HEYY!!!
I'M BACK!!!

Woo! Feels so good to be back!

ACL Reconstruction @ SGH on 29 Dec - 31 Dec
The operation was successful.
And they say that the stitches looks neat and healthy.
Oh yeas, it's extremely pain after the operation.
But after getting out of the bed for 1 whole day, the pain was reduced.
Went for Pysiotherapy the 2nd day. It was damn hard to walk.
And i could not bend and lift up my leg.
Plus, the therapist was not helping at all.
C'mon, i think therapist needs to encourage their patients to go on further rather than setting restrictions on when i have to bend.
Then had x-ray done.
Discharged on 31 Dec 08 at 12.30pm.

So what perked me up during the stay was the visitors!
29 Dec 08
4.30pm: Syima and Fitri came.
5.30pm: Khairin, Suhaimi, Izzat, Guo Yan, Yi Ling, Hui Peng, Stephanie, Fong Ee, Irfan, Azri and Zul came.

30 Dec 08
4.00pm: Syafiqah, Natasha, Huda and Izzat came.
7.00pm: Syima, Sabiruna, Farisa, Amir and Khairul came.

Haha, woots. Thanks to Syima for keeping me entertained through the phone. And Izzat for cracking jokes about other patients. Well, my leg kinda hurts when i laugh.

Anyway,
i feel kinda hopeless though...
But she said, If you want it, go for it. By the time you know, you will be running.
And honestly, the night of the operation, I dreamt that I ran!

PAINKILLERS!

Josh Groban - You are loved (Don't give up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt
That you hide
When you're lost inside, I
I'll be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be loved

You are loved

So, I'm kinda motivated by the song Josh Groban - You are loved .
It makes me feel calm.
And yes,
I WON'T GIVE UP!

Had Spartan's outing to Sentosa yesterday. I could see that the others really enjoyed. And how i wished I could join their activity in the water. But, since operation is coming soon, and Mom is afraid i would fall ill. So, hang around with Suresh, Ashraf, Abbas and Merhan. Haha, damn they are dirty bunch of fellows. Then, went off early.

Then on 24 Dec, went out with Mia, Khairin, Suhaimi, Izzat and Guo Yan to E!Hub to play bowling. Kena owned by Izzat again. And the boys won.

Oh yeah.. Congrats to Koh Guo Yan and Cherng Yi Ling !!!
Hahaha, like Hui Peng said, FINALY!

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!
Ohmygoodnessgraciousme!!!
ARGHH..
Kinda feel scared, nervous, excited, worried and sick.
It's true what Su said.
The old Fatin would be back, in 6 months time. Okay make it 1 year...
Honestly, I'm yearning to run again.
It's been looooooooong since i last felt the adrenaline rush.
And feel as though my problems are gone.
And the sense of satisfaction.
I WANT TO RUN!

Anyway, thanks to those who were there to convince, and give support to me.
I believe I'm prepared to go on.

And to Amirah, be strong yeah.
Oh wait, you are always strong. Hehe. And don't worry, we are here for you.
To lend a listening ear,
and a shoulder you can cry on.


Cause I'm moving on...

Today is a blessing.

Well, i had my pre-admission screening test at SGH just now. And, it lasted for 6 hours(From 9.30am - 3.30pm).
And, the staff there are really friendly and funny.
Had blood test. It was awfully painful. Thank god this time, i didn't cry. Hehe.
Then was briefed about the operation.
Also had my leg measurement. Haha!
And, also they measured the strength of my leg.
Cool eh?

Oh yeah, i had a time of my life just now.
I felt like I was saved by some guardian angel.
And he is, the doctor that served me just now.
Oh well, it's about my dream to be a doctor.
And he gave some advise and explained to me some stuff.
Thanks.

Anyway,

SYAFIQAH BTE NASIR told me to write this.
"Syafiqah is the meaniest person I ever met"

However...

SYAFIQAH BTE NASIR is the bestest friend i ever met!

OH MY GOODNESS, It's 19 DECEMBER !!!
and it means... 10 more days!
NOOO !!!

Oh no, not good.
I'm feeling sick now.
And my head feels like it's upside down.

So, yesterday, went to E!Hub with Amirah and Izzat, at 6pm!
And went to have dinner at BK. Suhaimi, Karan, Irfan and their TKSS friends joined.
Oh oh! I also met Syafiany! Kindergarten and primary school friend.

Later at 8pm, went bowling.
Izzat, Karan, Me, Amirah and Suhaimi.
I STRIKE FOR MY FIRST BOWL!
Woots!
TYCO lahh..
Later, i was bad at it. Haha.
Finished at 9.30pm.
And we got owned by Izzat. Pfft..

It was fun. Finally, get to see my friends.

Oh yeah, did I tell you that I'm studying BIOLOGY?

Well, Suhaimi lend the book. Thanks.
I gotta start mugging now. Wahaha. Yeap, I know what you guys are thinking.
"Is she out of her mind? It's the holidays!"
Nahh..
Soon, I'll be going for my operation, and the 4 weeks of recuperation, I shall study Bio for the benefit, IF i were to go Junior College.
And boy! It's 22 chapters, and 442 pages thick.
Even Additional Mathematics is not that thick.

Faster way to digest the facts?
Gotta burn the book, mix with water, and drink it.

I think i got a pretty tight schedule.
Tomorrow I have East BBQ at East Coast Park!
Woots ~ Time to meet the seniors from other intakes =)

20Dec: East BBQ
21Dec: Cousin's wedding.
22Dec: BLOOD TEST!! argghh!!!
23Dec: Training.
24Dec: ECP?
25Dec: should be free...
26Dec: should be free...
27Dec: outing with Spartans to Sentosa
28Dec: get ready for operation?
29Dec: OPERATION!
30Dec: Hospitalised?
31Dec: Discharged?

Okay.. I'm really scared now.

56th Cadet Officer Course (24 Nov - 12 Dec)

PHOTOS


The Cadet Trainee


Mum and Aunt donning Cadet Officer rank


With Mum, Granny and Aunty


With C/LTA Muhaimin, ABANG!


With Dr Arthur Beng, Chairman NCC,
RADM Chew Men Leong, Guest of Honour
and family


With seniors Zarifah, Xiao Wei and Iqmalia.


With bro, Zarian and Fathuddin


With 2 jokers, Hakim and Helmi


With the Road Marshall, Hamzah!
Hehe


With buddy, Syima

More photos coming in soon...

I'm BACK !!!

56th RESPECT AND HUMILITY

Yesterday was the Passing Out Parade for 56th Cadet Officer Course.
I had mixed feeling.
Part of me is feeling excited, and part of me felt upset.

3 weeks have gone so fast.
3 weeks had changed me.
3 weeks had given me chance to discover the world and myself.
3 weeks had given me chance to bond with my friends.
3 weeks, is all it takes.

Spartans, a platoon filled with people with different personalities.
I would like to thank them, for their first hand concern towards my condition.
Their enthusiasm that kept me going. And their cooperation for making learning a success.
Thanks to Sabiruna, Syima, Aishah and Jin Feng for being by my side through the entire 3 weeks.
Thanks to Indra, Wafiy, Ilyia, Suresh and Ashraf for always cracking jokes that made my day.
Thanks to Benson, Lopez, Khairul, Ernest, Abbas, Amir and Anwar for their outstanding leadership and confidence.
Thanks to the rest for your cooperation and team spiritness.

Also, thanks to KOH GUO YAN.
It's because of him, that I had the heart to go for the course.
Because of his sincerity to go for the course, that kept me going.
And because of his sacrifice, it motivates me further.

Thanks to the instructors for making the course happening, and a success.

Okay, now I'm really missing them.

12 Dec 2008, marks the start of my journey.

Things happen, happens for a reason.
And things happen, when you least expect them.

I was at the state of depression during for the past few days.
I don't know why.
And I couldn't really concentrate well during the course.
Felt like i needed motivation to boost myself.
I don't know what's the real feeling, but I'm definately keeping it to myself.

Yes, I'm enjoying 56th Cadet Officer Course.
A bigger circle of friends.
On Wednesday had Change Of Command. Being the Road Marshall wearing luminous vest and holding light-saber is cool.
Haha. It's fun especially with Lopez, Indra, Abbas and Anwar cracking jokes.

Ahh... I finally got my name tag.
Emblazened on the right chest is my name, FATIN.

So this week was filled with lectures.
Ate sweets to keep myself awake.
The lectures were really productive.
And, I'm still finding the "real you" in me.

Yesterday marked the end of 2nd week and coming to the 3rd week.
Went to have dinner at AMK Hub with a bunch of jokers.
I couldn't stop laughing at Indra who acted sissy. Really suits him.
Gives you the goosebumps.

I'm not really sure what I've gained from this course, but I'm confident that i've gained something.
But in a state of confusion, I'm confused to find out who I really am.
Who am I?
What's the real me?

In another 23 more days, I'll be going for the operation.
I don't know what my heart is telling me.

I feel lost in my own world.

You came and changed my world...