Break; Long weekend

Sometimes, you just need a break by the beach,
watch the beautiful sun set
and just cast your troubles aside.
(Photo taken by GuoYan)

Thank god it's friday.
And tomorrow is Labour Day.
Finally a long weekend to look forward to.
But apparently it's filled with assignments and revision to do.
Cos Tuesday is gonna be a killer day with 3 chemistry test.

It's been long since I felt the andrenaline rush.
Hit the gym at Tampines this evening,
And boy, I feel trim and fit.
BUT, the chicken rice for dinner spoils it.
HAHAHA!

Oh, i took my height and guess what?
I GREW ONE CM! YES! ONE CM!
I'm so proud of myself.
151cm and still growing!
Heeeee ^^

Recently I signed up for 100m and 200m for track and field event.
And I ain't confident about it. Furthermore, heats is just next week.
I guess I was just too ambitious.
Fact is, I just recovered from a recent injury surgery (ACL Tear-Reconstruction).
It's been looooooooooooooooooong since I sprint seriously.
I'm just afraid history repeats itself's again. (5May coming too...)
Oh god, please give me the faith to carry on.

School had been pretty strenuous recently. But gotta keep the spirit high. Cos it's approximately 6 months left.
Plus, friends and classmates surrounding me had been very encouraging and entertaining. They are the only reason why dragging myself to school isn't that tough. And also the mystery that awaits. Who is it really? Will I ever get to know? Or is it just a fantasy of mine?

And teachers are the ever supporting pillars.
Helping and guiding me step by step.
Plus the Principal was even concerned. The random talk with her really made me reflect well.
Thanks for making my week friends, classmates, teachers, principal and of course, my family.

And for a treat for myself,
will watch sunset by the jetty at ECP tomorrow or sunday (depending on weather).
To Focus, Action/Achieve & Reflect. Haha!

The thought of you came crashing upon me again

And illusions of seeing you keep appearing in my mind

Will I ever get to see you again?

Smile :D

It feels good to smile :D
So let me show off my smile again. HAHAHA XD

It just doesn't feel right these few days.
At times, there's this super high epic moment, and suddenly, it another moment is a super worried crying moment.

Mum was rushed to hospital because her eyes was filled with blood.
Must be because her blood vessels burst when she rubbed it. No, she doesn't have high blood pressure. I was worried when my brother called me to go to the hospital. I was dumbfounded and broke down and cried. Thanks to Syafiqah ZA for being there for me at that very moment.
I just think too much. She is pretty fine now. Relaxing and recuperating well.
(You know, sometimes bubble tea does help to ease your worries. HAHA!)

Had the day I've been waiting for.
But I wasn't prepared. And i had no feelings.
"So this must be your special day".
I replied: "Uhh.. i guess so.."
Will talk more about it during weekends.
(Suspense abit..Heheh!)

And today I was shocked by a freaking random question.
But it got me laughing to myself.

Somebody please knock some sense into me.
Shout through my ears and wake me up.
Please?

That smile

Parent's meeting session with Civics Tutor was okay...
Except a few parts.

"I realised that Fatin doesn't have the cheerful smile of hers like I used to see when she was J1. So I was just wondering why if she has any disturbing issues at home or anything?"

Silence.

"Nah... I'm just tired."

I screwed block test.
I know.

Anyway, I love Econs.

I will stay strong

Sometimes, when you are at the lowest point, your life seems to be bleak.
It feels like the whole world is against you.
And you got no one to turn to. No one to trust. No one to hold.

There were to many setbacks for me this week.
And no it didn't get better as days goes by.
Felt weak. Felt demoralized. Felt like there's no more motivation.
And felt like I've failed.

My heart felt heavy as i dragged myself to school everyday trying to set up a fake demeanour that everything is alright. But anyone can just tell by the look of the eyes.
I'm tired. Tired of everything.

Although family is my pillar of strength, but they weren't supportive at all.
They just threw tantrums and not making it easier at all.

For once, i cried.
Cried for what is happening.
Cried for what is really happening in reality.
And I cried all alone.

BUT,
It felt good.
One wise men once told me; Tears clears the windows of one's soul.
True enough.

Then today, my heart felt lighter.
Had dinner with Amirah and Shikin at Pizzahut.
Amirah's treat! Thanks Mia!!
Never i had a talk like that for a long time.
It felt so good trying to express things out.

I was touched when they gave me chocolates, a card and a keychain that has "Stay Strong!" engraved to it.
I was speechless.
It was something that spoke volume of words. My eyes filled with tears and I smiled.
Thanks again!

Not only that, I get to found out the mystery behind the assumptions I had.
Ehem ehem! Indeed, it was more than that.
And I hope that their 'friendship' like that will last even longer.
You know what I mean.

It had been quite awhile since I smiled so widely.
Thank you Amirah and Shikin for making my day.

I am stronger than yesterday.