Today was fun blah blah blah.

Haha.You're busted.You are so stupid to believe that.Aint gonna tell what happen.Cause I believe,someone is reading this and would spread to the whole wide world.

Yea,how sacarstic.

Anyway,let me rent out my anger :

Heypal,
thingshasn'tchangeeversince
Youjustmadeitpatheticallymoreworst
Youmakemefeellike
apatheticidiot
Andtotopitupwithextracreamystuffs,
youmakefeellikea
patheticidiot
leftoutthirdparty
Happynow?Youwin...

Was listening to this song in my Mp3,
One of the sentence goes

So tell me how you feel, for real

And i felt like consulting with the song.
And another,

Do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

I don't know... i think i've gone insane.
I wanna be alone for now.
Cry if i want.
I'm just waiting for my teddy bear to go online.

To words for ya,
BUZZ OFF ~Off now

This post is suppose to be part 2? I think i'll cancel it.I got no mood to talk bout 26 Oct.It really saddens.

WEDNESDAY
Went Street Fest after the Yumin.Well,i went home before that.Overslept.Sorry Julianah.I was really tired i guess?The Street Fest was superb.The finale whereby the band performed,Julianah, Shikin , 2 1e4 boys and me danced and swayed together.The 1e4 boys were sporting.One of them was Iqbal.Haha!Made friends by dancing? I was happy.

A few days ago Izzat Hashim,my cousin, gave a picture of a jersey with the No.13 . I editted it.

This is mine.

While Izzat's was No.7 . Yes it's from Man Utd.His is C.Ronaldo ?

Recently,i watch She's the Man and got a pic of this.

The person with No.13 is Viola
while No.7 is Duke.

If you read twelth night,you would understand.
Viola is boisterous.Has a jersey of No.13 .It's like me =)
Duke is pro in soccer.Has jersey of No.7.It's like Izzat Hashim .

And how concidence? I just realised it yesterday? But obviously,the story isn't the same.Haha.

Mr Alsagoff told me i had to participate in the Inter School Street Soccer.I was chosen by my NCC teacher? As you know, I don't know soccer that well.Infect, I suck at soccer.The only sports i don't like is Soccer and Swimming.

So told Izzat Hashim to teach me soccer until 15 Nov.Yea,so might be going his house today. Thanks mann.You are the best dude...

Chatted with Irfan and Noor Izzat.Haha,i think the rule. I felt like my problems fade away when crapping with them.

My orthodonist appointment is this coming Tuesday. While my leg appointment is on 8th Nov.Sighh,i got that Innovative Protocol.I just hope the appointment won't clash with the Council Stuffs.

Stupid also got limit!Bloody hell... ~Off now

Part I
Sup...

I'm so saddened.
Today,is officially the last day of school of year 2006.I did not cry,but my heart was crying.Missing every individual in 2e4.My buds,bros,partner.They all meant alot to me.Sad i couldn't take much photos with them cause i had to clean the place while everyone was enjoying.Soon after that,i had to go for the prize giving thingy.

As the next 5 was called, i couldn't stop thinking of 2e4.I was like representing my class.My name was called out and i had some moral encouragement.Perhaps it was from 2e4.And sure it is.I'm not so proud to have it.Cause i believe,other people in 2e4 could get.But because of me,that Mdm Punitham had injurd,the class dropped.

We sang "You give me wings" .And a video of what had went through the year passed by me.I almost broke up in tears.I saw my class staring in attention as the councillors sang.

Mr Alsagoff called me out for the E-Zone thingy.Sighhh... am i always that busy?
Ms Krishnan invited all Rainbow students to have pizza.Unfortunately,i had a council meeting.Therefore,i took a pizza and wrapped it in tissue.I know it sounds disgusting,but i kept it safely.It was delicious afterall.

Had council meeting.Almost dozed off.I was really tired.
I couldn't take photos with my class.We only had a pic of us.

(Click to enlarge)

I went back to class to get my books.It feel so empty.There is an echo playing through my head..Echo of the laughters.

The Empty classroom of 2e4

I miss everyone in the class !!!
Here i am,eyes filled with tears.Tears that marks "I miss them..."

Most of all,i miss the guys.Cause..
They are the ones that made me feel confident.
They are the ones who cheer me up when i'm upset.
They are the ones whom i'm comfortable to joke and tease with.
They are the ones who give moral support.
They are the ones i love as a friend

I miss you JianXin, WenSu, Azri, Izzat, Khalis, Irfan, Jeremy, Melvin, Junior, Gregory, Brian, Alvin and etc.

Arghhh... i'm really sad to continue further.I'll continue tomorrow...plus the Street Fest too.
I miss you... ~Off now

Whoosh

Tomorrow is Hari Raya.

So today was just some touch ups.
Went to school and didn't see Huda again.Sobs...Miss her talking.

Then had the prize giving rehearsal.Chatted with Nisarat.Arghhh,had lotsa fun and laughters.Even the Sec1s were staring at us.Then went back to class to give the form.Saw the cheery faces of my beloved classmates.Alvin !!! Let's play stress? Haha .

Went down back for the Hady Mirza song.
And the chorus i changed it to :

You give me wings when i'm fallingdropping
You lift me updown when i'm downup
Taking me highlow, touching the skyground
Yeah you make me flywalk

And from that,Delailah called me out to sing on the stage with the others.Arghh.Making a fool of myself.Haha.

Met Aisyah.Helped her on the ticking of the travel plans.She went to collect the photos.

Anyway,Iffa gave me a prezzie.It's a pencil case.Something like Elaine's.Well,eventhough it's not my type,i love it.Thanks Coolio.

What Iffa gave


What Fadhilah gave

Thanks mann.I appreaciate it.
Can't wait to see my cousins.From Iffa, to Izzat, to Zuhayr, to Fazlin , to neices, nephews and other cousins.

Holidays are approaching.And the most people i'm often seeing is the councillors.There goes our big project.The Innovation Protocol, etc.That would keep me occupied.Plus the outtings with my fellow CrApPeRz and the FiFiZ .

Well,what struck me was,my fellow councillors asked me this question "How do you study?" And it took me so long to answer it.Infect,i didn't even answer it.Wahahaha!

Why is this pathetic feeling growing in me ?!?
Why can't i be like the beginning of the year?No feelings like i have now.And my mindset is different.I wanna be rough towards ... Not like i am now.

Ignore the above para.
I've gone bonkers babe !!! ~Off now

Okay another 3 more days to spend time with my dear classmates.

I'm really missing them so much.People say we can meet during recess.But hey,next year,when people meet new friends,they probably forget.And i want the fun we had in class.

Sighhh...i just hope i won't cry on that day.

I hope, I wish, that ...........

Hari Raya is coming.Heeh =)
I would like to ask for forgiveness to those whom i've hurt and to any wrong doings i've done.

I might not be able to blog for a couple of days.Or to be online.Due to some technical probs.The latest might be a month.

Okay,the happy side to talk is,
I can't wait to go for the movies and bowling with the
CrApPeRz
[ WenSu, JianXin, Jeremy, Irfan, Izzat, Khalis, Azri, Kamil, Aisyah, Wirdah, Elaine, XiaoYan, Me ]

We are made up during the EastCoast Outting.Whoosh !
And also with my cuzzins.

Last but not least,I'm gonna miss everyone in 2e4..

This brings memories...

I..
miss..

you
them
him
her

I MISS 2E4'06 !!! ~Off now

So,what's on now...

is i don't feel good today.

Came to school with swollen eyes.People ask why,my reason "Bitten by bedbugs" Hahaha! How ridiculous can it be?Bed bugs only bite on our feets,hands,but not on eyes ! Okay,so Chloe said this
Chloe: Eh,you cry last night is it?
Me: No lahh...
(After 15 mins...or so)
Me: Eh ..how you can tell whether i cry?
Chloe: Your eyes are really swollen

And seriously,i cried last night.Not bitten by bed bugs.I just lied.Sorry.
Anyway,not gonna tell what happened.

Today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Natasha
Pamela
Yue Ping !!!

Played UNO with the guys.Then played stress with Irfan and Izzat.I became more stressful!Irfan was like,cheating?Izzat kept turning the piles of card over so i wouldn't be able to see the number.

Recess,didn't wanna go down.Didn't have the mood.And became weaker.Talked to Huda,and played stress with the others.

Then the streaming excercise.
So,my choices are...
1st : 3E3
2nd : 3E4
3rd : 3E6
4th : 3E1
5th : 3E2
6th : 3E5

Chatted with Md Noor Izzat last night.He say he would go 3E3 with me!! Yes mann! He rocks.I would pray that he would have a chance to go in 3E3.His choices are also the same as mine.Hahaha.Then in class still can say "Fatin,i wanna see yours.I wanna compare." Haha,okay Izzat is a crapper.Had lots of laugh last night.Till my tummy hurts.

Stayed back for the Council.Sorry Huda.Can't go back with ya always.

Okay,here comes the best part.Tomorrow is my appointment for the leg.And i'm not worried,cause i told mum to postpone it AGAIN ! I seriously don't wanna go for it mann.I told my mum that i wanna spend time with my classmates during MT.Watch video.And also,i want to go for NCC and accompany Jia En.I don't wanna disapoint her this time.And mum understands me.Ouh...she's the best.

Changed blog song to "Goodbye".It's dedicated to all 2e4 jokerz.I love you guys mann.I was touched to see us growing united together as months go by.Especially the one on the teachers' day.So this song is mainly dedicated to -

My buddies ( Natasha,Syafiqah,Huda )
My bros ( Khalis,Azri,Izzat,Irfan,Jian Xin,Wensu )
My partner ( Elaine )
and my friends =) ( the rest )

Okay,1 more week,and school is closing.
Here i am...missing them...~Off now

ARGHH !!!

I feel like crying and drown myself in my tears.

I don't know.I really don't know what to choose.I want 3e3 cause i want geog.I want 3e4 cause i would be able to handle it.And probably some other friends are there too.

WHY MUST I BE IN SUCH DILEMMA ?!?!

Ouh no...no..no... NO !!!

Okay,that's the thing that is bothering me.

I'm so happy for myself.
Got 1st in class
and 16th in level.

Oh well,that's obviously is related to the dilemma.
3e3 or 3e4?3e3 or 3e4?3e3 or 3e4?3e3 or 3e4?

Today is naturally fun.Started of with me going around the class and telling people to sign the sheets of paper.
English,raed some article.Interesting...
MT,played UNO at comp lab with Aisyah,Raizen and Wirdah.

Recess stayed back and play STRESS.Ouh yea,i was stressed.Hahaha!

And yea,had the talk by Mrs Oh.Anqi brought something which cause patience to solve.I can turn it into a CUBE !! While Izzat can't! Wahahahaha! Anyway...Anqi is pro.She knows many ways as for me,i only know one.

Then stayed back.Realised that i got 1st in class and 16 in level.Ouh yea,i'm happy.But..kinda not really.Cause,i'll miss 2e4.
Especially my bros,
Irfan (Lipas) called me kerenting
Khalis (googles) called me kerenting
Azri called me pandai
Izzat called me a boy
Wensu (susu) called me Fatimah

Thanks mann.I really enjoy with you all.You are great guys to hang around with,joke with,and tease with.Gonna miss ya.

Anyway,Khalis said something that really made me feel dumbfounded.It's not only him who matchmake me with Izzat,but MRS KHO TOO !! Haizzz...

Mrs Kho : Eh Fatin and Izzat really make a good couple.
Reaction : **looked at each other and take one step behind** it's the same.Elaine was like "woah"

Wensu : Eh you like Izzat right..
Reaction : Go to hell...I know you like...um umm..

Khalis : Eh you like Izzat?You and Izzat same ah.Both good in maths and sci.What if Izzat ask you to be his stead?
Reaction : Go to hell.Eh by the way, **changed subject

Irfan : Izzat and Fatin same ah.Ehem..
Reaction : Go to hell...

Azri : Eh you and Izzat ah.Macam match seyy.
Reaction : Go to hell...

Don't matchmake me.And... i don't know.. Just drop the subject please ?
I know i say too much of "go to hell".Next i'll say..hmm..

What's with me?I don't feel like myself anymore! And why is everyone matchmaking me with Md Noor Izzat ?!?
The small feeling has gone too far.
Next,i'll say...

DREAM ON !!! ~Off now

I'm upset.Yes,i should be happy with my results.
I'm really extreamly happy.
Well,it's other things that made me upset.

Well,lets talk bout happy things first =)

I got 2nd in level for maths.
I pass my Eng,not only pass,i did extreamly well till i almost hugged Dan Azri cause he was beside me.Heeh...
I pass my Lit
And yea...other stuffs like
3rd for DnT
3rd for Art
3rd for Geog
1st for maths
9th for Lit
2nd for Sci
and probably last for MT

Arghh...

Anyway,
had fun today.Lotsa laughs with the boys and Mrs Kho.
Took alot of pics.It's too big to upload here.I'll upload it at friendster.
http://www.friendster.com/twoefour06


Okay now the bad one.Not that much.Cause i'll rather keep to myself.
**Note that if anything that refers to you or you feel it refers to you,i apologise.

I didn't feel much better with them.Still like i'm talking to the wall.And an orphan too..

I feel like an idiot councillor.I don't know what to fill up.I've done nothing but clean the floor.Sighh...I am a useless freak..

I wanna get rid of this little feeling that is stuck with me.It's common to everyone,but not to me.I'm a tomboy and there's no need for me to have that feeling...dont ask me what's the feeling
I didn't get top in level for Maths or even full marks...

I'm confused whether to choose 3e3 or 3e4.That's the flip side of getting high marks..

Friends are obviously against me for the marks.I'm sorry if you envy me...

Well...i think there's more,but i'll rather keep it to myself.
Watched "She's the man" it's kinda related to the small feeling i had.Anyway,i love that story so much.

I rather be alone then to be with you all...~Off now

I'm so freaking tired mann...
Morning,received prezzie from Huda and Natasha.Thanks mann.I really appreaciate it.I've not opened it yet.You buds rocks!! Woots !

Then DnT watched videos.Maths was told i got 49/50 !!! Yay ! Can't believe it.But was aiming for full marks.Haizzz...Then went for the ushering thingy.While going down to take Blazer,saw Mr Soo.Asked him what's my marks.

me : Cher,what's my marks ah?
Mr Soo : You ah.You do very well leh.Not bad.Not bad.(searching for my name at the list)
Mr Soo : You got 72.5
me : Ouh thanks cher. YES ah !! ( and went jumping away...)

Mr Soo didn't believe i could do well.Cause he has been seeing me and Izzat disturbing him.Wahahaha.In the end,Izzat got 74 for Sci and 45 for Maths. Izzat !!!!!!! ARGH !!!!!!!!!
Hehe =)

Did the ushering.Kept looking for Fadhilah.Saw her.Was so happy.But couldn't talk long.Then start to heat up.Felt like any moment i would black out.Then alot of people passed by me.Syaheera from sec1 even wished me Happy Birthday.Then alot of people passed and kept telling me the good news,which is "Eh Fatin!! You got 72.5 for your Science lehh!!!Wahlauu!!"

Then Syafiqah told me the marks.Was kinda happy.Thanks Eka.
Izzat and Khalis passed by and disturbed me.Haiyah Izzat got 74.Nevermind.Anyway,the paper was really tough.

Concert started and i started to heat up more and more.Rest one side.

Concert finished.Wanted to take pics with Fadhilah,but had to do the bookmarks..So stress.Noticed all the sec2 malays went home.Got no one to talk to except Sam,Shaun and Shafirin.
Tired and felt like blacking out soon.Shaun and Sam told me to go home.
Refused to cause i'm bored and want to help.Didn't help much during Teachers' Day so trying to help now.
Then start to feel like i am an extra there.
Went home.
Here i am...~Off now

I'm so tired.
I'm saddened...

Yet,i'm happy.Happy bout the pressent Fadhilah gave.I'm so touched.Felt like crying.It's wonderful.Kept thinking that i don't deserve it.Thanks Fadhilah =)

Yes,glad that you know.But i rather be alone now.

I wanna change my blog URL.Sighhh...
Lost my buddy in council,Diana'e5.Next,losing my bro in council.

Can't wait to watch movies with cousins.Yay ~Off now

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to Fatin !!!
Happy Birthday to me

Haha S.S (Shoik Sendiri) .
Today isn't much of my day.I mean in the morning.Was leftout even on my birthday.I'm invisible.Played netball but couldn't take it.I was dyhdrating.Then,played UNO with Kenneth !! Woot! Fun mann! Alot of people play.I kena sabo-ed.


Had plenty of laughters.Then played stress.
The sexuality programme was kinda boring.And my back was aching.Then after that had Friends Forever.The school made noise and Ms Krishnan couldn't continue.During the half-an-hour silence,Sharon and Karishma massaged me.Wahh! Shoik !

After school had to stay back for the Grad Day to help.I've learn a new way to clean a carpet.Use tape and tape the carpet like waxing your leg.Wahahaha!I was the one starting and even a patch of a carpet seems to be so tiring.Then more and more joined.And the carpet was CLEAN !!WOots ! Stayed back to chit-chat with Shikin,Shahrin,Hafiz,Felina and Shafirin.We had lots of laughters.Arghh!! What a fun moment.Went down and saw people doing banner.Pity them.Helped in only one letter.Haha!I was so tired.No energy.

Went home,had a cold shower and slept.Woke up and was suprised cause saw pizzas on the table !! Whoosh! Thanks bros.I'm bloated.
Dad gave me a watch.
Syafiqah gave me a Happy B'day bears.
BroS gave me Pizzas.
Husna,Huda and Aisyah gave me testi.
And the others wishes!

Went on comp and saw testimonials at friendster.I was so touched.Argghh!! Especially the one Aisyah gave.It's cute.But i like all of them!Then Sam sent a message wishing Happy Birthday.

Give me 5 seconds to scream.

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

My birthday doesn't turn bad afterall.The afternoon,i was really extreamly hyper.Didn't feel leftout.
Well,yea.I was really sad in the morning.Feel so leftout and invisible.

My heart would be crying in
the middle of a smile.

Anyway,to view the touching testimonials,visit
my friendster


Thanks peeps =) ~Off now

Was searching for this for quite a long time.And found this a few days ago...
check this out.

What is coccydynia?
Inflammation of the bony area (tailbone or coccyx) located between the buttocks is referred to as coccydynia. Coccydynia is associated with pain and tenderness at the tip of the tailbone between the buttocks. The pain is often worsened by sitting.

What causes coccydynia?
Coccydynia is often caused by an injury, but may occur seemingly spontaneously. There are many causes of tailbone pain which can mimic coccydynia, including sciatica, infection, pilonidal cysts, and fractured bone.

This is what i experienced last year.Well,this year wasn't that much of a pain.This year i am experiencing pain on my knee and lungs.
Seeing this freaks me out.I'm in a dilemma.Don't know whether i should consult the doctor.But hell no i'm gonna go for another op .

I'm bored.Boredom engulfs me.Tomorrow's my Birthday.
Hope they wouldn't make me feel lonely... ~Off now

WOO !!!
Exams Ended !!!

But, not so fast, the results might disapoint us.

Today had our maths paper 2.It's easy for me.But just afraid of careless mistakes.Exam ended and everyone came asking me what i get for the answers.Woah!And like i was struggling for oxygen.The thing bout telling my answers is,i'm just afraid they didn't get the answer and would be disapointed.Damn...

So i am gonna play like hell !! My plans,
- Play comp ( habbo,neopets )
- Ps2 ( Sims 2 )

And if it's not fasting...
- Go for a jog
- Go gym
- Go cycling with neighbour

Woooooo !!!

My birthday is in two days time , 11 October !! And i'll officially turn 14 !

I love my blog!And my blog skin!Thinking of changing the URL of this blog.
Waiting for Suhaimi to go online so i can ask what he wants for his blog.

I'm going CRAZY !!! ~Off now

I'm finally back blogging.
Sorry.Just too packed with exams.

English : Okay.Just hope i can pass.
Lit : No comments
Geog : Ummm i don't know what to say
Sci : Kinda tough
Mt : Hoping to pass
Maths : I hope can get full marks for both paper.

These days have been fun.No stress.Had been staying back with Fadhly,Suhaimi and Raizen.Tuesday was the most crappiest day.We crapped like 1 hr plus.In the morning that day was kinda upset but they cheered me.I wasn't upset cause my bridge broke,but some other stuffs.

Wednesday,wanted to stay back.Then 15mins later we have to go cause Mr Tan told us to leave.Then studied through comp with Su.
Thurs went library with Huda to teach her science.

What upset me most is the cold shoulder they gave.
I just felt like being left out alone.And not that i feel,but i am really leftout.Just got no one to talk to...

Happy Birthday to Syafiqah !!!

My birthday is this Wed.And maybe Ms Krishnan is treating the Rainbow people pizza!But unfortunately fasting.So Ms Krishnan say i shall pack home.Yea and watch them eat.Hehe!

I just knew a neighbour !! Yea,so far,9 years without knowing a single neighbour.I mean there is,but from another block.

I wanna be myself.Nevermind let them critisize or give the cold shoulder.God is there to lead me.It's just the challenge through my life.
Shame on you guys.And just dream on ... ~Off now

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY !!!

I love childrens' day!!!Still can remember the primary school days.Sighhh...

Anyway,today was extreamly FUN !!! Well yea actually.Hehe!

Slept at 2a.m.Cause i was joking with my brothers.Then Mum was cooking for morning meal.Then woke up at 3a.m.I didn't know it was 3 !Told myself What is there to sleep for one hour? So drag myself out of bed and ate morning meal.The strange thing,i didn't went back to my paradise ! Instead,i went talking with bro and even used the computer!! Hahaha!

Later that afternoon, at 3.30pm,suppose to meet Karishma,Suhaimi and Sabri at Tamp Library to study Sci,Geog and Maths.But i was late.So when i was just about to enter the Library,they were going off to CC to find a place to seat and study.Still couldn't find place.Went back to library and sat at one corner.Hehe.And we laughed alot.Especially Suhaimi who kept singing.Sabri has yellow brains... Hahahahaha! I realise something...
Suhaimi = Spongebob
Sabri = Patrick
Me = Sandy

Really alike mann!!
Sandy is rough and boisterous.It's like me!
Patrick is big in size and is always lame.It's like Sabri!
Spongebob is talkertive,small and skinny.It's like Suhaimi!!

Then while they were argueing about throwing each other out of the window,these ran through my mind...
Why can't they just be old buddies like they used too?
Why can't we be like Spongebob Square Pants show?
Why can't we stay back everyday and play all sorts of sports?
Why can't we be bestbuds like we used too ?

Anyway,we continued.
Went back at 6pm.Sabri and Suhaimi are such gentlemen who actually accompanied me to the MRT station.Hahaha!But i was kinda sad cause my hand and knee are causing problems now.

But overall,i had fun !!

My knee appointment is supposed to be on the 4th Oct.Due to examinations,i had to postpone it.I have a strong feeling that.....
the tumor grew again...

Wahh Sahh !!! ~Off now