Heya people.I'm back from my grandma's house.Sleepover there with my cousins Syahidah,Rusyidah and Dila.The thing i hate sleepy at grandma house is,there is no TV.But then,there was RC under the block,so we went down at watch TV for free.Played Table Tennis and Pool.The Pool was really fun!The we had to get to bed.Couldn't sleep at night cause had a block nose.At the middle of the night,heard someone talking outside loudly.Then tried to concentrate on the voice,it was dad..hahaha.

Woke up bout 10am.Then went down with my cousins to play pool.Then,there was a bot who wanted to play with us.So,i allowed.Its obvious that my cousins doesn't know how to play Pool,but that boy shouldn't say "Lousy" or "stupid" to them.Or even say " Girls very lou you " or something like that.He thought I was a boy that is why he said that.So i just nod and gave a grin.Then in my heart 'Who you think you are?Girls arent good at anything just cooking is it?Never estimate the power of girls" But,i didnt let it out.Hahaha! So,i continued playing with him.Then,aunty called us to go up cause she wants to bring us out.She brought us to the Airport and ate Swensens there.I ate Sour Dough 89ers or something like that.

Anyway,good to be home now.I'll be bored to death there.But,good thing i enjoyed someday with my cousins and had sleepover.School is gonna start in 5 days time.Saw my timetable and MDM FAUZIAH IS TEACHING ENGLISH ! Woohoo!!! Hahaha! So happy with that.Too bad Ms Arnita isnt teaching Maths and it is Mrs Kho.Anyway,if i am not mistaken,the PE teacher next year is a new teacher.I just don't feel like giving that MC.Nevermind,for my own good.Need to restart my comp now.Its gone bonkers..~Adious

If I am not wrong,the dark times came back...Can't stop crying last night.My pillow was too wet and my nose was blocked.I just wish i can consult this with Shikin,but,I can't contact her.Sign,i hope he reall change his attitude..

Aunt who lived with me brought bro a Laptob!I really cant believe it!My eyes almost pop out.I mean,which aunty would want to buy for her nephew a laptob!Oh well,probably its because she didnt have any children.
I went out to get lunch for my self at Eastpoint.I was all alone.No companies.As i wanted to rush for the trafic light,i ran,not run as in run,as in fast walk.Its was slower that i though..terrible.Anyway,it didnt matter much to me.I'm going out soon after i finish updating cause I'm gonna have a hair cut!Seriously,i am.Perhaps you all can get to see when sch reopens and also my scar.All the plaster over it has dropped,so now i can fully see the scar.The next thing i am glad is,2nd bro is appointed to go for "Thuder Warriors-New Zealand" for NCC! Thats abviously great.Okays,i think i better head to Bugis now.See ya!~Adious

Heya! Im officially back from nowhere.Okay,let me just sumaries what happened during the engagment and the wedding itself.This entry might be long cause it holds 2 days entries.

Saturday 24 Dec 05 ,
Went to the engagment with crutches.As soon as i reached there,Uncle Rashid and Uncle Azman asked "What Happened?" so i told them.So when i went up with bro,Zuhayr and Izzat wanted to see the scar.So i showed them.Cause the house was too packed with people,Me and Bro went down to eat.Was searching for my Melacca cousins and Iffa.But couldn't find them.So ate with the boys and i was the only girl there.Yea,oddness kind of feeling.So then,saw Ikah and tickle her at her waist.They asked me whether i want to go the near by playground.It was fine to me,as long don't run is fine.So i took the swing.Quite high that i swing,but Zuhayr swing like 90 degrees !

Then night came and we all went up to watch the Christmas thingy,hosted by Phua Chu Kang and Rosie.Hahaha!We went down again too eat again cause they are cleaning the dishes.Melacca Cousins and Iffa went to the playground without inviting me and Fazlin.Was kinda sad though,cause all i know that,when the Melacca cousins come,Iffa would sometimes leave me and Fazlin.By the way,it didnt matter much.So i played with my neice,Nurin! She is so adorable!Its so difficult to get a snap of her pic.Then she sat on the parapet with Fazlin and me.As she clapped we followed.Haha!Then Uncle Quaza brought Nurin to the playground at 11pm !So i went tag along.



Oo NuRiN ! oO


Sunday 25 Dec 05,
Reached the house at 12pm.Waited for my Melacca cousins and Iffa.Then,as they went out,they didnt call me to go.At that moment i thought," They are so bad.I waited for them and they left me" And i could just feel that the bad times came back.When the marriage that took at Melacca.And when Iffa just stick with the Melacca cousins and not Fazlin or Me.Was disappointed.I didnt went down cause too lazy to bother them.Mum told me that there isnt any worry if they didnt want to talk to me.And i was like " Who bothesr bout them ? " and all i want was to get home and be invisible.But its just 1pm.So i went down.Didn't have the appetite to eat.Then they all asked for forgiveness.I just accepted and went to play wif Nurin!She remembers me and further more,i think she is beginning to like me.Hehe!I waved to her and then she like laughed and jumped.Then I smiled and play pee-ke-boo with her.Then she hug my legs.Haha she was too short to reach me.Anyways,she is just 1 years old? I think..cause she hasnt know how to talk yet.

Went home at 5pm cause Mum was tired.Ouh yea! My sticker that covers my stich dropped!And my stich isnt just a stich,it is being lasered or something like that.But i wanted a permanent stich cause i want to make it as a memories.And another thing,my shaky tooth dropped when i ate chicken.Hahaha!


My so called " Stich "

And yea,before i go,


~Merry Christmas to all people who celebrate Christmas~



Okay,enough..~Adious

Wassup! I'm obviously bored now.Nothing else to do than play the entertaining Habbo.Not gonna play Habbo when school starts.But,im still having that account of mine.Anyway,about the new layout of my blog,its not that nice.Maybe,i'll try to find another one when i have time.

Izzat told me something about my leg.Im not sure whether he is right or the doctor.Maybe the doctor just wanted me to be sastified?Seriously,im confuse now.Every night i kept thinking "Would my running slow down ?" or " Has my running slow down ?" . I kept thinking about the afternoon of this year's teachers' day.It was when i went back to HGS and Melody told me her 2.4 km timing is 12 mins plus.I was shoked and amazed.And at that moment my timing was 13 mins 26 sec.It was lucky she didnt ask my timing.Then,i wonder,is it their 2.4 is not 2.4,i mean as in shorter or is it my 2.4 is longer?But well,after another try,i had 12 mins 25 sec.Not that sastifiying.I want to ask Mr Sin about what Izzat said.Maybe Mr Sin knows.Afterall,he is the Sci teacher.But,he is hardly online..
I just can't think of any than soothing my worries about the running.I hope izzat says isn't true..

I really have hard time getting my walking balance.I just suddenly felt as though everything is somehow useless.Got no one to talk to about what i have deep in my heart.Mum sometimes get irritated about what i told her and ask..

P6 student get to their school today.None of whom i know goes to Junyuan.Camelia Ortega go to Tampines Sec.Peisze,who wanted to go Junyuan Sec cause i told her about how is it at Junyuan,couldn't go cause her parents said it was too far from their house.The last thing i hope is,Farah Koh goes to Junyuan Sec in 2007.Anyway,curious about who is my form teacher next year and also the Time-table.
Okey-dookey,i think thats all.Tomorrow is the engagment ! ~Adious

I'm bored.I'm in pain.This coming week end is my cousin's wedding day,which is also Christmas.One thing i like about Christmas is the things on sale.Hahaha ! I love the chocolates and espeacially the candies.

Yesterday,went out with Mum to the nearest mall,Easpoint.Was my 1st time going out ! Mum didnt allow me to go out with crutches.So i went out without crutches.Its really scary without crutches outside cause the roads and pavement are not even and anytime,i can trip.I fell a couple of times and lucky mum grab hold of me.As i walk,its like im riding some kind of rollercoaster that is faulty and anytime,it would collapse.And i also felt as though i was running 2.4 when im actually just walking.Haiz..it take times.

Ouh yeah,i decided to change my blog skin.The previous blogskin has long about 5 Months!And its the longest blog skin i ever had.
Sign,I'm just waiting for some entertainment..~Adious

Another day of boredom.Bending legs are easy for you and me.But,to my right leg,is a torture.I wonder when would the sticker be taken out.I wonder when the black colour tread is going to drop.And,I wonder when i can fully bend my leg.Currently,i can only bed 90 degrees of my leg.And infect,lesser than that i guess.I always wanted to bend my leg so much these days,but every move i take to bend,its hurts.I know,the greatest point is,the NEVER-GIVING-UP attitude.Yea,thats was on my head when i got impatient of myself.Yes !The word is patient.All i need is some patient and never give up on myself.I'm happy of who I am.Hard Work,PAYS OFF!

Everytime i go out of my brother's room,i would always run and jump trying to reach for the ceiling(which is way too high.But a good for a practice).But yesterday,i tried and on my 2nd step,i can feel the aching pain and i realise that i cant run.The weird feeling is,every night,i dream about i can walk without crutches,and i even bend,and the amazing part is,I CAN RUN.But,it was all a dream.Well,gotta tolerate with this.By the way,for all you need to know,I really gotta tolerate with this cause,i asked for it.I asked for the tumor to be taken away.And it have been.This pain might take about 2 months,but not the rest of my life.I can run without feeling the extra pain at my knee which had been slowing me down.I'm hoping to beat 12mins 25 s next year.I hope what the doctor said its true.

Can anyone give me an idea? Okay,i seek for everyone's help.Can anyone tell,any excersise of leg bending besides the one we did for PE.I might be doing that at a later part.Cause if i do the PE one,it would kill me.Haha!The one that bend the leg and balance on another is the PE one.Please any suggestions?You can just tag at the tagboard.Thanks yea?

Maybe what Izzat said..was right ~Adious

Yo! Ouh yeah,today THE BANDAGE IS TAKEN OFF !!! WhooSH~ !

Every where i go,people would always stare at me as though there was something BIG had happen to me.Some even ask and Mum had to explain all that.Okay,when i was in the Doctor's Rm,Dr Arjandas cut of the bandage.And took off the plaster that is covering the stich.FINALLY I get to see the stich.But not so clear cause,there was another layer of..whatever the thing is called.Dr Arjandas said,after i bathe,the thing would be taken off by itself.Well,not exactly that is a Living thing,but its some kind of sticker that maybe when it is contact with water,it would drop.

Dr Arjandas also said to do Therapy by my own.If it gets stif by two weeks,then I'll have to go the REAL Therapy.Haha! I have MC of excuse for PE for 2 Months ! Meaning,I can do PE on 31 Jan 2006 onwards.This is UNACCEPTABLE ! Hmm,maybe can.I rather be safe than suffer.Next appointment is 25 Jan 2006.Wow ! Kinda long..
As i said,my leg was thinner than the other one.Dr Arjandas said,cause i hadn't move the leg for quite a sometime.So the muscle contract or something? Forget bout it.The Dr also said,i can choose to use crutches or not.OF COURSE NOT ! But Mum insisted of using 1 crutches instead.Its for my safety first.Okay then,i will use.So probably when sch reopens,it might be im still using or not.Hopefully not..

Come on people.Think positive and look at the bright side ! Why must people thing, " Accident " " Fall Down " or so on.You can say err...okay..maybe i was being to specific.Hahaha ! But well,its fine to me.Okay,I wanna continue admiring my stich.I'll tell how many stich is it as soon as the sticky thing drops.HEE ! ~Off now

I finally cleaned and threw all my P6 books at my bookshelf and desk.Sign,while cleaning,i found my Pri6 sch hand bk.It was like my diary.I read all of the journal i wrote.And it was sure last time i really hated Mr Quek.Well,being in a girls' sch,sometimes you might just get afraid of boys.But Mr Quek is 6 feet high and muscular.And sometimes i kept seeing Mr Quek everywhere i go.And i kinda felt irritated.But,when the last day of school,i just realise that he wasn't that scary to me.He might be tall and muscular but deep inside,he is a kind and funny teacher.One of the course teacher was right.The person you hated most,is the person you are gonna like in the end.Sign**..

I really miss those times i had during 2004.That was the special year i ever had.And the most touchful moment the basketball match and the basketball moments.What happen actually during the basketball match was,my class had to use the colour band around the body.Since,i was too small and all the colour bands are big,my band kept falling off.And the whole P6 would laugh and point at me.Such and embarrassment.So everytime it falls,my teacher would come and run to me and put back.And once,i was dribbling the ball,and the band slide off to my leg and i tripped over it.The opponent had the ball and every laughed.And also,when someone who hated me so much for Basketball,hit my neck and i fell.There was complete silence and the teachers rush towards me.But,i went back to the match again.Even though i wasn't the captain,I played for 1 whole match while others complained and groan.Not as though it was my fault.It was my teacher whole told me to.
But gotta admit,i was people enemy once it gets to Basketball.People who play with me,haha,you would know.The teachers called me the bull.Hahas.Anyways,not sure bout now.I hadnt play Basketball for 1 year ! I cant do 3 pointer and I cant do lay-up anymore.Probably Basketball isn't my favourite sports.It was all ruin..

I miss all the P1 last year.They were so adorable.Not to say,we are lesbians,but some P1 like me.Yea,cant deny.Some hugged and some..err kiss? Okay,forgot what i said.Maybe the Diary really brought alot of memories.One of them had,

ONce i went for an excursion to Beach Cleaning.I wore PE shorts and T-Shirt.I have a short hair that time and wore a cap.And there was another school there too.So,one of the girl came to my friend ,Faizah

Girl : Eh,your school all girls right?
Faizah : Ya
Girl : Then that person ( pointing to me ) is a girl ah?
Faizah : Ya

Some kind of embarrassment too.

After reading the Diary,i cleaned my table.Thankfully i hadn't have any runny nose.Hee ! Okay,1 more day to go ! YIPEE ! ~Off now

Dead bored.Sign,just wish i could get the bandage off.Nevermind,the day is coming ! HeHE !
Kinda disapointed about people around me.They kept making me feel as though i made something wrong and the BLAME is all on me.Sometimes,people take me for granted. But well,its okay..

And yeah,about the commercial at the tagboard,i don't expect vulgaralities please.Its offensive.And,anonymous,i hope you would not tag anymore.Okay,I admit,I'm hurt by your piercing messages.Happy?Please,i dont want anyone to go over you.Please don't tag anymore..~Off now

Hey!Kinda bored these days.My scar hurts manN! Its like,a wound being poured with salt water.Gosh,cannot take the pain.Well,i didnt cry,but just cried out in pain.I don't know what on earth to blog about.Just kinda bored.The best thing i can do is just play with my hair.Hope to get a hair cut soon.Ouh yea,my scanner finally is being installed.i scanned lots of pic.Here is goes -

Me and Hazel

Bijal and Aashi - Mah basketball mates

Farah,Syairah and Hazel

Eileen,Siying,Me,Estee and Syairah

Me and Cikgu Norah


Yeah,this pics are taken at the last day of school.Memories...




Totally different ~Off now

Heya dere.Yipee!! My swollen is fading off. Sign** Just now went to sch to get school books with Aunty.Then Hanisah and Nurril came and asked me what happened.So told them.Yea,probably can't go NCC about a month or few days when school starts.But I'm sure,i love to go NCC.Then the Book Shop Aunty like when " Haiyo ".Haha! And said i go chase after my boyfriend.For all you need to know,I dont have boyfriend! Not looking for one and not interested too !

Just now was the 1st time i went out of the house after my operation!! Seriously ! I mean,its so wonderful outside.The fresh and and the morning odour.Wow ! The atmosphere is so nice and it so spacious outside.Not like stucked home.So crampy.Feel kinda restless staying home cause I'm the kind of outdoor person.But well,i can go out now,but no one wants to go out.Mum said,if I were to go out,there must be an adult.Yea,so when i go out with my cousins,Aunty Yati which is Iffa's mum is gonna send, and there would be Zuhayr.He is old enough!Yea,mum allowed.But i have not asked her whether i could go out with friends,like Syafiqah.Hope she allows.

Bro is off for Camp Pinicle or whatever it is.He will be back by Fri and for Aunty and Grandma,they are off to KL.Will be back by Fri too.So now I'm all alone at home.Parents go work and 1st bro go school.Okay,enough for today.Wanna watch SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS ! See ya ~Off now

Sup ! Ouh yea,latest news.My leg is swollen.Yeah,it looks so..big and fat.And my leg really look damn funny.Hope to get a snap of it but Cam no battery.Mum is gonna call the nurse and the possible they can do is admit me back to the Hospital!! For me going back to the Hosp is Yay and Aww.. Yay cause i wanna see the nurse again! I kinda miss the nurse.They are so nice and funny.CARING too! Aww cause,who wants to stay at the Hosp?Its not like the Hosp is a hotel.Haha! Can't bare the paint of my scar.It really hurts mann! And just now,since i wanted to reach for the tape on the floor,the chair which is the computer chair with so called wheels,rolled back and i fell and accidentally bend my knee.I can somehow feel that the scar tore.Nevermind,cant think negatively.So,whenever i walk my knee wld bend by its self.Mum said its healing.Hope so.Cause if not it would be stiff! Haha!

Yay! 7 Dec onwards i can go out.So touched that my cousins actually wait till im fully recover.Zuhayr and all wants to go out.Yeah! But when? Yipee! Cant wait!! And hopefully bring Lydia along !
I finally finish reading the book HOUSE OF SPORTS .Its so sad.I even shed tears when it is the sad part.Yeah,being abit to emotional.Lucky no one was at home or they would ask why on Earth i'm crying.Haha!

Summary of book-
For Jim,there's nothing in the
world like dribbling a basketball downcourt,
hearing the squeak of his sneakers, feeling the
pebbled surface of the bouncing ball,
flying for the basket. Basketball is
everything.
But Jim is short,and it's not easy
being short basketball player.He's
worked hard to get onto the travel-
ing team, and noe he's determined
to earn himself a starting position----
if only his grandmother doesn't mess
things up for him. Every weekend the
family does something with
Nana,and sometimes Jim is forced
to miss his Saturday practice.Coach
Mondini isn't the type to understand
if a player misses practice or arrives
late....
Jim's parents tell him he can learn
alot from Nana, but Jim is worried
that his obligations to her may lose
him the one thing he cares about----
his place on the basketball team.

Yeah,actually I took about 2 days to read the whole book,but cause i borrowed and did not read,so it somehow took 2 Months to read HP Bk 1 like kinda thick book.Hahaha! Okay,enough is enough..Adious~Off now

Come to think about it,its all over.
No more worries ( except for my tailbone which I'm not gonna spill it ) for now.I think,by 14 Dec,when the bandage is open and i can see my scar,i would be happier.Probably,go back to the way I am all the while.Yup,like Mrs Raihanah said " Always remain happy and cheerful ".Perhaps,this leg tumor-thingy filled me with worries.Sorry bout the "tumor-thingy".Not too sure what the Professor said.I heard it was Bi or Bo - somthing .But it start with 'B'.Hahaha!

My painkiller is only left a bottle.And some Panadol.I hope these Painkillers can last until my wound is FULLY recovered which is on the 7 Dec.Mum don't allow me to go out with Bro tomorrow.Afraid that i fall or what.Nevermind,at least after 14 Dec,Zathurah is still on right??Currently,digging out for videos that I have not watched to watch.And asking Dad to buy some DVD.I think that should keep me occupied.

Yipee!!!!! 10 more days till my bandage is OPEN !!!! And most probably I won't be using crutches anymore,or maybe just only 1 crutches.But I can walk on my own without crutches now! Okay,I'm shortage of ideas to blog about.Adious ! ~Off now

Sign** Another day of boredom.Staying home waiting for some entertainment to happen.

Yesterday,Mum suddenly allowed me to go watch Movie with my Cousins and Lydia.Was too excited and all thanks to Izzat was in my mind.
Iffa was right..to her,i should be better staying at home.
And,yeah,my wound needs to heal.Don't enjoy myself and stay home until 7 Dec.Only after 7 Dec and I'm fit for light duties.Just LIGHT.

The sound of words really broke my confidence of going.And thats why i decided not to go watch movie.Even Mum says " It will be better if you stay home if it is insisted like that "Just than,i start to think about it,probably with me inside,they would get impatient.To the safe side,I didn't go.So much of watching Zathura and going asking around my cousin whether when to watch and in the end they chose today.Why must it be today and give me some little chance after my op.?
Sharifah is right..i gotta be patient

Its such a waste of money just to go with bro when he insisted of me treating him.Sign** Hope you all enjoy the movie
Zathura sounds fun..just that,gotta find someone who hasn't watch to watch.Well,those who i want to go with,already went.And talking bout Pri school friends,i doubt they would make a time for me.So i should waste my money and watch with bro..i guess.
Chicken Little is what I'm looking forward to watch.

Not pointing fingers to anyone and whose fault is it for today's entry.I guess its no body's fault but just me.And god wants it to be that way.Don't deny please..
I'm not at a mood to chat with anyone these days.My MSN status might be away,but I'm not.So,if any important just talk,but if its not than,i shouldn't have replied i guess.As i said,not in the mood to chat with people...
See ya...~Off now