Ola everyone.

Finally I'm done with my Homeworks.Not all,just left with a Maths WS which i think,i would finish it soon.So much of cracking my brain for this Sci HW that Mdm Punitham gave in the Theory BK.I just found it so difficult and my brain goes blank.I manage to understand it at last.Hahaha.My plan for today goes like this -

11.oo am - Wake up
11.05 am - Take a bath
11 .15 am - Eat breakfast
11.30 am - Watch cartoons
12.30pm- Do HW/Study
3.15pm - Watch 'Police Acadamy'
5.15pm-Go jogging/run around
the estate for 3rounds
6.00pm-Come back home
6.05pm- Rest and get a drink
6.15pm-Take a shower
6.30pm-Use the computer
8.00pm-Eat Dinner then continue on
Computer
9.30pm-Watch a TV Programme
11.30pm- Brush teeth
11.35pm-Sleep **Good Night**

Yeah,I think its good to plan your day so it eventually won't get topsy-turvy.But,I just can't follow everything so specifically.And yeah,i must spend at least 3hours or more of studying.That's shows how desprate I am to get to a good class next year.I'm just abit confuse with this courses for next year.But,I don't want to take Humanities,Art or what-so-ever subjects that is new in Sec sch.I prefer A Maths which Mrs Kho recommand me to.The thing is,I'm still confuse with all these subjects for next year,but before its too late waiting for the answer,i better get started on my studying.Probably,I will talk to Mdm Punitham some day,or better still,this Wednesday.

Uh-huh i went jogging today.Its really tough.I just wanted to give up and take the short cut back to my house and not do the other 2 rounds on my 1st round.Do you think i gave up?Yea,physically.But not mentally.My mind kept pushing my body not to give up but to believe in myself and have the strong trust on my body that its just the beginning.Physically,my legs were like jelly and my scar hurts badly.And so for not running for 3 Months!So what do you expect?My muscles were all pulling.Well,at least for the 3 rounds,the 1st round,i stopped 1/4 of the round.2nd round,i stopd 1/2 of the round while the 3rd round i stop 3/4 of it.Hmm..its a good start.

I wonder how many Sec1 make it to NCC (Girls) this year.I just can't wait till Camp Feast next month.Okay,I'm going back to REAL training this Fri and PE next Mon.Physical Activities,here i come !!! Haha.


When bandage is on

The scar after bandage taken off.Scary huh?

Scar currently.

I just realise that my scar is getting more obvious.
Even Syafiqah realise that..~Adious

It has been exactly 2 Months since my operation.I just can't believe that it just pass and its over.All the days before the operation,I've been worrying and crying.Not that I was scared of the operation,but what is the consequences. Like ; Would my speed of running still be the same? Would my dreams come true? Would the whole operation be a regret? Would i ever be the same like last time? And which recently,one of my questions was a burden over my shoulders.I couldn't run as fast as i could last time.Even others run faster than i do.Even i felt so hopeless and useless,i think the solution is not to give up in myself.But to believe in myself,cause i believe its possible to be back to earlier days =) .

I don't have to worry about the word ' Rest ' anymore,cause 2 Months have pass and my "Resting Days" is almost over by the end this month and I can train my stamina to get to my usual pase.Well,I want to thank those who gave an opinion on whether i should go for the operation especially the teachers and those who said "If you go,you won't feel the pain anymore.Probably the pain at the scar is just temporary."

I'm going to be bored at home.My cousins are all off to Malaysia to those fun places.And i meant ALL of my cousins.Except for my family.My Mum couldn't take leave cause her friends took.But well nevermind,at least some TV Programe can keep me company.
Yesterday concert was fun fun fun.I like the Chinese Dance.Well,my class didn't won the CNY class decoration.

Not to forget...

~ HaPpY ChInEsE NeW YeAr !!! ~

Have fun to those who are celebrating !

Believe in youself =) ~Adious

Heya people.I'm back to school again.Anyone misses me? Haha.

I just felt like crying and screaming.I mean,I don't understand things teacher were talking about.So I somehow was so blur. Nisha told me the wrong HW for the Exercise,and I did at the wrong book.Can't blame her. Mdm Punitham and Mrs Kho asked why I wasn't present for school.For Lit, I just don't know why I like Lit since sec 1.I guess my group was great cause the whole class gave us an applause.I hope my group is always the top one.Maybe,is just the genes that I got in making a presentation.Heeh.But thanks to my group members for co-operating.

Eng,was a terror.Don't want to talk about it.Hist was fun cause we received chocolates when we answered the question correctly.

Stayed back for the interview with Fadhly,Suhaimi and Sabri. You might ask "How was it ?" I'm speechless.If you were to ask what they asked and what I replied.I have no idea what or earth I said.I mean,I know,but I forgotten.It accurs to everyone who went for it.Once you get out of the door,everything on your mind just blank.I just think I did badly.Did I ? I guess...

Waited for Suhaimi,Fadhly and Sabri. After everyone finished, we chatted with Shikin and Shuhada cause we intend to go back with them but we just sat and we kept laughing at Sabri.Should I say?? Well,its just that,we were laughing about Sabri's " ******" .I couldn't stop laughing and I laughed so loud till the whole school can be heard.I had stiches at my stomach and my jaws ache.Sabri wanted to go off first.So we talked about his Birthday which is tomorrow.And deciding to buy a "....." The Shikin said "But none of us are CupD" Suhaimi replied " Yea,i can SEE that".I was blur at first then we Shikin told me,i went like " Oh My GOD !" Anyone understand,you know what it means.

FOR ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW,me and suhaimi ain't couples or in a BGR. PLEASE ! Mann,I'm not at the state of falling in love or admire. Felt so irritated when Khairin,Shuhada,Shikin and lot more match make me with Suhaimi.Gosh...he is just a friend.Normal friend. And I think he admires someone else which I am going to keep it to myself.Hee !

Afterall,its over...~Adious

I shall say I'm back from lot of places.Didn't attend school yesterday and today.Yea,i fall sick yesterday so Mum didn't allow me to go school and my head was too heavy to lift up from my pillow.At 1am today,bro landed at Singapore from NZ.He got darker!He brought bubble gum for me and also a striking orange Nike hat.Its nice anyway.That's what bro had always wanted me to use.No wonder he brought it for me.He received lots of stuff , chocolates,chips,bubble gum and t-shirts.He had this Coke which is flavoured Rapsberry.Its NICE !

Today went for check up.Had an x-tray.Dr Arjandas showed the film to me and the tumor is GONE ! I asked Dr Arjandas about what has happened to my leg and he said " I had to cut the nerves to get throught to the bone.So it would somehow grow.Don't worry." Relieved by that too.Then,my scar hurts and Dr Arjandas wanted to give me another 6weeks of MC ! I'll get bonkers by then! I didn't want to and Dr Arjandas said if it hurts,i can come over to get the MC.Next appointment is 3 Months time and is on the 19 April.Wow,lots of appointment huh.

After that appointment,went for the Dentist Appointment.Took X-tray and all that.I gotta spit this out to everyone.I have to go for another operation for my teeth.Mann,whats wrong now.I have to extract some teeth and cut open my gums to take out the extra or what-so-ever teeth.Then,I have to put on braces.The Doctor suspect something through my x-tray of teeth.I was blur at that moment cause they didn't want to panic me.But it wasn't.Went home and asked Mum what were day worrying about."They thought,the black batch below your lower jaw was a cancer.That is why they called someone who is higher to come down and comfirm it is not."Then,that is when i got panicked and kept asking Mum if I'm alright.

I can't imagine myself with braces and some teeth being extract.I can imagine how i would be during the operation.Well,I'll shall wait till the day of my op. which is unknown.( Hopefully its not important [ which is so impossible] ) I should not worry about this op. anyway..

Miss school alot.Two days of absence.Two MC to be given.
Tomorrow have maths and homec test.By the way,interview tomorrow.Hope i won't stammer and just,relax.
Okay great,my maths test i scored 7.5 / 15 .Its so pathetic.My Maths results is boderline.I mean,i don't care if i got 2nd in class.All i care is the marks given.I did badly didn't I ?

What a long tiring day..~Adious

Two more days till my check up and bro's arrival !!!

Today,I might think it went okay,and alright.Or should i say alright and okay?Anyway,bout have the same meaning but seriously,today was alright,just that,I wasn't okay.I gotta say that,this Mon is much more greater than last Mon.And,it really brought alot of change in my life just TODAY ! PE,was GOOD ! I mean,yeah,I am on MC for 1 Month.To me,its really pathetic.Mr Alsagoff told me to help him put cones at the corner of the field or something like that.I'm not sure what made me REALLY want to particapate in PE despite my knee,but it sure really gave me the happiness for the day.Asked Mr Alsagoff whether I can play PE then he said " You bring t-shirt? Okay then next week. " I brought my t-shirt and he didn't allowed me.The next time i asked him again " You bring t-shirt?Shorts? Okay go get change " Was so excited and obviously happy.

Played soccer and get ourself dirty and all muddy! Yucks ! But woah ! My team scored 18 - 2 with XiaoYan's team.To me,I'm sure they can do better than that,but since they were afraid to dirty their shoes.After PE,saw a class playing Volleyball,and which is obviously Sec1.When i saw,i just felt that something just struck me and brought me back to last year.My body lost all the energy and i felt so upset.Don't know why,but then since i was pretending to balance ,i fell and Kamil brought me back to reality.Then as i watched,i saw a pretty good volleyball player.Wow!Then i thought, I'm sure Mr Jae would rather think 2006 Sec1 batches are much more better than 2005 batches.I'm not sure,cause they seem a lil bit weak in the " Oei " thingy.Hahaha! No offence ! But,i wonder if Mr Jae still misses the humour of the 2005 Sec 1 batches and us.

My shoe was all dirty and wet!Went up to the class with Mdm Punitham.It was Sci anyway.Received our test paper back and i scored 17.5 / 20 .My first impression,' Is this good or bad ? ' without seeing the " Good " beside my marks.Then Mdm Punitham said the highest was 17.5 /20 .Not trying to boast around,but was shocked.I mean,i never scored high marks for my Sci ever in my life ! I think Mdm Punitham make a good teacher.Recess,saw one short cute boy who i think now in 1E4.Hahaha! I mean,he so cute and he is really suitable for Pri 1 instead of Sec1.Hahaha!

What wasn't okay with me was,my nose in leaking,my throat itches and my voice change.1st thought,I'm getting a flue.Mann,its just starting of week and,where on earth did i get flue from?Uh-huh thinking of getting MC for tomorrow,but Wed I'm not going to school cause of my check-up,so i think,I'll just make Wed a MC day for me.

While was in Lit period,i shouted because the pain on my knee.Has it caused by the PE?If it is,i regret...~Adious

Yo sup yo! Wondering why I am updating today.I usually don't update day after my last entry cause,it would rather get someone who read be bored.Basically,I don't mind people reading my blog.Its a place for me to let out my days and feeling.But I really mind when someone insult me on my entries or something got to do with it.I mean,if you were to go to everyone's blog,they talk about their lives and problems.So why choose me and insult me till I have to admit,I'm a loser?Enough babbling...

Woke up about 12:30pm and i could feel all my muscles are pulling and aching.Couldn't get out off bed.My back bone hurts alot after the proning.Severe contusion appear at my leg,hand and elbow.This bruise gotta be from yesterday.My muslces aches badly and too weak.So after bathing,eat my lunch,laid at my bed and i fall asleep till 5pm.Wow,just imagine how tired i was.Then dad called to send him something at Tampines,so after sending i intend to return my over dued books and borrow(if its possible).Yeah,it did rained cats and dogs.Saw Bariah and her Mum.She look so cute in the scarf.Hahaha!And yea,returned the books and looked for others at the Tampines Regional.After browsing and choosing,decided to borrow,while putting my card,the screen was typed " You have outstanding bills.Please proceed to the counter to make your payment " I hid the book behind some other books so no one would able to borrow it.Hehe!Maybe,tomorrow I'll head to the Library and borrow the books i hid ( if its still there ) .

I'm so stressed up.Have no one to talk to these days.I mean,none of my friends and cousins are there to talk to.Yea,and that's because I'm only online at 9.30pm or 10pm.But well,not worth of complaining.I can still talk to them in school or call my cousins up ( don't even think i can ).Get well soon dearly cousin,Iffa.

Its late.Sleepy that's it.Nighty night! ~Adious

I'm too tired.But,i don't mind blogging.
I need painkillers !!!

Well,its Friday today.School has went just fine.Just that,I just don't know what makes me like Mdm Punitham ALOT ! These days have been a burden to me.Lack of sleep and no energy.
Bro called and said at his place was 6am or 6pm.Not too sure.But good that he called home.

NCC today,and had to go HQ NCC for IMT.When we reached there,everything was totally fine.We did the stripping and essemble of riffle.Shikin said the Sir was abit pevertic.Yea,i admit.And he is funny too.Oh yeah,I PASSED MY IMT ! For the stripping and essembling,i would always be the 1st or 2nd to finish.Some people had trouble with their Riffle.After finishing,had to fold the ground mat.While walking back to the bus at the staircase,Mrs Sharon Tan said " Eh be careful ah.Cause SOMEONE had fall here last year.SOMEONE fall on this staircase " She was refering to me and everyone burst out in laughter including me.Hahaha!In the bus,Shikin,Khairin,Bariah and me slept at each other shoulder.At school,i was totally bonkers and out of mind.Fadhillah is so cute!Bariah called me " CrAzY FrIeNd " Hahaha!Anyway,we had lotsa fun together when we were walking back home.

Hadn't talk to her for a couple of days.Is she alright?Hope so..
I've gone BoNkErS ! ~Weeee ~Adious

Another day has gone..
Well,this week really upset me alot.The confusion and depression of each other human beings.But,it turn out QUITE well at school.Lets start talking about,school.Sci has been interesting than i thought.I mean,its so interesting that i understand.Haha woah! Hmm,if you are wondering how is Hist and the teacher itself,it went just fine.The only thing was,Mr Lim's teaching is setting everyone to sleep.Even he admitted.I mean,his voice is sorta the side of monotone,and he is hoping to change.So..i guess.Eng,is terribly unfair to me.My group members,Sharon and Xiao Yan is expecting me to come out all the ideas for the compo.And the worse of it,i have to do it.Both have a reason for not getting to stay back after school.Sharon have choir audition and Xiao Yan have basketball.Just spare sometime on our work please.If i were to tell Mdm Fauziah,would she get mad or furious over me?I predicted..yes.

Shush..this coming Fri is IMT.I'm so gonna be dead.I gotta pass or bro would lose face! Hahaha! I mean,bro friends would be there and all of them know me.And if I fail,they would know and bro would just shake his head.Lets take the scene of the shooting last year,i failed and bro instantly knew because it was spread and he gave me lecture.Days are getting harder and tougher for me.Not in the case of studies or strength,but what's around me.Mum and 1st bro has banned me from playing computer.1st bro said that it would affect my studies.He thinks every second,is 5 marks deducted from my paper.So he is expecting me to study from 3pm - 9pm .6hours? That would be after school cause i usually reach home at 3pm.It would be worse when it comes to weekend.Yesterday night,i just thought about it and to me it was way unfair.Then,at the second hand,it was a good reason why bro didnt allowed.I mean,he really wants me to pass and not only pass but to excel for my future dreams.He cares,gotta admit.But,wish 2nd bro was here to support me.Wonder how is he doing at NZ now..

Well just had a lecture from my Uncle.Telling me to be positive and all that.Believe in myself.I'm soon gonna get well known of myself so i think,its time to think that everything is possible.
And yeah,about the interview,i just hope everything goes well and i won't stammer or show my nervousness( if i am ) .Trying to think out of the box and get varieties of words to fill up the form to get it correct and what I intend to mean.
Getting late now..tired **yawn..~Adious

Its worse being useless.What do you expect,when someone actually get mad over you when at the moment,were totally sad and then,it went worse.
I gotta say,worst day of my life...

Morning had some workout.I just sat at the stairs of the stage and look at people doing workouts.PE went okey,just that i wish i was playing the Captain's Ball and Run to head for 1st.Sat at the chess table feeling cold and holding a bag filled with wallets.Then it was Sci and then MT.Cikgu scolded me for being so slow in answering the questions.I feel terrible about that.Hist was the worst moment i ever had in my Secondary life.It all started when Mr Lim gave out the Hist WkBk.Then he called my name and marked an ' * ' sign to my book and scolded me for not doing my HW.Seriously,when he said that,I knew i had done all my HW and i never had not done any,even at any subjects.Was shocked when i realised that I missed out one page and didn't know that page needs to be done.Went back to my seat and flipped the page and saw a message written " Fatin,If you do NOT do your work,I may have to suspend you from class IMMEDIATELY " I just then felt my heart broke into peices.I don't want to be suspended ! Neither miss any of my HW !

For the whole period,i didn't even want to talk to anyone.Especially when Mr Lim kept saying my name over and over again.It really felt as though everyone was against me cause everyone was staring at me.Tears filled my almond shape eyes and dripped at the end of it.Just then,no one realise,what a great realieve.Mr Lim called me up for me and Wensu to see him because of the HW.Then,it comes to my turn,i said " Sorry " but i guess he didn't hear it.And he said " No time ! " and walked off the class.I just feel like killing myself and be invisible!For the second thought at that time, I want to go home..i don't want to get another scolding.I cant bare it anymore.I wanna hind myself and cry all day at home.Eng,went to the Library.Everyone kept asking why I was sad,they need not need to know right?They saw everything.Suddenly,i just brust out in tears during Eng lesson.Couldn't hold on my emotions.Not sure whether Mdm Fauziah saw,but hope not.I feel really bad and disapointed on myself.I kept scolding myself for not doing the HW.I'm sorry...

Went back home and cried.Wish could talk to someone bout what happened.Mum called asking how was school.Well,I told her and she said " I know you very well,and know that you won't miss your Hw " I felt better when i knew at least someone trust me and that someone knew me for a long time.Mum even said that if its bothering me,she can talk to Mr Lim.I just don't want her to take the trouble and,its okay with me.Just that,I must always double check to prevent another missed-hw or i'll get suspended.Still crying now,I mean,I can't take what had happened today.I just wished for it to be forgotten..but can't.It really hurt me alot and embarrassed me.

I think,this year is the worst year i ever had.Just starting of the year and lotsa problems attacked me.I just want to transfer to Singapore Sports Sch like what Mum promised when the 1st week at JYSS last year.But everything went so well that time till i changed my mind.
Today is the most hurting day i ever had.And when Mr Alsagoff said " You got back problem right?" Yea,i do have a back problem which is my tailbone.But i said "No,my leg " It feels like thousands of daggers peircing through my heart and body.My mind feel so weak.

All i asked for from God is Strength and Will...~Adious

I wish i was invisible and no one would be able to see me.My legs are falling apart.And my scar is getting VISIBLE than i thought.I just can't look at my scar.Its taking control over my emotions and me.I hate when people ask something to do with Sports or PE lessons.It really made me wanna kill myself.I knew it,there is nothing that can be done and no one can ever solve it.I just don't feel like talking to Shikin about my problems anymore.I mean,i just don't know what make me feel that she is a stranger to me.I hate myself.I hate of being who I am right now.I hate me.My knee join feel as though its going to be dislocated anytime.

These things are such a burden.Running on the track,far away from the finishing line.Every step i take,its like bringing a weigh around my leg.Would you think its easy just to give up on your dreams? I don't think so...

There is something,you really want to achieve for.You dreamt,you earned and you even wish you could get to the higher stage.But for just an incident,everything went wrong.Useless,hopeless,pathetic was all in your head.You tried being realistic,but what you are now is just being pessimistic.Everything is falling apart and you knew,there was no hope.Everything was hiden beneath your very skin and your heart hurts whenever you thought of your dream.But there was only one thing left in you,the tendency.There was two ways.Give up and try.You tried,but then,you gave up..
Try this,I mean,this is really what i felt all this while.All i can do,is just look down on myself.


At the bottom of your heart,you still believe...

Today,
Its Friday.And its 13th.Its the end of the 2nd week of school.
Was almost late today.Lucky i ran quickly as its like a few seconds to flag raising.Sci wasn't boring like last year when Mr Sin taught.Mdm Punitham really explained CLEARLY throughout the lesson.English,Mdm Fauziah wasn't a monster?I mean,she told us that we would sorta receive some scoldings.Then,our comprehension was given out and i PASSED ! I was 1 of the less than 5 people who passed.I had 8/15.Well,at least i still pass right?Hehe! Maths,had some test and we were like given only 20 mins !How could Mrs Koh give us that time?I didn't even completed 2 questions and i don't think i can get like the highest or what.But,its said as 1st test only.Time manangement is needed.I'm getting better in my MT,hopefully..

NCC,for the few minutes when it started i was participating.Than slowly i could feel the very pain at my knee.Couldn't handle it so decided to fall out.Was so bored and had NO one to talk to,so decided to join.Well,Nurril and Hanisah were funny,especially Nurril! Haha,she kept talking bout boys and say something which is sensored.Hahaha!Well,feel free to ask.Don't wanna let it out here,cause it would be offensive to the males.Then came Fadhillah.She is a 24hr joker mann! Seriously ! I had lots of stiches talking to her.CCA fair tomorrow.I'm so freaking tired.Bro has flew to NewZealand for his NCC stuff.Lucky he was chosen out of hundreds of people ! He make a good cadet.But shocking was,he is the only malay there.Don't feel left out bro!Gonna miss bro alot!Just hope he gets some stuff for me.

Okey,I'm tired..
Happy yet inside,useless..~Adious

I feel so stupid,being around the Sec Ones.

Its the 2nd week of school.There is alot of changes in the timetable so i tend to get confused.
Today,Mdm Fauziah wasn't present as i expected.So the whole period was just,seat,do some work and stare at the thin air.Perfectly,staring at the wall.Gotta admit,I was abit cheerful today.I spend almost the whole day laughing together with Syafiqah and Natasha.We were like making all those sort of craps and talked nonsense.
Tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji.Pity all those sheep that is going to be slaughter tomorrow.
To all muslimin,muslimat...
Selamat Hari Raya haji !!!

I can't believe,the things that happened to me.I just can't look its killing me,and taking control.
My life suddenly become so dark.And i keep think that everything is impossible instead of nothing is impossible.I just hope I would not go for another operation or lose a leg.I hope,I wish,everything would go fine.I hope there isn't anything BIG that is wrong with my leg.I want this month to finish off quickly and then come Feb which when I can try and try believing in myself again.Its like,there is something missing in myself.Not at the moment of having colours.Just feel hopeless.Probably won't blog that often due to whats around.Only when i have the intention.Hope this problem won't drive me nuts or get me go bonkers..

Courage,strength,trust,bravery..all gone..~Adious

Another tough yet tiring day has gone.School was normal but just dont understand Mrs Kho explaination.Today had NCC.Seriously,i have no single mood and knowing who I am,and what has happened.That's why people pass by me would notice I'm abit to the sad side.Going for NCC and just seat one side is dead bored.Just imagine,watching people marching and have no one to talk to,well except Bariah.Then Hanisah asked whether I want to participate cause she is choosing for the CCA Fair and Speech Day i guess.So,it was fine with me as long as i don't run.Its really tough.And especially when we have to FLY to another place.Then,i would obviously feel odd when im not running.So as i ran,i could feel the unbaring pain at my knee.Such a terrible thing to experience.I always would be the 1st to reach,but now..last.It didn't brought me to any mood of talking to people.My dreams are ruin,and hope to be brought back again.My aim and my goals,are far away from my expectation.Such a tragic thing..

Break,drank water and all that.I reported sick cause,i dont feel like particapating and my leg hurts more than any cut does.Fadillah came and she made some silly jokes.It really gave me lots of stiches.Me and Bariah couldn't stop laughing.Then the other cadets look at us cause we were laughing like hell.Showed my stich to Jiaen and she almost freak out.Hahaha!Told Mr Sin about my op. Asked him about what i wanted to,but he didn't seems to take it seriously.He said "Chopped it off"It wasn't a joke to me cause i really am worried.It didn't want me to talk to him.Well,guess he can't help.I feel like screaming.Don't feel like talking to Mdm Punitham bout this.I don't want her to bring me to the counseller.I feel so terrible and never had felt like this bad before.No,not thinking of commit suicide.That would never be in my list.But,i just felt everything is ruined.So RUINED till I just don't think i ever get to my goal.

Argh!Stupid,pathetic,dumb,moron ! I shouldn't have gone for the operation.Its all a regret! Mann...i feel useless than ever!I feel like giving up!I feel like give up on myself ! I never be what i wanted.I will never get what i want i guess..
Crying now,and also deep in my heart.I hate of who i am now.Scream,shout,cry was all at the back of my mind.Bring me back to reality..Get the actually me back.Will never happen....

Heart sinks and courage gone.The humourousity has vanished.Happiness change to sadness.Pathetic me.Help..is all i can say..~Adious

Heys.Today had PE.Well,Mr Alsaqoff said every 1 sec late is 1 push up.Bare in mind,I can't run,so i hope if I'm late,he doesn't count.Gave him the MC and he said to hold it on.He appointed me to become Bag Girl.So i have to carry the bag everywhere we go.I'm a sick chick too.Yea,only for 1 Month.Took height and weight.I guess i have strunk.From 147 to 146.5.Is it me or Mr Alsaqoff?And yea,always wanted to be a PE Rep since P1,but i never will i guess.Wanted to be this year,but Mr Alsaqoff choose the fastest runner for girls and boys to become PE Rep.I couldn't run,so i guess its Izzati was choosen.Really disapointing..My heart sank.Just wish i could join them run.There was abit of tears at my eyes,but didn't let it down.I just hope...

Mdm Punitham choose me to become Treasurer.I didn't even voleenteer for anything.So collecting money must hold a very great responsibility.The board community who is Kamil,Jeremy,Danial,Natasha,Syafiqah and Me decorate during Mdm Fauziah's lesson.Obviously,we are aiming for the best class board.Then Kamil had to go.Then Danial is so selfish.He wants to do everything by his own and thinks everything he is right.And yeah,he still owes me $2 over since last year.Haha!But well,nevermind though.He owes the whole of 1E4.The Jeremy was so funny.Then i deco the room with Syafiqah,Natasha only.The boys went home.Well,the door is abit attractive.

Went back feeling quite disapointing about what had happened today.I just got the feeling that,this year is the worst year.Mann,seriously went home and felt like crying.Mum obviously wont understand.I'm kinda worried about myself.About my leg.About whether i can after Jan.Don't think anyone knows the answer..Have not asked Mr Sin yet,but hope he knows what to do and give some advice?Mann,i feel so terribly hopeless..

Talk to Izzat bout how is he doing in his Express stream right now.Hope he can cope and not think he is still in NA.Good that he made it to Express.Asked him what would he like for the Sec3 course.He wanted Arts.Well,as for me,Mum expected me to learn more bout Bio cause she expecting me to be a Dr.I objected!But finally Mum said "Its your choice.As long as you can excel for you O'Level and have the root for what you wanted"Not like I'm good at Sci.Art needs creativity.Just don't feel like taking Art too.I was thinking of getting POA or A Maths that has Maths unclude on it.Mum suddenly said I should take A Maths,and so does Zuhayr,Iffa and Izzat?Mrs Kho is expecting alot from me i guess cause Ms Arnita told her bout what i had last year.Haha! Kinda blushed when she congratulated me.Its good to set your targets 1st then last minute.So,to join A Maths its obvious I need to be good at Maths right?Not too sure..haha!

NCC tomorrow.Still have to attend even I have MC.Hope tomorrow goes well...~Adious

Well,just another day at school today.Just that today is Wednesday.Haha.My leg still hurts after climbing the stairs.And i can feel like my stich is going to tear anytime,which is so impossible.But mann,it hurts badly.Oh yea,during recess was the embarrassing moment i guess.I can't stop laughing bout what happened.Was looking for Syafiqah and Natasha at the canteen.Then,i saw one person who i thought was Syahidah.So i went to that person asked "You saw Syafiqah and Natasha?" Then she didn't reply.So i tapped here,then when she turned,she said " Huh? " And then it was when i realised i got the wrong person!Hahaha!Then i quickly apologise and went away.I couldn't stop laughing bout how embarrassed i was.

Eng did compo about ourself.I wrote about what i like,sports,my hoobies and so on.I guess it would be boring.Maths just this and that.Talk and introduce.Then do some problem sums.I miss Ms Arnita so much! I just wish she could teach Maths.I miss being Sec1.Huda told us that our PE teacher teach very tough.I don't care whether its tough or what,but to me NCC is more tougher.Yahya said Mr Syed is funny.Funnier that Ms Arnita,hope so..but Mr Jae is way much better being a PE teacher.Its gonna be boring for me.No PE or any activities for 1 month!No NCC too! Mann,i just feel hopeless for the time being.But no worries,a new year beginning and a new start!

I'm so addicted to tomatoes.Yummy!My brain is still rusty and at a holiday mood.Just need somedays to get back.Not allowed to play Habbo except for weekends.Study in the afternoon and play at night.Tomorrow PE ! ~Adious

Back to school again.Left house about 6:15am i guess.While walking to the MRT,wanted to catch the MRT but the announcement which is "For your own safety please stand behind the yellow line" but to me it went "For your own safety,don't rush for the current MRT"That changed my mind of rushing for it. Reached school and saw my buddies!Good to see them.Flag raising started and followed by rules and Welcoming the Sec1 cohord.Natasha said because of the Sec1,Junyuan changed.Well,to me it wasnt bout it.Maybe its to improve the students.Its kinda fine to me,but the time is really confusing.

My classroom was way up high to the 4th floor!Where class 3E2 was last year.It was dead tiring for me.My leg seriously couldn't handle it.I just felt as though i was gonna roll down the flight of stairs.Junyuan doesn't have lifts right??I guess so..
Form teacher is Mdm Punitham.Pity her that she broke her arm while attending the plants.She told us if we have any problems we can see her.Well,its somehow make me wanna tear out.Then Eng teacher was Mdm Fauziah !! Hahas! She is funny.She is sorta beginning to say "Whatever!" hahahaha!It really gave me stiches.Was choosen to help Kamil to decorate the classroom.Well,thats better than going home and play comp.Hahaha!

Stephanie has a problem right now.I just wish i knew Mandrin and Malay well.Maybe,Stephanie has the same problem,but she is afraid.I don't Malay that well and she Mandrin.At least,i have my buds to ask if i not sure,but she,her friends didn't bother.I really have the sympathy on her.I became her counsellor but whatever i told her to solve,its always negative to her.She is somehow like me.Thinking of a way to help her.That's whats friends should do right?Help each other.Well,i better start thinking.Tomorrow school!~Adious

First and foremost...

Happy New Year Everyone !!!

Yea,blogging about 3a.m in the morning now.Just wondering why I am not asleep yet.Bro went to the countdown.2 Days still school reopen.I am so excited.Wonder who is gonna be my form teacher..hopefully Mdm Fauziah!! I also wonder,what would people say about my hair? And yea,I'm not using crutches when school reopen.By now,I think Sabri has dyed his hair black.Haha,so surprised when he said he dyed his hair red.

Gosh,typing really fast right now cause Mum told me to get to bed soon and my eyes barely open.Hahaha.Something caught my eyes when i was at SportLinks.Hope Mum allow me to buy it.Gotta get stationaries that are missing at my pencil case.Well,I think thats all about it..Good night ~Adious