Feel so restless..
Got no mood to talk to anyone.I hate using crutches.Don't ever think of using,its troublesome.I just feel like shouting out loud and hoping no one hears it.
I wanna just throw my crutches down and just walk on my own legs.I wanna go watch movie with Lydia and my cousins.I wanna open the bandage to see my scar and scratch the ichy part.I wanna bathe with using crutches inside the bath room.I wanna bathe with using plastic over my bandage.I wanna take my own drink and eat on my own.I wanna get up of bed on my own.I wanna seat on my own.I wanna walk ON MY OWN !!!

But all this things i wanna do,is after 14 Dec.Except for the movie part.I can go out 1 week after my op. which is on the 5 Dec.Now,i feel much more useless than before.I'm dead bored.Please..i just wish everything can be over..

Ouh yeah,i just wish i could go out and watch movie.Hearing them going makes me feel so left out.Thinking of watching Zathura with no one..Chicken Little with Syafiqah i guess.Sign..
Not in a mood right now..

The useless,hopeless me..

Yo people!!! I'm officially back from the Hospital.Yeah,i had the operation.. OKay,so let me tell what happened during my stay.

On Sunday,I was admitted.So,my ward and bed is Ward 55 and bed 24.The nurse was nice.Was wondering,who the nurse really represent someone in Junyuan.Then finally it struck my head.And the nurse was exactly like Bariah from 3e2!Mum met alot of Patients' parents.I had to take blood test when i thought i don't need.It really gave me goosebumps.I was told not to look at what they were doing and looked somewhere else.It really hurts man! And it didn't even feel like an ant bitting.Infect,its more painful.But after all,its over.I drank plenty of water and went toilet alot of time.At night,couldn't sleep cause too scared for the next day,Operation.

On Monday,I was " Nil from food " or something like that.Cream placed on the top of my palm.So,when its time for the Doctors to meet their Patients,mine came in a whole lot of group while other Patients,only 1 or 2 doctors come.Was shocked too cause the others are much more worser i guess.The nurse brought me to the sort of Front of the operation places.While waiting,i had a gastric pain.Was given some kinda of medicine.It taste so sour but less than 5 seconds,it healed!I was called and brought to the Theathre Operation Room.There were so many Doctors!I was thinking,only 2 doctors are gonna operate,why 10 or more?Laid down on the bed and they inject some kinda of thing and insert a tube.Straight i fall asleep.Thought wanted to do like Mr Sin.He tried to control and not sleep but couldn't.Fall asleep as soon after i saw my live line,and i fainted.Woke up at one room.I guess the operation takes about less than 2 hrs.They brought me back to my ward and change my clothes.Was lying down and wanted to call Iffa when i saw Iffa at the door.She came to visit me.Yeah,she,her mum,mizah and izzat came to visit.And so far,they are the only one.I felt like urinating.I cant walk so they say use BED PAN.I tell you,its troublesome.Skipped my Super cause i fell asleep.

Today,the Nurse gave me a SpongeBath.Means,she have to wipe my body on the bed.I felt so lame mann.By the way,the nurse at KKH are so friendly.Espeacially the Bariah looking nurse,the night shift nurse and the SpongeBath nurse.The SpongeBath nurse looked like those Nurse at the cartoon which they are afraid of.Those big and fat.Yeah she is exactly like that but she is funny.TOTALLY funny.Then,time for the doctors to check their patient.So the same whole big group of doctors came to visit just to ask " How is it? " Hahaha! I didn't see Dr Peter Lee.So it was one Dr,but so called the Professor! And i thought,did all of these doctor came because of ME or the PROFESSOR ? But well,gotta go back to Hosp for check up on the 14 Dec.Can't wait.Cause they are gonna take off my bandage.Then,another Doctor came to teach me how to use crutches.Ouh yeah,i need crutches.Its troublesome and it hurts your umpit.Then,they give me medicine and i went home.

So here i am blogging.Everythings over!! But the pain isnt!! Nevermind,pain killer with me = )
See ya people~Off now

About 2 more hours I must be at KK Hospital.I'm worried,I'm scared.I hope I would be admitted with my cough.So,people who wants to visit me,that is why i say, Dont trouble yourself,cause,I'm not sure whether I'm gonna be admitted with this kind of condition.So,to confirm whether I would be admitted,means there would be no entry tonight.So stay tuned! Sounds like those DJ? Hahaha! So Khairin,Hasanah and Shikin,I hope you are reading this.I'm not stopping you from visiting.Its up to you all.The only thing I want was,not to trouble you.KK Hosp is kinda far and don't waste money on Texi.So,its all your choice.
I'm not expecting anyone to come but as i say,I'm not stopping you.Feel free if you want.
Those who intend to visit :
KK Hospital Children's Tower
( Go find at the information counter
for the ward.I'm not sure ! )

Mum don't allow me to watch movie with my cousins and Lydia which is on Thurs.My wound needs 1 week to recover.Sure,I'll miss all the fun they are gonna have.They are watching Zathura and if they watched,I have no one to watch Zathura with.Bro already had watch,and my cousins are gonna watch and Syafiqah had watch too.No,no one in mind now.Probably would find one or just not watch.So i guess my cousins and Lydia would watch Zathura without me then.And to Iffa,I'm serious,Haha!
Okay,I'm off to the Hospital soon..Seeya!~Off now

Heya people!Here i am blogging.Kinda bored and currently,my head is spinning.Tomorrow,I am gonna be hospitalised.The moment of terror!! But actually,not sure whether i'll be hospitalised cause i'm having a cough.And the doctor cannot continue the operation if i have cough.Its said as DANGEROUS.Praying hard that my cough will soothe and i can continue my operation and the operation would be a success one.

I'm not sure whether i want to go for the operation.Suddenly,something just stopped me from going for the operation was,Aunty and Grandma refuse to let me go.They say that,I cant go for NCC or PE.Seriously,I told them " The doctor told me to rest during the Dec holidays for it to recover.By Jan or Feb,I can continue in NCC and PE. " Certainly,if they want to cancel the operation,its too late cause they told me about days before the operation.So,the operation continues.

It really kept me worrying.I'm not sure that my headache now is caused by the worrying of the operation.But,on Wed night i puked.Don't feel to good.
Thinking about the story " God loves you " , the story i posted for the last entry,it really gave the nudge.Mostly,touched that Iffa really cared about me.Went to her house yesterday.Her cat is so adorable .The cat even had a fight with Iffa's father,Uncle Hashim's ,hand.Its so cute.But well,didn't get a snap of the cat's pic cause Cam low battery..
Pictures Snapped

~ The " An actress wannabe " , IFFa ~

~ Iffa and Izzat [ Haha,not ready yet? ] ~

~ Me and Iffa [ Cheese ] ~

~ Sports Maniac and Actress Wannabe [Cheers] ~

~ The "Nizzatelrooy" , Izzat [Sorry,covered the flash.At least i tried
to edit.. ] ~

Okay,that's enough~Off now

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.

Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake."

"Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter.

"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

It was sent from Iffa.It was told that she cared about me.Yeah,i felt that this is true.Thanks cousin.Thanks = )

You Are A: Puppy!

Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your playful and friendly nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!

You were almost a: Pony or a Parakeet
You are least like a: Turtle or a GroundhogWhat Cute Animal Are You?

Was looking through Sharifah's journal when found something that can ease my boredom.Im a puppy?

Yeah,today went to the Health Promotion Board for my teeth.Waited about 1hr 30min.Went for X-tray.Gosh,X-tray is bad! I went for X-tray about 7 times!And soon,when it comes to this Sun,it could be more.Okay,back to where i was.The doctor said my teeth are weird.And some baby tooth cant be extract cause on top there isnt any adult tooth.The doctor referred me to Braces Treament.Mann.But lucky today the doctor didnt extract any tooth of mine! Hee!

All of sudden my knee hurts alot! I couldn't walk properly.Something must have gone wrong..~Off now

Today was fantastic! Went to eat Swensen at Tampines with Mdm Zainab,Anqi,Priscila(1e6),Shao Hui and Sabri.Cool huh? Went in and Mdm Zainab decided to treat us lunch.She order Fish and Chips so did Sabri and Shao Hui.Priscilla(1e6) and Anqi ate Pasta and as for me i ate Chicken Baked Rice.It was so dilicious! Yummy!Anqi didn't finish her pasta.It was great but it would be greater with Mdm Yang,Mdm Teo and Ms Yip.Sad thing was,Mdm Yang had fever,Mdm Teo had food poisoning and Ms Yip,don't even know about the treat.After eating our lunch,we ate dessert.Shared Banana Spilt.Cherry is so not nice! Taste like medicine.Mdm Zainab had always like the Swensen's brownie.Can't believe that the totally bill was $110 !Mdm Zainab went home,the others wanted to go Arcade while as for me,I went to get Double Cheeseburger at Mc! Hahah!

Can't believe that I'm going SGH tomorrow for my dental appointment.Heard from Syafiqah that they would pluck all the baby tooth! NO!
~~~**ExaCtly 1 more week**~~~

Okay,about the commercial at the tagboard,I don't expect vulgaralities.Although i think,It could be a lie of Anonymous.Anonymous claims that he/she is handicapped.I feel sorry for him/her.Probably if you,Anonymous,got any problem with me,you can come and tell me.I'll be there to explain truthfully.I don't get what Anonymous is jealous of? I'm just an ordinary person.Like any other people living the this world.Thats all.I'm not great,nor famous.There is nothing to be jealous of,because,in you,there is a leader in yourself.
Decided to continue on blogging!!~Off now

Yo!Sup?So much for blogging this days.Today,was ABSOLUTELY AWESOME!!!Can't forget today.Went out with my cousins to watch Harry Potter at Plaza Singapura.Yeah,you might think,"Why not Tampines?" I was thinking of that too but because Zuhayr stays at Yishun and Izzat,Iffa and me stays at Simei.So Zuhayr was thinking of finding somewhere fair.So called "EQUALISA".Our movie starts at 3.10pm.And we reached at Plaza about 11.30am ! So we walked around.Ate Mc,went to TIMES.

Zuhayr decided to go Orchard,so we followed.On the way,we passed by the Istana.Wow!Zuhayr was being so funny.Of course my favourite shop is usual the shop that sells something related to SPORTS.Went to Adidas,Splish and Splash[not quite sure] and World Of Sports.The boys wasn't that interested but it was for me.Then,my cousins asked for just a favour." To wear girl like clothes".Hahaha!What do you expect?

I was so interested in so many shoes,clothes and basketball.At least,not playing Basketball for 1 year,i still can spin the ball!After that,we went to Best Denki.Was looking at the Digi Cam.But what a coincidence was,my brother won a Samsung DigiCam!Was jumping out of joy.But,Dad's Cam is better?
About Half an hour to 3.10pm,we brought 2 Jumbo PopCorn for the four of us.The Story was,Funny,Abit heart-shocking and Sad.I actually teared when Cedric died.Ron was still funny and especially the Twins-Fred and George.Hermoine is pretty.But well,is a very fantastic movie after all.So next,gonna catch Chicken Little and Zathurah.Got addicted to Mash Potato!Hahaha!So now we cousins are so called the FiZi- Fatin Iffa Zuhayr Izzat- Cuzins.Haha,kinda lame?

Had a strange dream few days ago.But before i tell,
I don't care what people think about me.This is my blog,i have rights to talk about anything.As long it offends people,i wont.
The dream is about,my operation.Had a dream that i was in the hosp.And then sort of like late.Wanted to know what is next but ended up at my bed room.Sign..1 more week,Yes,1 more week.I don't mind Mdm Zainab coming.She wanted to,but i gave a giggly look.Ouh yeah,can't wait till Mon.Mdm Zainab decided to treat those who helped her Swensens.Heeh!

So much for a day..
My eyes barely open..~Off now

Got so much to blog about today but something just brought me not to.
Happy BiRthday to Syairah,Bijal and Nicolette!!
Sign.Lets start.

To Anonymous,
Please write your name.Who are you by the way?
First and foremost,this is my blog,i want to do whatever i want to this blog.If you are not happy,then don't read.And its meant for me to just let out my feelings.Tell me what blog is? Is an online journal right? And its meant for you to tell what you feel? Yeah so thats it.
Secondly,I didn't even write my problems here.I always keep my problems to myself and only myself and never had tell anyone! NOT EVEN A SINGLE SOUL ! If you were thinking my knee was one of my problems,yeah it is.A problematic thing!But,i can stop.And you are telling me to suffer.Thanks !
Thirdly,i know other people have problems and some are much more worser.I know that.That is why i never reveal my problems and never tell anyone even some recommanded me to.
Lastly,now,do you have a problem with me? No no,I'm not trying to offend you but,honestly,you can come and talk or email me.
Thanks for tagging and leave your name next time.

From today onwards,I DECLARE that i won't blog about my life anymore.Then what? Forget it.See ya.Adious..~Off now

Yesterday went to help Mdm Zainab again.This time Mdm Yang didn't came so there isn't that much crappiness.We had some touch-up on the painting and we painted the Boy and Girl.I think by Mon,we can complete it.

I keep thinking about the Op. Would I be bored there? Oh yeah,thinking about going out with friends this days,I kinda not in the mood.Its because,of my op.Every night,i would think about the op.How they would cut my skin and through my flash just to cut away the bone.I hope its not a regret.I go for the op. is for the better for my running.And for not suffering after every fast walk,jogging and running.Yes,thats when I would feel the burning pain in it.Don't think about how it feels.It feels more painful than when you fall and have a big cut.Maybe the reaction of mine is as when you spraint your ankle."YES!You would run faster than usual!!" was what Dr Peter Lee said at the Hosp. Is he trying to persuade me to go for the op. and making a white lie,or is it true? I hope its true.As i said,I don't want the Op. to be a regret.

Don't feel offended when i said " I DON'T FEEL AS THOUGH I HAD FRIENDS " because,its part of my problem.Thats what I've been suffering through this years.And Sabri,I don't have to explain to you.You are my friend.
Talk about this later..~Off now

Went to school to help Mdm Zainab again.Not sure when it would finish but all those who hasn't seen it,you will see it when school reopens.Okay lets start about what had happened.Yeah,its Shao Hui,Sabri,Anqi,Priscilla and Sandy from 1e6 and me.It was the most hilarious moment ever I had with the teachers.At first it was the students and Mdm Yang.Mdm Zainab had NetBall.Mdm Yang brought radio for us to listen.Haha!Finally got some entertainment.I had my usual McDonald breakfast.Then Priscilla,Sandy and Anqi was gossiping about **blinking person**.Mdm Yang overheard and she knew bout it.Mdm Yang is so funny there.Can't help laughing at her.She was kinda silly when she called the leaves - > GRASS ! Haha!Well,i know,shouldn't laugh at her.But how funny she was and panicked**even the teachers laughed** Just knew that,teachers also gossip? Haha.We are Humans.Helping again tomorrow.

Went home and went online.Pei Sze chatted with me.She told me she wanted to go Junyuan! Told her that,its not a regret going to Junyuan cause there are nice teachers there too.Yeah,I'll try to stop saying I'm useless.Thanks to PeiSze who really explained to me.She gave me the courage and the pride to stand up for myself.Eventhough she is 1 year younger than me,she can still encourage me.

As i ran through the rain,i felt the pain at my lungs and heart.It felt like a dagger piercing deep through and deeper.I stopped running and stuggle for oxygen.I let myself,being drenched in the cold acidic rain.I lost focus and contrast on my vision.Slowly walked back home to make it a safe journey.
Happened just now while returning back from home after running for my grandma.

Humans need sleep too..~Off now

Here am I,once again,blogging.Yesterday night,felt so sick.Had sore throat and runny nose.My nose leaked.Woke up today and my whole body felt so hot.Didn't feel too good and called Mum.Lucky grandma reached home and brought me to Tampines Poly.Went there and notice my consultation room was Rm 40.Grandma said its for elderly people.From what i have thought, maybe the Registration Person thought it was grandma who need to consult the doctor and mistook me as a boy.So,Grandma went to the toilet and my no. was called.Went in the room alone.Told the doctor this and that and finally had my medication.So,now im back from the doctor.

I just felt that,I lost my courage on the Op. Maybe because the op. is in about less that 3 weeks time.Mum had always worried about my op. 3 mths before the op. But then now its 3 weeks,she didnt worry and instead,I'm worried.Oh yeah,Natasha once said about the Hosp. Have ghost and all that.I'm also scared of that too.So,Mum decided to stay over-night with me.Well,the only thing i hope for was,a successful operation.
That's all..~Off now

Went school again.Had to go dentist.The doctor said my teeth are weird.Haha.Its all jumbled up.He referred me to SGH,Gosh.Have to go there to get and X-tray and if its serious,need OPERATION!! Aww mann..I'm useless,hopeless,pathetic person.

I'm dead bored.I wonder how much worser it is after my operation.I'll have to stay at home only ? I just wish I could go out with Aashi.But,so far,had never go out with her to go watch Movie.Actually once,it was last year.I hope this time she would appear.Come to think about after the operation,i might think i would be " Useless Lame Freak ".I just feel like crying.The stabs at my heart is deeper than usually.Make it clear,I Useless!~Off now

Sup! Haha! As i said,today had to go to school and help Mdm Zainab to paint the wall.When i reached school,there are some students but i didn't see any 1E4 student who are suppose to help.I have thought of going home.Walked around the school to find them but no sight.So at my last look-out for them which is infront of the general office,before i thought of going home,saw Mdm Zainab waving at me from the inside of the General Office.Went in and she asked "Where is the rest?" They are late actually.So when up with Mdm Zainab and paint with her.Come on!! Shao Hui,Anqi.. Please come.Please..dont leave me alone. was in my mind.But guess what?Finally Shao Hui,Sabri,Priscilla from 1e6 and Diana from 1e3 came.We chatted and they were so disgusting.Talked about girlfriends and all that.Mdm Zainab heard but said " I'm not hearing that ah " But well,it was a cool day.Haha!

When home and i was all alone at home.Grandma did not come.Kinda bored too.So watched TV and all that.Yeah yeah.
Exactly 3 more weeks. Please..
I'm outta here~Off now

I gotta slow down on drinking too much soft drinks.Haha!
Finally,grandma and aunty is back!!Went to their house yesterday.Had alot of collection.Surprisingly,Dad gave each of us $100 !! Can't believe it.My eyes almost pop out!

Oh yeah,on Fri night,only the Melacca family came to my house.The others didn't.It was late at night so Mum didn't allow.Yesterday went to Grandma's house and she gave alot of Cadbury Chocolate.Today,Iffa came to my house.
Tomorrow am gonna paint again.
Tired..~Off now

Today went to school to return report book and help Mdm Zainab and Mdm Yang paint the Homec Rm.Ms Arnita wished me "Selamat Hari Raya" Haha.Thanks!Had a long talk with Danial before we proceed to painting infront of the general office when Mr Sin came.He is the usual crappy teacher.Haha!Called Mdm Zainab several times but she didnt came out when at last she came out.She couldn't hear? Hmm..something fishy.We painted and i my hands filled with paint.Had to wash it with karosene.Mdm Teo gave as Coke.So nice of her.After finish painting we kept the stuff inside the Homec Rm and would continue on Mon again.Mdm Zainab asked me when is my operation.I answered " 28 Nov ".Deep inside my heart,Why are you asking the date? But well,i didn't ask.

My relatives are coming soon.Just now went to NTUC with Mum to get drinks and all that.Brought 2 cartons of drinks.Damn Heavy!So now is just,wait wait and wait for them to come.
I'm so freaking bored..~Off now

Yo!First and foremost..
SeLaMaT HaRi Raya AlDifiLtrI !!!

MaAf ZaHiR DaN BaTiN
In other words,forgive my wrong doings and saying or anything i did to make you feel upset.This goes to other races too.

Went to Sengkang-Rivervale or Compassvale? to celebrate Hari Raya which is Grandma's house.Shocked and surprised to see our Melacca Relatives,Ifah and Ikah came.By the way,don't wander how I look like in my Baju Kurung.For once,i accepted any girl like stuff that mum told me to use.All day long we played Uno.Wander why too,Izzat didn't sang "Simple Plan-Untitled" to Grandpa.At least I'm glad that Grandpa remembers all his grandchildren names at that kind of age!Was kinda tired and bored actually that time and I took my Mp3 and listen to it when suddenly,the battery run off.The fun part was,we kept wooing Ikah with that *Blinking* person until she got annoyed and when she set up a broken smile,we stopped.Gotta thanks Zuhayr for being the CameraMan.Actually,was kinda pissed off when I wanted to take pictures and they kept delaying.Didn't take cause Bro scold me for delaying,but i wasn't.Pity Aunty Meedah and Uncle Azman who actually had an accident while riding the Motorbike.Was such a terror when i saw Aunty Meedah who couldn't walked properly because of the accident.When did the accident acured?Think days before..
I'm extreamly tired right now..~Off now