Caught a flu spread by Suhaimi. Which then i passed to Khairin and SamC. Thanks dude...

It's kinda bad week for me..
Mon - I hate you to the core !
Tues - PDS is OUT!
Wed - Shikin's accident
Thurs - Sickening guilt.
Fri - Laughing gas

Well, yes i love Friday the most. Today had a good laugh with Khairin and my cadets. Well, for Chem, Khairin and I are lab partners since Amirah didnt come. I had a good laugh for what she did. It was a good start of the day then.

C'mon mann, be a man. I seriously pity how she suffers every minute thinking about it. " WHY??" was all in her mind. You gotta help her mann. Which would help you too.

Slowly it is vanishing in my mind. How i hope i won't have that kind of feelings. Eventhough i enjoy the fun and laughter, i dread being suspense by the questions that run through my head. I wish it could be clear or i would rather clear it myself.

I'm DISAPOINTED in myself. How i did badly for JYS League. It aint helping me somehow. I felt being accused for whatever had happened on WEDNESDAY. Forgive me...

Arghh...

All i have to say is... Thanks.
What is wrong with you? Can you for once, stop thinking about yourself ? Seriously, i am pissed off with you. And to whatever had happened, i seriously miss the part where that's my problem. Damn you for once mann !!

The JYS League was smooth yesterday. Cheerios to Mark Cow. Yes, we won against Desperados. Thanks to Zul for his skillful scoring. Not to forget Iqbal who was the one out of a hell. He was the one who was the best and yes, of course i received some scoldings for not staying at the box when i had a chance to score a goal.
I really hope the team can win eventhough it means treating them pizza.

I feel so sick after the unexpected fever after the previous match of Jys League. Probably i was too stressed up till i fall ill. I hate having a fever. Can't seemed to lift my head to pay full attention in class.

Everything suddenly made sense...

I wish i can hide myself from public.
It's a hectic day today. Hasanah wasn't present today and i wasn't sure to continue with the S. League. I had very little man power especially the ones to be a referee. There were fights among the players especially the spectators being protestors. I felt pathetic and useless when there was a huge group that crowd around me throwing all sorts of questions and condemned me.

I was tensed up whenever i heard my name being called up. I knew that there was something wrong, and infect, it was. Something wrong with the referee, the game, the score. I felt that i was responsible for the missing soccer balls. It took alot of guts to tell Mr Jae that 2 balls were missing. Yes, it's a hard work.

Yes, i agree i'm not a good organizer.
But i would try my best for the next game so that it would be a clean one. I would make Hasanah proud of Sports Div.

Just give me one more chance, one more try...

I have mixed feelings. I'm not sure how to describe it.

I dread thinking about it. When i think about it, it made me feel calm. But the more i think about it, the more the force of attraction grows.

It's a hectic week for me.
S. League was okay i must say. But it doesn't look organised. However, Hasanah said it was a good job...
Mark Cow, okay that's the team name, won against Stronghold. Eventhough i wasn't playing, i felt frustrated when the Stronghold had a tie with us. Irfan scored the first shot. It was smooth. Then Izzat scored the penalty shot. He saved the team. Thanks Fan and Zat. I'm proud of them, really. Raizen's tackling was pro. Raihan was exhausted, from what i can see, he did extreamely well.

No hard feelings and i'm okay not playing for the first match. Infect, i didn't wanna play for that match. I started with a bad mood and was really furious with someone.

Yes, No, Maybe, I don't know. Can you repeat that question ?

I suddenly hate him for some reason.
I'm pissed off with him.. I hate talking to him.
Well i guess there ends our friendship...

I'm not really in the good mood nowadays. Started with a monday blues. Tests, homeworks, meetings and soccer league.

I managed to spend some quality time with my best buds. I'm cool with that. It was fun but then it ended when Tasha had to go home, i had to go home and Huda anything.

Looking forward for the best movie, Harry Potter. I'm in a big dilemma. Classmates, buddies or cousins?

I believe this might be the last few entries before i close down my blog. For some reason, blogging plays with my mind. I'm really in a hectic situation. I might continue.....

The smile on your face made my troubles disappear...

I am full aware that a cold change is taking place inside me.
I dread it...

I'm looking forward to OBS.
I wonder why they stated if we run, swim, kayak, do rock climbing or go for camps.
Does that determines the Watches we are assigned to?

I'm trying my best to forget what i had been keeping inside me since last year. I wanna start a new life.

" The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. "