Heart filled with jubilation as I excitedly chased the ball.
Like a relapse, I fell.
With arms wrapped around me knee, I prayed if it's all a nightmare.
I was proved wrong as the pain coursed through my veins, leaving me in excruciating pain.
Fearing the worst, my heart sank with regret, as i had ignored the advice given and had succumbed to the lure of the adreanaline rush.


This words made an impact to me.
" Fatin, you are still young. Take care of yourself. "
And it made me wondering,
Will I be the usual person I used to be?
Will I have to lead a new life?

The service at CGH is horrendously slow!
Guess what?
I waited for 2 long hours just for an arrogant doctor.
And the appointment was disappointing one for me.

SCHOOL
I must thank my friends who were there to lend me a support, especially Shikin, Amirah and Khairin who never fails to be by my side.
Also Jia Hao who felt utterly remorsed for the Monday's incident. He bravely stood up and talked to Mdm Fara bout it.
Thanks.

I must admit i felt as though my life is crushed, though I smiled bleakly, trying to hide my emotions.
Cried out during recess. Can't deny i felt much better after that.
Tears clear the windows of our soul.

This is probably a test.
A test for you from him. Everyone has their own test.
Maybe your's is the physical one.
Who knows after this, you can be a faster runner?
Be patient, and never give up. Have faith in yourself.

- It made my day =)

And it feels different having to fake a smile.

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Life these days had been hard for me.
I wonder whether I should know things that have been around.
And perhaps, somethings are just meant not to be known.

Went to the gym with Shikin and Amirah.
Shikin just look so silly being lost. Sorry Shik..
And the burger was nice. Thanks yeah =)

Before working out, we were in the toilet :
Shikin : Eh, you all bring face towel? Oh i never bring.
Amirah : Eh you are suppose to bring eh. If not have to buy downstairs.
Shikin : Alahh... malas uh. But i bring towel.
Fatin : What towel?
Shikin : Bathing towel.
And Me and Amirah burst out in laughter.

After working out, Shikin planned to bathe:
Shikin : *showering in the cubicle*
Fatin : Eh Shikin, you bathe, then you got no towel?
Shikin : Ahhhh!! Fatin...
Amirah : Don't give her.
Shikin : Alahh... Fatin...
Fatin : You go out and take yourself ah.
Shikin : Fatin...
Haha, someone so confident want to bathe, but forgot towel.

Well, thanks Shik and Mia for joining me to the gym.
Saw the counter aunty again at the gym. Well, the last time i saw her was sec2?
And at that time she mistook me as a boy.
She then told Shikin she know me. Haha cute Aunty. Don't wanna talk to me but talk to Shikin.
Thank God she doesn't mistake me as a boy again.

Thought of going swimming after that. However, i think i should not overstrain my knee,
since i have an oppoinment with the doctor this Monday.
(& i still can't bend my knee with ease. I wonder how... Will $500 be gone for the scan?)

I badly want to grow tall. Probably up to 1.6m?
Maybe, i need "How to grow tall for dummies"

Or anyone got any alternatives, besides leg extension?

How i dread to drag myself out of my slumber. With leaking nose, itchy throat and burning cough, I wish I could just sleep all day.

Started with sorethroat on Monday.
It got worst on Tuesday.
The cough came burning on Wednesday
& influenza strikes on Thursday. ARGHH!!!

It sucks to be sick.

The good thing is, we get to enjoy free periods. Well, thought of a food party with Izzat and Guo Yan, but it didn't worked out.

Nevermind, food is always available under my desk. HAHA!

So during the 2hrs, had fun crapping with Shikin.

You should see how silly Shik is. And how cute she can get when she is angry with me.

Shikin trying to smuggle food into her mouth.

Amirah emo-ing with her maths question.

Khairin irritated by her leaking nose.

And then Tiffany was playing with this piece of paper.

She then had a brilliant idea.

Her idea : Eh why not we put this paper inside the bottle, then when it sinks, we take picture of the paper in the bottle.

So when she puts it inside, the paper floats.

What's silly is we didn't think about the basic principle. Which is, paper floats on water! Hahaha! But we manage to take this,

Malay?Haha it's a paper meant for my file.

So discovered something cool today.
Izzat was playing with the rubber band. So he elastic-ed me.
And this is the mark.


CAN YOU SPOT THE SMILEY FACE?
The left one is my actual skin, while the right one is edited so that the smiley face would be more distinct.

Then, Ken elastic-ed Guo Yan.


CAN YOU SPOT THE NIKE LOGO?
The left one is his actual skin, while the right one is edited so that the Nike Logo would be more distinct.

Isn't it cool?
Just one hit with a rubber band you can form different figures!
Haha.

Just another hurdle

I'm motivation personified by an article from The Sunday Times.
How the disable pursue their life even how different they are from the "normals".
Most of these special athletes have lost half of their lifes. They struggled through, and got back on track.
I SALUTE THEM.
And for a moment, yes I know I'm disabled, but I aint giving up what i call my DREAM.

The funny thing i realise is that, these special athletes are disabled due to motorcycle accident.
So lesson learnt is : NEVER RIDE MOTORCYCLE.

Tomorrow there's PE.
I've came out of something i would do instead of "relax one corner". Shikin agreed to join my activity, provided with the permission of Mr Alsagoff.
Don't worry, it's not stranious, i suppose.

It's like back to square one.
When i recover, i would train for my stamina so that i could go for Airborne.
For now, I'm taking little steps.
Started off with some light swimming and next, probably power walk.

I'm trying my best.
& I'm serious.

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUDA,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

Dear Huda,
You are a wonderful friend. You never fail to make me smile with your cuteness. And now, you are 1 year OLDER!
Haha =)

So celebrate Huda's birthday with Syafiqah and Natasha at the study corner of the school. Natasha's acting was power. Well, the plan didn't go as well as there was wind and we couldn't light the candle.

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I've never had talks like i did with Shikin, Khairin and Amirah, yesterday.
As a teenager, this is the critical point of our lives. Where people change and faces challenges in life. When some get too emotional and sensitive. Even myself.

I'm grateful to have understanding friends such as them. They can tell what I am feeling with just the look in my eye.

And then love,
love can get too complicated at times.
But i just can't seem to help those who are love-sick. Cause my heart is as cold as an ice. Love hasn't touch me yet. Aside from those siblings love and motherly love or perhaps friends love.
And i wonder, how long would I be like this?

Appointment @ Changi General Hospital : Clinic B

Doctor : Okay, so now you got two choices.
#1 - You can go for the scan to scan the muscles of your leg which cost $500 cash.
#2 - You can choose to go for Pysiotherapy to train your leg muscles.
Me : Pysiotherapy
Doctor : Okay, so if you still can't bend your knee in 1mth time, you have no choice but to go for the scanning. I'll give you 1 month of MC from PE. You are not allowed to run is that clear?
Me : Hehe. How bout swimming?
Doctor : Swimming... swimming should be okay as you are not putting pressure on your knee.
Me : Yes ahh...

So went swimming in the morning.
I felt so good. So fresh. So rejuvenated.
And the adrenaline rush that coursed through my veins.

Maybe, it's really the time for me to forget the pass
and move on...

It's 1st July!

Well yesterday had PE. I appreaciate the concerns from my friends. I know they wouldn't wanna see me suffer in pain. I'm truly touch. But i don't know why i am just so stubborn.
Anyway, i had fun during PE. Rugby is a cool sport. Let's join Rugby Hui Peng!

Later that afternoon, stayed back for NCC girls training. I must say they are not bad.
The Part C is getting the hang of taking over. I know it's hard girls, you will get through it.
And Shikin marah, feirce ah!
I was flabbergasted when 3 of my cadets talked about the right pacer which happens to be my brother.
I didn't expect him to be good looking. Well, I think I just got sick of seeing him everyday.
Who knows if he isn't my brother, i would fall for him too? HAHA.

I wanna start a fresh new chapter.

Oh it's a new world
It's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day
And a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am

- Bryan Adams, Here I am


Let's move on!