,blamed me,"You lar,told you to catch,you don't want."Yea yea yea...blame me.Haizz..i really think i am a useless councilor afterall.

Elaine had been a good medicine.She just make me laugh with her lame jokes and ideas.I thought i wouldn't be able to talk till Wed cause i had an operation,but, i could even open my mouth wider than i expected.

Anyway,yea,school was fun.Especially the boys in my class.Just can't stop bullying me.That buzzing sound is made AGAIN.Mrs Quek got curious and the boys accused me of doing it.And Jeremy kept saying i'm the baby in the picture Mrs Quek show.

The next thing that disturbs me is,comparing of CCA.Danial A. kept comparing that NPCC is way better than NCC.So?What am i suppose to do if YOU THINK my cca is lousy? I thought.I just hate it when he compares.When would he stop comparing?

Not gonna talk bout the friendship.We had a choice anyway.And yea,they are back with their new friends.It was fun with Sabri just now.Talked by sending papers when i am just seating next to him.Yea,the three friends seperated.Awww...

Everytime i wake up from my bed,i get the spins,as though i need Elaine to tell a joke for me to crack up.Hahaha! ~Off now

Ouch...

Just had my teeth operation yesterday.It hurts !!

When i came to the surgery room,the surgeon gave some kind of oxygen for me to breathe so that i would sleep.Slowly,i could feel the nurse putting wire on my chest,i couldn't feel my skin,i couldn't feel my body,i only could feel my heart and lungs,i struggled and,i slept.

I woke up seeing myself shaking the railing of the bed,trying to get out of bed and even squeezed the nurse hand.I think,its a trauma cause,i struggled before i slept.What was i doing mann?The only thing that hurts after the operation is my throat and nose.They insert a tube for me to breathe through my nose and it rested on my throat during the operation.

I could see the stiches at the gums.It hurts.I could barely open my mouth to talk.I'm given 8 days of MC and i'm not allow to do excercises for 5 days.

Was told by Syafiqah that Napfa is this Thurs.I guess i won't be taking Napfa on that day.If i could,i have to go for the check up to take out the tread in my mouth.

I'll be missing my Best Buds NataSyafiqaHuda, and even my Best Partner Elaine.So called my Husband.Hahaha! Oh My Gawd! Lesbians!Yea,won't be coming to school for 8Days,can you imagine?I'll suffer from boredom.Nehh..i might be returning to school soon.I'm strong on the outside..but weak in the inside.Well,who cares.Hahaha!

Oh yea,i won't be laughing,i won't be smiling,i won't be talking to ANYONE.Trust me,it hurts alot.It seems harder to smile then talking.If i laugh,my mouth would make the sad shape instead of the smile.

I'm strong,I'm strong,I'm strong...~Off now

How shall i describe today?

Portugal LOSE !!! Mann,now i support Italy.
France is good.

Music,Izzat,Irfan and Khalis kept hitting my chair and my spine hurts.I didn't even had the mood for the first lesson.PE,it rained.Had edurance test.While doing our stretching,Izzati and Iryana cannot reach their feet while me and Alvin can.They were wondering why and said my hands are long.Mr Alsagoff said my legs short.Meaning Alvin legs are short too?

One of the endurance test is lying on your stomach.So i was looking at Syafiqah and Mr Alsagoff just clamped my feet with his feet.What the hell mann.Then chased him round and round.So pretend to kick him(but didn't hit), and he said my legs short.I WANTED TO KICK,but he's a teacher... Hahaha!

English,so called scolded Elaine for copying me.Hahaha!But she didn't...I just love Elaine!
Art,we did some drawings.Izzat and co. kept making that irritating buzzing sound.ARGHH!

Maths was a disaster.Had a test and Izzat kept making that buzzing sound.I couldn't concentrate and wasted 3 foolscape paper of cancelling and rewritting.I think,i was the last one to finish.

He still did not forgive me.After 2 months,hadn't talk.See him talk to Elaine(who seats beside me) makes me feel as though i was an Alien.Sweets and forgiveness won't make him forgive me.I just feel guilty...

Well,you are back with your new friends.I guess you won't be alone anymore...

Give me the strength...~Off now

Brazil Lose !!!

Never !!! What happened to them?Why all the sudden cock up mann.
Oh well,now i support Portugal .

Happy Birthday to HUDA !

Got nothing really much to blog about.Except the tension between my best friends.We have not been talking since 2nd Semester start...~Off now