DILEMMA

ARGHH!!
So much of wanna go San Antonio, Texas, USA. But the MAIN ISSUE here is, whether to go or not?
I hate this kind of feeling of confusion.

Teachers and friends advised this :
"It's best you don't go as, you will miss 2 weeks of bridging programme. And O Levels are near. It's best you concentrate"

Me BROTHER and my heart said :
"GO! You will miss the big opportunity. It's USA girl. Only a few get to go. This is your chance Fatin"

ARGH !!!

So i plead, for anyone who is reading this entry, to give your opinion on this trip.
Be it through my tagboard, msn or sms. I'm desperate for an answer.

Jonathan Pong and Koh Guo Yan are going. I think...

Only god knows why...

I wanna go for International Cadet Exchange Programme (ICEP) to
USA (United States of America)

ARGHH!!!!
I wanna go. I wanna go. I wanna go!!!

One of the reasons is, for my dirty little secret that only some knows...
Wahahaha. Its a secret.
Okay, enough said.

Bravo 3 !!! "Wassup Babe"

Yes, I'm missing them.

Okay, so i was looking at Hasanah's multiply and found a few photos that made me laugh so darn hard.

I was concentrating and there Khairin sempat pose.

We were PartC

Haha this is funny. It's as
though the pic is contrating on the 3 of us.
No offence...

Oh yeahh...

And next week, I'm gonna stand down from NCC.
But I promise i'll be back.

Oh yes, I'm gonna start a new chapter.
I'll be back to my weekly routines, Swimming and jogging.
Oh yeah, I'll be back to my usual self in no time. No doubt.

Colour my world =)

Yes, I'm back.
And better than before.

SUPERNUMERARY
Bravo 3 Section 3 (C/Offr Nesaar)
- Nurul, Stella, Azumat, Jun Rong, Lionel, Nawawi, Derrick, Sollehin, Andi Haron, Samson
Also not to forget my platoon mates, Sabiruna, Hafidz, Zul, Raja, Russell, Syaqeeq, Muslim, Corrine, plus many many more which i can't remember their name.
The Cadet Officer Trainees that made the Course happening.

So met my Camp Pinnacle friends, Hafidz and Zul and some others.
And they still call me Pong Pong. Hahaha.
Also, at ADC, they call me Pixie, Pong Pong, Mickey Mouse. Hahaha...

Haha okay, so no regrets going for this course. It is a great experience and i eventually built a bigger social circle. I experienced the nerve wrecking interview and also received a very touching encouragement by my PC, C/Offr Nesaar.

THINK STRAIGHT
WE ARE AHEAD
UP CHEST
WE ARE BEST

BRAVO? HELL YEAH !!!

UNIT CAMP 2008
Came back and run towards my lovely USM, Khairin Nadzirah and embraced her. Tears filled my eyes as i am happy to see her. I miss my USM.
Kuddos to Khairin for making the camp a successful one. I'm proud of her.
I felt a warm welcome by my cadets who gave me a group hug. Haha it touched me. Some even say they miss me. Wahh that's even touching.

The campfire was
WONFDERUL !!!
The girls were so enthusiastic and so ON.
That made the campfire spirit.

Okay, went back and crashed.
I never felt so tired in my life before. Even 12hrs of sleep is not enough.
And i slept in class today...

ADC!

Okay great.

On Friday, I felt better. I felt even better when they replace it to Hong Wei.
Thanks to Ah Pong (Jonathan Pong) for taking the effort to find a replacement to go Supernumerary with me. And also, Gabriel and Guo Yan for considering to go.
These 3 guys were there for me when HE said he couldn't go. They made me feel as though everything is gonna be okay. Not to forget, Hui Peng and Diyana who gave a short but meaningful and encouraging message.
Also, Shikin who said "Everything will be okay when Shikin is around"
AND
Khairin, whom i trust and believe, that can run the Unit Camp by her own. I felt much better when Khairin is confident.

So, the super duper news is NCC GIRLS achieved GOLD for BEST UNIT COMPETITION. And it's the 1st time in history we actually get GOLD.

Unit Camp is in 3 days time and Supernumerary is less than 1 day. My palms are sweaty and i'm nervous.
I'll be looking forward to the Unit Campfire 2008, cause I'll back then to watch them perform.

Thanks Ah Pong...

Sighh...

It seems like everything is crashing down on me.
God knows how hard i tried to act as though everything is okay.

The most recent one is, there's 75% of chance of me going to Advance Drill Course(also known as Supernumerary) ALONE. Thanks to Gabriel who wanted to go for the course to replace Khairi. But replacing sounds impossible. WHY?
The course is this coming Monday. And to change the particulars and not attending the pre-course briefing makes Gabriel have a slim chance to go.

And going ALONE makes me feel so darn nervous and no one to turn to. Cause everyone is not supporting my decision.

I believe i can
I believe i will
I believe i know my dreams are real
I believe i'll stand
I believe i'll dance
I believe i'll grow real soon and
That is what i do believe.

I never knew this will be so tough...

I feel so drained up.

Well, lately, i've been encountering problems with no one to turn to. All i did was close my eyes and a open my eyes WITH THE PROBLEMS STILL THERE. Shit...
No, not a nightmare.

So the SMO was boring. Seriously. Class filled with nerds. Well i guess i'm one of them. HAHA. But seriously now, there's no one joking. Everyone was into the questions and i will be staring blankly at the paper waiting for the answer to pop out. And i have to bare with it for another 4 more trainings which concludes 8 hours in total. Wow, i'm suck a geek.

So yesterday's training was so-so. I miss my PartBs cheeky-ness. And i realised that what makes me happy is the smiles spread on my cadets faces. Too bad i can't go through the Unit Camp with them.
Marched with my PartCs and hentak kaki with them. I regret doing that.

WHY?
Cause it caused my knee cap to be kinda loose. And it affected my cross-country.
CROSS COUNTRY.
Hmms.. Okay i shall say.
I was damn disappointed with myself. Aimed for top 5 and got 1 combined with a 0 which equals to 10th placing. SHIT
Went home with a long face and bro perked me up by saying this

BRO: 10? It's good what!!! Those who infront of you all in sports CCA right?
Me : Yeah... i think
BRO : Yeah lah. It's good. They train every week for CCA. You NCC! March only.
Me : Hmm... you got a point...

And congrats to Tiffany who had 3rd placing. I seriously cannot keep up with her.

I'm captivated by this advertisement. Saucony Run at East Coast Park. The only problem is, i got not one to run with and bro is not interested.
Anyone would like to run with me for the Saucony Run?

Maybe...I'm a retired runner.