Staying strong

Okay, above is portable sweet shop.
Haha! Apparently it is Kevan's pencil case. There you can see 4 boxes of Ricola sweets of different flavours. Suppose to have 5 earlier, but one of them finished.
It's amazing! So if I want sweet, i know who to look for.

Yesterday, stayed back with Syafiqah and Azyan. Had lots of laughter.
Anyway, was returning my tablet pc to my locker at the classroom,
when i went in the classroom, i saw Sufyan lying on the table and posing like a model.
Try and imagine.
He was on the phone with Xue Qin. Hahaha!
Can't stop laughing.

Later headed to NCC HQ with Azyan, Farisa, Haron and Hafiy.
Had cohesion night.
Hmm.. okay i shall say.
Reached home around 12.35am.

Oh yeahs, last week was my grandfather's birthday.


Atuk cutting the cake.
He turned 90 on 22 Feb 2009!
Oh, he is already "nanyok". Don't know what is it called in English.
But heard that he asked my grandmother(his wife), if he could marry again.
HAHAHA!
The question is, marry who?
He even asked my mother,
Atuk: Siape kau? (Who are you?) Kau kahwin dengan siape?(Who you marry with?)
HAHA! Omg.. he is so cute lah!

I have no idea what's going on with me.
Maybe I'm changing? Maybe I'm not.
And once again, it's very different here.
Treasuring the happy moments i had.
At times I felt like breaking down.
But I know there's no point.
Hoping to stay strong.



And i miss them...

Exhausted.
Well, it kinda explains why I'm kinda moody these few days.
I just need sufficient sleep that's all.

Kinda losing my motivations.
All i can say is, life is hard.
And it's really different here.

Also, physiotherapy on Monday wasn't fun at all.
The assistant physiotherapist are not there.
Bambang, kakak and the smart undergraduate guy were not there.
The exercises are also getting tougher, and boring-er.
Oh, kinda got a warning from my therapist.
Haha, i didn't really did my homework of exercising everyday.

Anyway, I passed the Council interview and now going up for the election.
So please vote for Candidate no. 20 !
All the best to Azyan, Diana, Hazirah, Jayshree and the other candidates!
Hehehe.

Oh oh, I'm going NCC Cohesion Night!
Yupa dapa doo!!!

How long can I pretend?

Laughing gas

Today, started pretty bad.
First of all, I forgot to bring my breakfast.
Next, I forgot to bring my Malay Compo that i spent 2 hours writing it yesterday!
Yes, i was freaking pissed.
And at the verge of screaming!
Then, i decided to get over it. And just move on with the day.

PW was okay. Haha I presented on my trip to Japan- Kyushu bout the Minamata Disease victims.
Phew! Luckily it wasn't out of point.
Then Chemistry lecture. Sat beside Vaishaley. I could not stop laughing! Haha!
Maths lecture was classic. Me and Syafiqah could not stop laughing at random stuffs.
Hahahaha! She's damn nuts. You can just start laughing at random stuff just by seating beside her.
Gp was okay too.

Later went Causeway Point with Syafiqah, Mashyitah, Hazirah and Nabisah to celebrate Syafiqah's birthday. Hahaha. And Amirah joined.
We had a hell lot of laughter.
Anyway, it's a good way to get abs. Hehe.

So finally, the weekends.
Which means, a perfect time for me to catch up with what I've not understand and complete undone assignments.

I was wondering, why alot of people were not online these few days.
Was missing Shikin, Amirah, Khairin, Hui Peng, Gary, Izzat, Yi Ling and Guo Yan presence at MSN.
And just got to know today,
that they have CAMP! I'm so silly.
Haha.
I really miss you guys.

Can't get it out of my mind.

So there's the pros and cons of owning a tablet PC.
Apparently, it has been a burden for me to bring it thru and fro from school.
LUCKILY, there's such thing as lockers. Haha. And yeap, i rented one.

Today was the beginning of a tight schedule.
Started with Maths Lecture. Yes, very naggy one.
Later had PW. So practically gonna use Tablet PC for every subject except GP and of course, PE.
So the teachers are very fun and approachable.
And i thought GP was gonna be boring, but it wasn't.
The tutor is damn funny mann.
PE!!! Hahaha! While everyone ran 2 rounds around the tracks, i happily cycled at the school gym, watching them run.

Me: Umm, I have a 10months MC from PE.
Ms Kiong: Hmm, but they never state any remarks here, like what happened.
Me: Oh, i just undergo a ligament reconstruction....
Ms Kiong: ACL right? HAHA.

So practically finish school around 5pm onwards.
Sighh..
I HAVE NOT DONE MY ECONS HOMEWORK!!!
and to add on, TOMORROW THERE'S ECONS TUTORIAL!!
Damn, damn, damn.
And I still have time to blog ah?
Bravo. A* student.

Okay, I'm gonna do my homework now.
Seriously,
I'm a changed student. Hehe.

Let's RUN

Oh gosh, I'm such a sleepy head.
Zzzz..
I feel so tired these few days. I could even sleep in a bumpy bus ride and not be awaken by the stares of others.

So yesterday, Gym-ed with Amirah, Shikin and Julianah.
My leg is stronger now. The cycling machine finally turned on when i cycled.
Later ate at Food Culture.
Then Amirah accompanied me for window shopping.
Yeah, I'm looking for shoes, wallet and socks.
Bought socks. Later headed to Body Shop.
And Amirah accidentally sprayed perfume into my eyes.
HAHAHA!
I couldn't stop laughing at it lah.

Okay, I WANT TO RUN!!!
A sudden urge to start running.
I have no idea why, but sometimes, it's hard to control.
Well, another month and a half to start jogging.
5 months to start sports and a 9 more months to be MC free.
Wahaha. It will be short.

I have TONS of homework mann.
And I only finished a couple of maths question. And the rest remained untouch.
C'mon Fatin, DO YOUR HOMEWORK!!!
Distractions.

Taking things slowly

So received my tablet PC.
Yay, and had training for tablet PC just now.
Anyway, not that excited already. Haha.

Just now stayed with Mash to company her for her Track & Field try out.
While waiting for 5.30pm, we used our Table PC. Hahaha! And we sort of chat with each other when we were actually seating opposite of each other.
Mash went for try-outs at 5.30pm.
Then I went up to Ms Ashley.
She said I could join Track & Field after i recover.
Yes ah!! Well, will think bout it later on.
Anyway, Mash is like the only JC1 female there.

Since tomorrow is Valentine's, my school is kinda celebrating it today.
Wahaha. Received 3 valentine's gift.
Chocolate from Audrey, a box of sweets from Michelle and sweets from Cheryl.
Haha, so sweet lah they all.
But, i think it's more to Halloween trick or treats.

Today received our timetable.
Any my timetable is like #$%@ !!!
Everyday end like 5.40pm! Except CCA days, Wednesday and Friday we end early. But later on we will have to attend CCA.
This can't be right mann.
And our breaks are different from other CGs. So can't meet them often.

Sighh, I kinda feel terrible and like a fool too.
Well, they don't understand that's for sure.
It's okay, I'll try to change.
I'm still finding the 'real you' in me.
Who I really am?

Undoubtedly, I'm slowly growing insane.

And yeah, I'm staying at the Champions' Way.

Seperated to our own Civics Group.
0912B.
Oh can i make you all jealous?
My CG, 0912B and Masyhita's CG is getting a TABLET PC!
Everyone in the CG get to loan a tablet PC!
Yeap, tablet pc from the school for 1 year.
Well, gotta return it next year, but WOAH!
Everyone went high lah after we got that news.

So on Tues, went HQ NCC with Basirah.
Met a couple of 56th East Cadet Officer,
Indra, Abbas, Aisah and some others.
Sigh, i miss them.

Yesterday was CCA Fair.
Wanted to join Track & Field, but Ms Ashley wanted me to seek approval with my doctor first. She also said 10months is too long. She won't be able to send me for competitions. Tsk..
Anyway, Mashyita is joining Track & Field. GO MASHYITA!
If i were to join, i would be the water boy or a bench warmer.

Then thought of Student Council.
They are wonderful bunch of people.
Hazirah, Nabisah and me hanged at the SC room for like 1 hour yesterday just talking, crapping and laughing with Jc2 councillors, Audrey, Eja and Afiq.
Maybe, i'm joining SC.

So how's JC life?
It's pretty demanding and pressurizing.
You just gotta learn to study smart and have good time management
And, you just gotta have fun apart from mugging everyday.

The greatest weakness for now?
Distractions.
I kinda think I am,
but hopefully I'm not.
& I'm dreaming of things that's making my mind go crazy.

I never felt my heart beat so fast before.
What is it?

And it's FRIDAY!
Marks the end of the first week of school.
Oh yeah, wore the school uniform today.

So attended GP, Econs and PW lecture. Econs is pretty demanding.
But, I'm determined to study it.

After school, went home with Nabisah, Mashyita and Syafiqah. Hahaha, we were talking crap mann. From rugby, to school gate, to snakes, to fainting, to priority seat. Haha.
Mashyita: Oh no, i don't think i can survive the long bus ride.
45 mins later
Mashyita: I SURVIVED!!!

At first wanted to head to Junyuan for NCC since the bus 168 stops opposite the library. Looked at the time, and it was too early to go. Later sms-ed Basirah and we both were pretty lazy to go. WAHAHAHA! Next Tuesday okay?

Anyway, today will be the last day my fleet, Gelhiler will be together. Next week, we will be separated to our own Civics Groups.

1st row: Radzee, Stephanie
2nd row: Clara, Francesca, Yvonne, Mashyita, Fatin, Shweta, Nabisah, Vithiya
3rd row: Oliver, Navin, Winston, Darren, Taqiuddin
Missing: Rayney, Marcus, Justin

Oh another thing, I got a bad news + good news.
In the morning, Dad told me that he appealed me to go Temasek JC. I was shocked. Cos I never wanted to go there. Also Tampines JC.
So i was kinda upset. Sms-ed Amirah. Thanks for entertaining me in the morning.

At 2.30pm, received a call from Temasek JC.
My heart beat rapidly. Hoping that i won't be accepted.
And when they say there's no vacancy for me, I smiled gleefully.
Checked the Tampines JC appeal website and they say there's no vacancy for me too.

So, I'm staying at Innova.
Alhamdulilah.

Like what the principal say,
"Find a JC, quickly settle down and start preparing for A Levels."
Well, that was the brainwash talk she had with us on Tuesday.
And Gary Ong,
"It doesn't really matter where you do your A Levels. All the school are the same."

Obviously I'm gonna miss the friends that are going TPJC. Though, they will always be in my heart. Cos they are the ones who were there to support me through the darkess week.
Thank you Gary, Hui Peng, Yi Ling and Nabil =)

Finally,
I feel like dancing to the song Flo Rida ft. T-pain - Low.

Yesterday was the 3rd day of Orientation (also last).
It was a blast!
It lasted till 7.30pm alright!

So had that mass talk at hall.
Yeah butt cramps. Ish, very torturing.
Later had another Operation. Went to 3 stations and I played none.
Hahaha! Seriously, I'm at a disadvantage now.
Oh, but i cheered for them. GO GELHILLER!
And i must say my fleet is very ON. Anyway, we girls couldn't stop laughing at random stuffs.
I was really HIGH yesterday.
They say I drank Innova alcohol.
Oh, i went high with Mashita. I tell you, we were really terrible.

FINALE was pretty okay.
Cos I lost my energy already.
Danced. Sang. Cheered. Shout. Laughed.
And I lost my voice.
Took photos.
I miss the fun we had. The friendship made.
I was at the verge of crying cos i thought it was gonna be the end.
But later it came to me.
It's just the beginning.

Anyways, thanks to my OGLs, Stephanie and Radzee for being so enthusiastic and bringing up the spirit in us.

Today had LECTURE!
Anyway, the GP lecturer is very funny mann!
I couldn't stop laughing. Well, the entire JC1 were laughing at his comments.
He is a really good lecturer who gets our attention.
School ends at 1.40pm today. We had to buy lecture notes.
Que at the bookshop for 1hour!
Cracked jokes with Hazirah, Nabisah and Mashyita.
Think we attract attention cause we laughed like hell.
Tsk, high people.

I'm really very confused now.
And Gary Ong Min Chang said : "Follow what your gut tells you."
Honestly, I have no idea what is it.
Sigh.
Having a hard time now.
And feeling pretty messed up.

Tag replies,

Hui Peng: Hahaha. Food at TPJC nice anot? At iJC nice mann! Well, better than you-know...
Azyan: INNOVA!!! Woots~ Yeah, I'm enjoying it there mann. Glad to have a schoolmate like you. Eh eh eh eh AHHH!!
Azyan! Tell me how you feel?
Yiling: Haha, i'm feeling confused now. Eh, you all come Innova ah?
Amirah: Hehehe. Of course I won't forget you mann. Who can forget you one?

Cloud number nine

WOo!
2nd day of orientation and pretty fine.
Made new friends.

Morning had a talk from the principal.
I think she is trying to brainwash people who wishes to appeal out from IJC.
Had that dance again.
I looked like a fool dancing lah.
Cos I can't dance with my leg like this.
Lunched for 1hr 15mins with Hazirah and Nabisah.
Hmm, primary school friend.

After lunch had that station games.
They call it Operation something something.... Nevermind, don't bother.
Manage to go 2 stations and i played 1. Cos i couldn't play the other one.
My leg mahh.
At 2.30pm Dad came to send me for Therapy @ SGH.

Physiotherapy never been so fun before.
Getting better at it.
Haha, I like my therapists, Pauline and Bambang.
Joked around.
And i realise how hard life is.
As in, in the future. Just to become a physiotherapist takes alot of steps.
"I don't want grow up can?"

Oh oh, some of the therapist mistake my age for my size.
Well, you know.
Chili padi what.

I'm looking forward for the next therapy!

My weakness came falling on me.
And too weak to fight it.
Now it's preventing me to think properly.
And still confused with my life.
I feel really lost right now.

Innova Junior College

I'm worn out.
But first day of school was not bad.
Not bad at all.

So like everyone else, I was so blur.
Later directed to my fleet - Gelhiler. There was my OGLs, Stephanie and Radzy.
Saw familiar faces - primary school friends.
After flag raising went to the hall.
The principal gave an opening speech. And it was very inspiring of course.
Better than her, if you know what i mean.
And the principal is damn cute too.
Look like Dora the Explorer.
Hee.

Was briefed bout subject combinations.
Sat at the hall for 3 hours. What do you expect?
I had leg cramp mann!

After that had lunch.
Met JYSS students, Jonas and Sharifah. Hee.
After lunch had ORIENTATION.
Cheers, ice-breakers, competition and mass dance.
Pretty cool uh. But I couldn't really dance cos of my leg. Tsk.
Anyway, my group Galfrimer is cool. Yellow colour!
Eh eh eh eh AHHHH !!!

Anyway, taking
H2 Maths, Chemistry and Physics & H1 Economics.
And aiming to take Faculty in Medicine at NUS.
Whatcha think?
God's will to give me the perseverance and strength to go on.

And now, I'm having second thoughts of going TPJC.
Well, sigh, I have no idea mann.
I'm just so confused with all this stuffs.

Please give me the strength and guide me through this mess.