Feeling kinda tired these days.
Just now PE was so tired.Didn't know playing badminton was like running 2.4km.

Sweat alot and i was practically dehydrating.All was in my mind was to break my fast.I was extreamly weak and felt like any moment i'm gonna faint.

Anyway had fun singing with Natasha.Hahaha.It's a long way to the top if you wanna rock n roll roll roll.... from School Of Rock.

Then stayed back to do DnT with Shyahida and Azrah.We stayed back till 5.45pm !!! Had lots of laughters! Especially Azrah who was non-stop cracking jokes.

Maybe i can't take it any longer.I just wanna blurt it out to Ms Krishnan,but i feel like something is stopping me.No courage.

I love Mrs Kho.
The way she encourages me.
The way she ask me if i am okay.
The way she appreciates me.
The way she is there to listen to me.
The way she cared for me.
MRS KHO!!! Hehe =)

Yup!
I'm going to STRIVE for my GOALS
and NOTHING,NOTHING
is STOPPING ME !!!

All the Best to everyone !!!
All the best to my bestcuzzin who is sitting for her PSLE.
All the best to my cuzzie who is sitting for N Level.
All the best to Izzat Hashim and Fazlin for their streaming Sec2 year.
ALL THE BEST !

Whoosh ! ~Off now

Yup,it's the 3rd Day of fasting month.

Kinda tired.Don't have the energy.Kept having headaches in class.That's why i hadn't been so hyper these few days.

Hady Mirza won the Singapore Idol . Woots.He is not bad.

I'm so addicted to Nizzatelrooy's blog song.Been waiting for him to go online to send the song.Anyway,went to his house on Sat as i said.It was fun.And then...no comments.Artyzholic get to go Singapore Idol Live at Indoor Stadium.
Artyzholic - Zuhayr
Nizzatelrooy - Izzat
ActressWannabe - Iffa
Princess - Fazlin
Mathlete - Fatin
These are the cousins that goes movie together,play habbo together and what else?Have been thinking that we are called THE FIZI but Fazlin join and now THE FIFIZ.

A message to the person :
I have not been talking to you because ... I want to concentrate in class.Lately,we have been talking non-stop like 24/7 ? And so i didn't want to tell you the truth cause you would start taking it not seriously and we would start chit chatting. It's not that i hate you,don't friend you or i don't want to talk to you for some other reasons.The reason is bold.Therefore,exams are coming.I don't want to make you think of it too much.So now you know my intentions right.I guess it's okay if you talk to me now,but i wouldn't talk that much because exams are in 2 days time and i'm fasting.Don't wanna get myself thirsty.Hehe.

I'm just weak.
Climbing a flight of stairs seems like climbing to the 4th story.
Dizzy...~Off now

Back to the Orientering Challenge.
I really had fun with 10 crappy students and 1 crappy teacher.
Thought i would see that bro friend.But didn't.Sighh.

Today is the first day of Fasting Month.
- We can't eat or drink when Sun Rise.Until when Sun Sets,we can eat.
- We can't scold vulgaralities
- We can't lie
- We can't cry or be angry

Well,i only know the first one is confirmed.But the others,there is alot of stories and yada yada.I not sure.

Today going to Break Fast at Iffa's house.Yay!Will take some photos and will post it either tomorrow or what.
I'm actually wasting my time so that i wouldn't feel how long will it take till Break Fast.I'm dehydrating.Hahaha! ~Off now

Today isn't like any other typical day.It's gonna be quite a long post about today.

Woke up at 5 AM and reached school at 6.15am.While i was walking to school beside the field,i had a cold shiver like someone is holding my shoulder.Creepy!Then no one was there except Shyahida.

Then one by one came.We waited for Mr Feraj to come.And like for half-an-hour.In the end he was late.He came by car.Then he asked if we got see any bus.Yes,we did but it went off.The bus driver waved at us,but we didn't wave back.Then Mr Feraj say "Since the school is not open,i'll go park my car at my house and you all please wave at every bus driver."So we stupidly followed what he say.

Waved to every bus.Actually all the SBS.Cause that's the bus that have been passing us all along.The Bus driver of it actually waved back at ME !!! School gate opened,then Khairi called Mr Feraj to come back so he can park his car there.

Mr Feraj went to call Mr Sin and Mr Sin said he didn't book any bus for us."I've just made a bloody fool of myself,waving to every bus driver."Took 3 cabs to Pasir Labah.
1st cab : Shikin,Khairin,Fatin,Shyahida = $22.20
2nd cab : Mr Feraj,Johnathan,Khairi,Hasanah = $21.60
3rd cab : 3 2T1 boys = $24.40

The race started.A few metres,we stopped running.Hahaha!Seriously it was tiring.Cause we are wearing boots.And the ground is not smooth.Then my scar starts to hurt and i could feel a sharp pain at my left calf.So i wasn't the one running around from one place to another.We only get 4 checkpoints out of 5 and we get all 4 correct!Yipee!

Bro friend introduce me to his other friends.They were surprised that i'm his sister.
Then Mr Feraj wanted us to leave early cause he didn't want us to do area cleaning and stuck there for more than 2hrs.Haha!You're the man Mr Feraj!

Then one school offer a ride for us to the Boon Lay MRT station.Mr Feraj say MRT as mert.Hahaha!His invention.I can't believe Mr Feraj doesn't ride MRT! He didn't even know he could get $1 back if he return the card.And didnt know which MRT to take.
Fatin : Cher,you want to go 2nd story in the MRT or not?
Mr Feraj : There is ?!? **Look so eager**

Hahahaha!He believed me.Then went off to Mac with Kin,Rin,John,Curry and Hannah at Tampines.
Will continue some other time.

TOMORROW FASTING MONTH !!! ~Off now

Happy Birthday to you !!!
Happy Birthday to you !!!
Happy Birthday to Haidhir !!!
Happy Birthday to you !!!

Today bro turn 20th.

Today was leftout alone.
PE,we played soccer.My butt was hitted by the ball kicked by either Izzat or Irfan.It hurts... Haha!
Had a splitting headache throughout the day.

Didn't have the mood today.How i really wish i was invisble.
I just need a plaster to cover the enormous wound at my heart.
Heal the world,heal my heart.

I can't even cry in school.Cause someone out there would think other things.

I suddenly have negatives on myself.Where is my strength?
Don't have a comfortable person whom i can tell this off.

Got no mood to blog...
I'm just not perfect~Off now

These days have been super duper superb!!!

Except for today.
Had a bad dream when i woke up.Well,i was really bringing it too deep.Thank god it wasn't real.Then had a very good scolding in the morning from Ms Yuen.Was told to stand during reading.How humilating.

Well...i was calling for Natasha and Ms Yuen told me to stand.I'm innocent.But didn't want to talk back.So i stood.It's okay,i got no grudges.Just a lil anger burning in me,yet i still smile at her.

Maths was the best as usual.
Had Rainbow programme with Ms Krishnan.Don't know what's up with me.Was told to draw.Everyone started drawing except for me.I just stared at the paper waiting for something to pop out.

I kept getting this cold shoulder from teachers.Like they are blaming me for the accident happened to Mdm Punitham.And practically, ALL ?
Yesterday saw Mrs Sharon Tan and she said "Eh you hurt my best friend Mdm Punitham !" and after for 2 secs "Hahaha joking joking"
Yea i know she was joking.But it really made a big bloody impact on me.Like everyone knows what happened.I just felt like breaking down.A small voice told me to remain strong.
Why am i so weak?
And that is why I am afraid to talk to teachers nowadays.I just feel like running away everytime i see a teacher coming towards me.

Is it really all my fault?That I am the cause of the accident?Is the teachers really blaming me?

How i wish i could turn back time.Or just run away and come back with a plastic surgery.

Remain strong is what the small voice have been repeating.I still dare to smile and be cheerful.And thank god,i am.

HAPPY MATHLETE !!! ~Off now

Yo Peeps !

Hmmm...maybe i am myself back again.Just need to get back to the orginal slightly.Monday is the day babe!

Yesterday was the day i came out of the dark cave.I had alot of laughters with them.We started talking bout SHITs.And even made up a SHIT factory.Arghh,so fun!I mean,it isn't real.Maybe we shall talk more bout it after the exams.

The Lit presentation was superb.We restart thrice!First because Dan A. forgot to show the slide.Second,i hit the screen and it went up.The whole class burst out in laughters.The third went right.Shyahida forgot the script.HAHAHA!I guess she was too nervous.I hope my group is the best.

Maths,whoosh!Mrs Kho is the best.I guess she understands me.

Had NCC Training.Only 8 people came.Suppose to have Command and Control test.But we are not confident enough.I was the first one.I practically trembling.Like theres is nothing gonna come out of my mouth.Too nervous.I'll do better next week.

Received our class t-shirt.Everyone went home happy.As you see at my tagboard,someone is unhappy.Anqi,i'm sorry,but i don't think the designer can draw that.
That's final.If you are not happy with it,then forget bout wearing it.There is a shop at TM where you can add it.

Monday,would be the original me i suppose.My problems are still with my.But my happiness is over it.It would fade off slowly if things goes right.
To the person who said i always cry,
I cry because i didn't want it to go inside.Mdm Fauziah said "It's okay to cry.But never give up"I don't know what is her exact words are,but it really meant like that.And now,i'm feeling better that i cried my problems out,yet there are still some stains would vanished with HAPPINESS.

My equation is , (sad)(sad) = HAPPY
You would know if you learn Maths ~ Off now

Don't worry i would get to myself back if you people make it right.

What happed to me these days?
- I refuse to talk to people
( Reason : People don't appreciate when i talk )
- I refuse to tell people my problem
( Reason : Cause they don't wanna hear it sincerely )
- I don't wanna make jokes
( Reason : It would hurt SOME PEOPLE )
- I don't wanna help people
( Reason : They would step over my head,and don't appreciate )
- I don't wanna smile or be happy
( Reason : People call me irritating )
- I don't wanna join people conversation
( Reason : If i join,i definately feel leftout.Like now. )

I don't know whether i am at wrong or you guys.But i'll get back to the original be slowly.

So what if i cry?Do you guys like care?Instead you said i am an "Attention Seeker" when i cry.
Why do you cry?
You cry when you feel sad or helpless.
Where is your mind??
Try being in my shoes.How do you feel?

Sicko human beings without feelings!

Today had alot of laughters after school.I'm sure tomorrow's presentation would be fantastic.
I'll be okay ~Off now

Why must this things happen to me?

Monday Blues.

I was dumbfounded when Mrs Kho said that Mdm Punitham was on wheelchair.All the sudden,i felt like a huge rock filled with blames being thrown on me.I felt that it's all my fault that Mdm Punitham fractured her ankle.

It all happened...

We went to EastCoast for class outting.As we were walking to the halker-centre as Mdm Punitham wanted to treat us there,Mdm Punitham leg stepped into a shallow hole.She trip and twisted her ankle.She sat down on the floor.Groaning in pain.I grew worried.She refuse to go home but to continue the journey.Fadhly helped her.After we ate,that is when the last time i saw her on both legs,before she was on wheelchair.She went home and the rest of us went for bowling.


I hope you would recover soon...

I cried after Maths Lesson.Mrs Kho talked to me.It made me cried more and more.During LS,a subtitude teacher came in.Used that period to cry.Cried alone.Karishma was beside me,comforting me.Thanks girl.

After school,decided to look for Mdm Irma who wasn't in.Then Aisyah asked Ms Arnita if we could see Mdm Punitham as she came to school.As she wanted to lead us in the office,tears start to flow out of my eyes again.Zafirah then went in with Aisyah.I sat outside crying.Mdm Punitham came.I couldn't bare to look at her.Alot of people crowd around her.

She would be on MC for 2 weeks.I don't know who is going to sub us.I regret.I regret.Without her,i don't think i can score high as 86.

I'm sorry Mdm Punitham.I shouldn't have organised this outting.If you hadn't went,i don't think this would happen.I hope you would have a speedy recovery.So that you can come back and teach us for the last year.I promise,i would do my best to make you proud for my Sci.I'm sorry...

I regret...I regret...
I just wanna be invisible

I'm getting more burdens on me.One of them is the above.The rest,are confidential.How i wish i could have the strength to face these.Yes,i'm strong on the outside,but weak on the inside.

I know,no one would understand.Even them.
I'm leftout,alone...
My eyes are swollen...

I just want to be alone...alone...~Off now

Woot Woot !!!
Maths Trail was extreamly fun!!! ARGHH!!!

As we reached the Botanic Garden,i kept disturbing Pamm.Haha so fun.Alvin wore red shorts and i kept teasing him "National Day".Had alot of laughter.The trail started and i asked the Station Master what are we suppose to do and he ignore.Since he wore purple shirt,called him barney cause i didn't know his name.

My group consist of Izzat,Alvin,Junior and me.I can't believe the boys were so co-operative!Junior didn't wanna run.Hahaha,and he was left all the way behind.I just can't believe how united the boys were.I didn't regret choosing them.

We leftout one station cause the map they put the wrong name.Swiss Ball Sculpture but they put Swiss Granite Sculpture.Big difference!I didn't expect us to get any trophy cause we leftout one station.Bronze is already enough.

After the trail,we had refreshments.I should admit,i had fun with the 3boys.
The results.
2e2 got bronze.And Kiat Wee is in there.Then i had the feeling like,"No hope..."Then i was shock 2e4 got Silver!From that,i knew 2e3 have the high chance on getting Gold,and they did!Pamm,you took my gold!

Took picture and all that.Suppose to go to the Court Tour at ChinaTown with cuzzies,but i was too tired then i doze of till 6pm...~Off now

Hadn't been myself these days.
I toss and turn at night.

Yesterday was fun.I really had fun with SC.I should say,it was the best day of the week?
Pics taken by Pamm camera..

Leftout in the dark

Oreo proudly given by Sabri

She kissed me!!! *Blushes*
Lesbians?

Yea yea,it was truly fun.Especially Priscilia who is abit insane?Started kissing me.
Headache.
Tomorrow is Maths Supp.
Friday Maths Trail with Izzat,Junior and Alvin!Yay!
Sat class outting.

No time to jog.No one to jog.I shall walk alone then..
Leftout...~Off now

It's 4th of September.
One more month till the KKH Appointment.Hoping and praying that the bone tumor won't grow again.I mean,the Doc say it will grow.

I'm sorry i can't be perfect.

How I wish I could be perfect.If I am not,then I rather be inivisible.

I've just found out one thing i've always done,but people don't appreciate.And so,i'm gonna stop.I'm not kidding nor i am joking.I'm hurt too much.Like a dagger peircing through me.Yes,i know no one can help,and that is why i'm just helping myself.Cause,the one and only that understands and be there to hear me,is just God.

Sometimes i feel so leftout.And the only person beside whom use to keep me accompany is none other than my ambitious cousin,Zafir.I look up to him.He still stay strong even though he thinks he is nobody.But to me,he is more than a somebody.He is even a National Ambassador yet,he is just 1 year younger than me.

He is the one whom i tell my stories to,he is the one whom i help,he is the one who seek me for advices,and then Thank for it.I may not be so close to him,but i treat him just like my own little brother.

By the end of this post,you may hate me for who i am.
I may cry,bleed,suffer,but nothing is stopping me for the person i am.

Yes,i'm crying now.But i'm still continueing my journey.
Nevermind,you just can't be trusted anymore...~Off now