Oh no...

Now I'm gonna get emo.
I'm missing my dear friends from 4E3.
Dear,
Amirah, Khairin, Shikin, Izzat, Suhaimi and Ken,
I miss you all...
Sounds so wrong, but yes i do. Guo Yan? Haha, see him everyday.

56th Cadet Officer Course
I'm PROUD OF MYSELF that i went through the obstacles!!!
So Thursday had Adventure Training. Whereby we have to go through obstacles.
Thanks to my PC, APC and my platoonmates, who were concern about my knee.
But, i still went through all the obstacles.
Archery, High Ropes, FLYING FOX, Repelling, Obstacle course, Rock Climbing.

And the low wall is freaking high, and the high wall is freaking low.

I did the FLYING FOX! Also the Repelling.
The flying fox was definately FUN. At first it was scary. Felt like my heart was left on top.
But later, it was damn shoik.
Repelling, i'm proud i did. But it was traumatising when the part you have to make the L shape from the ledge to the vertical wall.
A phobia conquered.

Then had First Aid Course.
Learnt how to execute CPR.
Hahaha did CPR on Bobby the dummy.
Bobby is saved!

Okay.. so now that many people have an impression of a "small kid but loud" on me.
So now a nickname given to me, Chili Padi.
Small yet, strong.

Must say a very united Platoon.
And tomorrow we are meeting as a whole Platoon at City Hall.

56th?
56th Respect And Humility!

When hope is gone..
When I refuse to give in
But then, I have to accept the fact, and move on.
MOVE ON LAH!

56th Cadet Officer Course

Well, it was okay. Still hanging on.
Syindicate 4, also known as SPARTANS, is the smallest platoon yet the wildest one.
Combination of East and Sea cadets.
Loud and enthusiastic people right there.
Aahh-woo!

So basically, yesterday had leadership course.
Leadership = congruency ?
And, we must VISUALISE.
Haha, pretty interesting workshop.

Today, we cleaned the rifles. Oh yes, very dirty. Filled with carbon.
Learnt SAR 21. It's pretty the same as M16, but easier to strip and assemble. Also, heavier.

Okay.. the fact is, I'm very lazy to blog.
Really, I'm really tired.

I'm thinking of things that are impossible to happen.
Things that have gone too far.
I'm in a region of my own weakness and confusion.
I gotta get out of this mann..

I'm looking forward to Passing Out Parade.
And it's only the 2nd day.

Kinda exhausted. From Prom Night to Chalet.

PROM NIGHT
So yes, i didn't find a dress for myself.
But my cousin, Iffa, lent her casual dress to me.
So... haha, i don't know lah. I'm not a person who looks for dresses.

The person you saw on Wednesday was seriously not Fatin.
Haha, i don't know who is she. She is probably... my twin?
Don't worry, you won't see that girl who imposed as me, with straight hair, and some dress.
Hahaha.

Will be posting the pictures.. NOT. Hehe, see if I'm free.

CLASS CHALET
I must say it was successful, but wasn't that fun that i expected.
Everyone was at their own world.
I too didn't feel the enthusiasm to start the spirit.

People come and go. The looks etched on their face shows that they definitely didn't enjoy. I felt like a failure, unable to bond the class together. Some were even unhappy.
Dear classmates, I'm really sorry. Maybe, we shall make it another time, whereby EVERYONE can make it.

Well, I'm just too lazy to blog. Just the brief of the events.
Shall elaborate some other time.

And I'm feeling very exhausted, even coffee does not help. And depressed too..

So on Sunday went out with my cousin, Iffa.
Well that girl is crazy.
She hope to get me a dress, but it's like tougher than it looks.

So this is how she looks after 2 hours of hunting.
Haha.

On Monday, which was yesterday,
went to Yio Chu Kang to collect the uniforms for 56th Cadet Officer Course.
Thanks to Amirah and Suhaimi who accompanied me for almost half of the day.
The laughter and talks on the bus. And the stressed up part during decision making.
Oh yah, not to mention, I saw a ghost in the bus.

Hahaha.
Wonder who.. wear specs somemore.

Well, after going out with them, met Natasha, Zafirah and Syafiqah at Bugis.
Hahaha, I guess it's pretty hard to get a suitable dress yeah?
And so, I gave up. Also, at the verge of tears.
Shopping can be very depressing.

My head felt heavy.
Any my eyes were barely open.
I wanted to go for the last shooting training with the girls, but my body was too tired.
But managed to get out of my slumbers and dragged myself there.
AND YES!
Coach Eddie remembers me!
Me and Shik tried shooting and yes, we are terrible in it now.
My grouping size is as big as an elephant's butt.
My hands were trembling for the unsupported part.

Shikin, COACH EDDIE, Me

To all the best my dearest Part C shooters,
All the best for tomorrow's life range.
I'm confident you guys would do well.
Remember, Aim high. Aim for excellence.
Make Junyuan and Coach Eddie proud!

Met Mr Ryan Tan at Eastpoint, and he told me
"You should go for the operation"

I'm feeling reluctant to go 56th Cadet Officer Course.
But, I'll never know what would happen unless i experience it.
So I'll be off on 24 Nov - 12 Dec.

Damn, tomorrow is Prom Nite.
And not excited at all...

Oh really man, I'm tired.

Looks like staying at Marine Parade is not convenient afterall. Had to wake up very early ending up being very late.

Okay... so Wednesday, 12 Nov 08 was Amirah's birthday.
I really had a lot of fun. I don't think i should update photos as most photos are updated at Shikin's blog.
And this is the first time, all eight of us, namely,
Amirah, Shikin, Khairin, Suhaimi, Izzat, Guo Yan, Ken and Me went out together.
It was a sheer bliss.

Then on Thursday we had Graduation Day.
Hmm.. pretty sad. Took a couple of pictures.

On Friday, which was yesterday,
went to watch High School Musical with Syafiqah, Huda and Natasha.
Oh yes the movie was superb! As soon as i stepped out of the Theatre, i felt like dancing and singing infront of the public. Haha.

Today,
went to the 56th Cadet Officer Course pre-course briefing.
Many familiar faces. Oh, I can't wait for the course to end.
Kinda relieved when me and Yan is in the same Syndicate.

And... I'm feeling very restless.
No mood to blog too.. Hehe.

I'm trying to be strong, but the strength is washing away...

Still in dilemma. But the date is confirmed.
I'm in a dilemma of whether i should carry on with the operation.
Many say go, but my heart still feels heavy to go.

It may be a minor thing, but it brings a major impact to my life.

I'm not sure whether I'm taking the right step.

So what is it that's good for me?

Dear god, please show me the light to the right path i should take.

Physics Paper 1 was managable.

But damn you, Fatin!

I did numerous mistakes! No chance to get A1.

Ggrrr arggggh !!!

Well, it's okay. 1 more paper to go!!!

But... come to think of it, it means school is gonna end.

4 years spent on such a wonderful school filled with wonderful friends and teachers.

Friends who were there to stand by me, bring me to life and colour the world.

Teachers who guide us through, bringing education to live and giving the upmost support.

Meet my guarding cat at the front door!

It's name is CING! Also, Tompok.

Haha.

Cing always guard the door whenever I'm home alone.

Never fails to welcome me back home and send me out to school.

(Although he only sits on the mat and look around)

Haha.

So he is a very "manja" cat. And went into the house twice!

And bit me 3 times!

Hmm.. I shall put a sign "BEWARE! STRAY CAT GUARDING"

When the hope is gone...