I'm seriously bored,
and that is why i am always BLOGGING.

Holiday is getting worser. To top things up, there would be shooting training for the competition. It's kinda cool though. Perhaps it's our first time participating in it and i am sure Junyuan could be one of the best especially with young cadets such as Insyirah, Syahirah, Lennie, Syafiqah and Aziefah shooting.
So the IMT was really kinda fun. It's months since i last shot. But not bad, not bad, i did well with my perfect eyesight and skinny body. Hahaha.

Yesterday was hell FUN!
Suppose to go jalan raye with Nat and gang, but i didn't want plus, i was too tired. So went gym to get trimmed and Iffa had to gain leg muscles. I aint gonna blog what happened cause Iffa did ( http://ohmygoodnessgracious-me.blogspot.com/ ) .
ANYWAY, i seriously had fun ,with her trying to make me look stupid and act as though she doesn't know me when i passed by Danial Azri on the way to the gym.

I WANT TO GO SWIMMING WITH IFFA !!
but, unfortunately, she WANTS but she don't want. Hahaha. Okay, so her mum is particular about going swimming without adult's supervision. Whose mother isn't worried about her daughter especially one doesn't know HOW TO SWIM. Hahaha. It's okay Iffa, we would swim in the bath tub or puddle of water someday.

Planned to go window shopping with Iffa today at TM but, i was too tired till i passed out after IMT. So, hope we could go TM tomorrow since she needs to get her friend a birthday gift and, perhaps, i should be shopping for Amirah's too.


Everybody needs a dream
When the spirit gets too weak
So When your spirit gets too weak
When the water seems too deep
When you think there's just no way
I'll be there for you night and day
When the mountain
Seems too steep
When your spirit gets too weak
When you think there's just no way
I'll be there for you night and day

That verse up that was touching. It's from a song
Plus One - When your spirit gets too weak
I love it and hope i can find time to upload the song on my blog.

There are so many people whose birthday falls on OCTOBER. It's just so hard to wish them especially with hectic stuffs i'm encountering.

So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to OCTOBER babies =)

I'm furious, upset, dissapointed, confussed, stressed, tired plus, EXHAUSTED. There are so many things on my calender and i'm only free during weekends.
I even can't go out with cousins on 5nov cause i have Peer Support Course. 8am-5pm !
And thanks to Nat and gang for inviting me to Jalan Raye, but i just got no mood.

And some just don't want to cooperate, making my life much more difficult. I'm at the edge of breaking down. Seriously.

I need to UNWIND. But i can't find time.
I just need 1 DAY, 1 DAY to be happy.




Maybe my hopes are crushed.
The feeling that i wish to demolish it, is slowly vanishing.
Nevermind if i can't enjoy your jokes,
cause i've made up ma mind to move on


I'm looking forward to 3e3 chalet and Camp Pinnacle

PHOTOS !!! Like i promised


Haha brothers

I think they are advertising

Yeah.. bro forced me to pose
( Lucky for those who is dying to see me in baju kurung )

Large coke shared by 5peeps

Feminine side of me

Ice Latte is nice.


Okay, so not that much uhhh... There's alot just that i didn't have time to upload.

I'm super dupper EXCITED about the Camp Pinnacle. Khairin achieve the USM tittle while i achieved the ASM tittle. Congrats to Khairin!!! Well, I believe Khairin proved HER wrong. Khairin is not weak, and she can do it!
The nominal letter states that we would be FLYING IN THEIR AIRCRAFT AND SAILING IN THEIR NAVAL VESSEL. Wee ~

However, i feel bad. Shikin was like "Not fair... i wanna go lahh" in the jokingly way. Well, i feel that she wants to go of course. Sighh...

Prize Giving Ceremony went well i guess. My feet were killing me. I didn't mind going home bare footed. My feet were aching. Thank god ShuJun lend me her slippers. Thanks to Gabriel, Shujun, Sabri and Suhaimi for being concern for me.



I'm not crazy, I just a little UNWELL.

I seriously, wanna grow tall.
Not joking...

Oh well, for those who think i really short, yes i am. But it genes my friend, genes.

So, i had a pause for my regular excercise and now, i'm heavier by 1kg. Thanks to the kuih-muih i had. Mr Ryan Tan says "Please do not munch like nobody's business"
Wahahaha. Had fun during PE, by talking and bombarding questions to Mr Tan.

TODAY, i ran around my estate. It's a good start after 4mths of break. His advice to people who wanna lose weight,
- Excercise
- Be patient, it will take sometime
- DONT EVER GO FOR DIET
Science Fact !!! - If you go diet, and the next time you eat, it would be the double of what you missed. Serious. Body functions..

UH-huh.. woo woo ~~
3E3 won the $500 !! Thanks to 3e3 especially the debate team, enviroment ambassador, sporting classmates.
Oh yeah, we were planning for a.... CHALET.

Each morning i get up, i die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry a little
Mann, what you doing to me?
I spent all my days in believing you
I just can't get no relief, GOD
I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say, they say, I'm going crazy
They say i got alot of crapp in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe in

Holiday aint a holiday. A catastrophe instead...

I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes
Now, I'm done believing in you.

It feels so good to be freed from it.
Plus, i feel bad too.

Happy Birthday to Nur Mira Natasha!!!
Thanks to her for making me laugh at her sillyness and other silly things she made up. Haha =)

Urghh...
Suddenly, I feel like a bad Councillor. I made mistakes and i'm a bad student in MrAngKS eyes. MrAngKS tells me i'm not a good councillor. Sighh... I admit i'm wrong, however, why can't I be me. And why Khairin cannot be herself in class?
Me : I think i'm gonna be kicked out of council eh...
Su : No... I am. You somemore got recommendation from Ms Kanni.

Yeah, because i was "spontaneous" during the RAINBOW programme and perhaps her workshop.

Council suddenly became so hard for me when MrAng spotted nitty gritty details on me like joking with Kathleen and Khairin in class. I admit i'm wrong. But again... why can't i be myself?

Sighh...
I seriously, hate myself.
I wish for the term to finish so i can be myself for 2months.

Holidays are kinda busy with Council stuffs. Workshop, graduation day and Sec1 Registration.


ARGHH
I wanna scream my lungs out

It's funny to find myself blogging almost every alternate days?

Seriously, i usually find myself hard to blog. But now.. it's the matter of boredom.

About the pics, well, i shall postpone it. Cause there's alot of pics to upload.



So results today was a HEART ACHE.

Eng - 54% C6
Emaths - 94% A1
Malay - 54% C6
AMaths - 80.5% A1
Physics - 60% B4
Chemistry - 53% C6
Combined Humans - 45% D7



Bravo for my emaths and malay!! Hahaha. First time in history of a secondary school life, i pass my MOTHER TOUGUE !!! Hahas.

Okay so my chem is pathetic, my english is atrocious, my combined.. i'm speechless about it and my physics, i can't pin my hopes that high anymore.

So Eureka stinks. It gives some kind of smell. Irfan is funny mann. He is crapp. I must say he is a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. Don't care bout his marks and all that. It's expected for IZZAT to pass because of some reason. Haha. I'm sure Su is really pissed off. But cool for Izzat to do that. It was rather risky.

After recess felt so restless. My back aches that i had no mood to get up from my zone.Steph kept consulting me for not being worried or upset. Seriously, i wasn't upset, i was restless. It's touching to find all my friends asking if i am okay. Looked at me as though they are there to help. HAHAHAHA.

I think i'm beginning to become sick after being scratched by a kitten. Urgh...
sneeze sneeze cough cough sigh sigh BOOM.

To cheer friends like Khairin, Shikin, Amirah, Suhaimi, Natasha, Huda and the others..

A little hug for those who did not get their achievements for their exams.

Make sure you study hard during the holidays =)

I've seen enough...

YEAH !!!
I FINALLY, in DONKEY years,

CHANGED MY BLOGSKINS =)

Well, i think i have the old blogskins for 1yr 10mths??
Plus plus, i changed my URL. Hehe.

So, Su won't have to worry for his mum accusing him looking at RA pics. And i won't have to deal with pink stuffs at my blog. Haha. I hate pink...

Phew..
Okay, so i'll TRY my best to post the pictures. And all of the sudden... i want to be a photographer.
Sharts.. i'm beginning to become sentimental.
NO, i want to chase my REAL dreams. Besides, being a photographer, i can do it at my OWN TIME OWN TARGET. Hahas.

I'm back to my regular swimming and jogging.
Dental appt today was HEY Okay.

It takes a step to begin a thousand miles.

Oh okay,
so i turn 15 on 11 Oct at 9.32am . Hahaha.

I must say, a million thanks to my friends and my beloved family.
Some wished me Happy Birthday, some gave presents, some gave text messages,some tagged and some gave testimonial.
I'm really touched.

Kathleen gave me a jewelry box. I know i don't wear jewelry but it could be used as other stuffs.
Her sis gave me a handmade keychain.
Natasha gave me Cadbury Chocolate Crunch. It was sweet !
Amirah gave me a soft toy that smells like marshmellows. Hahaha. I almost cried when she gave me that.
Syafiqah gave a Fridge Magnet with meaningful friendship phrases PLUS a non-living soft tortoise.
Bro gave me a few small sweets that were so great PLUS a massage on my back PLUS a testimonial
Dad gave me $100. Wee~
Mum , i accept her love as my present as she had done many for me. I love her.

Testimonials from Hui Peng, Aisyah, Huda, Huda's sis, BROTHER, ma cousin - Faz, pri sch friend- Raihanah.
Thanks =)

And wishes from my friends and relatives. Thanks =)
My birthday is also the same my cousin's birthday, Abg Khalid. Wished him as soon as i saw him at granny's house during Raya.

Not to forget,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

I shall post the wonderful pictures soon.
Tomorrow is my dental appointment AT SCHOOL.
I'm sure it's a waste of time as they can't clean my teeth with my braces on. Besides, they can't take out, only my braces dentist can. I believe so...
Everyone must catch the movie called TAXI. Seriously, it's good and FUNNY.

Why am i so stupid?
Why am i blinded by the fake crapp?

Cher gave useful advice. I was at the edge of breaking down. But, i am touched by the concern from the seniors.I'm prepared to be disappointed with the confest someday. I should have known. But, sympathy blinded me totally.
ARGH !!!

I couldn't stop thinking about it the whole night. Toss and turn, swear and curse on how stupid i was. WHY ?!? WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME for just mere attention?
God, now i hate myself for falling and unable to pick myself up again. I wish to be alone, isolated. For the extra mile i went, it's such a disappointment.

However, tutoring Iffa was kinda cool for me. I was brighten up by her eventhough she told me i was a bad tutor. Yes, i admit i am. We did 30% of studying and 70% of laughing and crapping. Haha.
I kinda pity Zat H for struggling. Well, infect everything seems so clear now. Don't worry cousin, i understand your situation. But you gotta put extra effort to impress MM. I believe you can, please don't quit.

Amaths Paper 1 was easy but Paper 2 was like a KILLER mann. First question, "Shit... what... what is this?" Further more, i wasn't at the mood to do the paper. I was so sleepy that i slept halfway. Plus worried about Mum's incident this morning and the crapp disappointment that's bothering me.

There's this feeling that lingers on me since last year. I wish to demolish it. But how...
And i'm really pissed off with the... ARGHH !!! Only some understands...

I seriously have no mood to be happy tomorrow. Yes, it's my birthday. But it turns out to be a big disaster during the eve. My wish for a memorable 15th birthday vanished just like that.

I need to rewind...

What?


Happy 15th Birthday to Syafiqah Nasir =)
May your wishes come true.

Oh well, thanks to JianXin who made me smile today. He is kinda a gentleman afterall.

Amir came up to me with a problem. I gave him adviced, lectured him, and gave him my support. Zafirah said "Wahh...like counseller" Seriously, I feel so stupid doing this. I know my advice doesn't helps at all. But i'm willing to lend a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Now, peeps are having different kinds of problems. Personal, school, BGR, acadamic, social. And if i can't help to solve their problems, i feel guilty. Am i qualified to be a friend or a helper?

There is part at the song of Backstreet Boys - What makes you different
You don't know how you touched my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me
Oh yeah, yeah

It's kinda touching. Waahahhaha.

It's okay. I'm moving on...

Do dreams take flight?

Arghh ! Exam are disaster! Oh well, i don't think i would do well for my exams this time. No point crying over spilt milk. It's over.
Edure...4 more papers.

Syafiqah's birthday is coming. Gave Khairin some kind of pencil case. Haha. I still have not gone shopping for the 3 girls. Damnn...

I suddenly feel guilty.
I asked him to company me to the class. And now he is struggling. Sighh...
I'm sorry...

People are beginning to become optimistic. It's a good sign.