I'm just a teen

I'm fully aware that I've not been myself for the past few days. Probably, weeks too.
There's too many things infact.
But this soul of mine is taking things slowly.
A barrage of words were hurled onto me.
It hurts, somehow.
Just wonder how long i can go on.

5th Student Council had never been this busy before.
Likewise, our Council Term has just begun.
With Investiture marking the beginning of our journey and the Teachers' Day, our first project.
Screwed ups and complications were definitely the things we faced.
Nevertheless, I enjoyed working with the council.
Love dinner-ing with them today.

Thanks to those who have been concern about me for the past few days/weeks.
There are pretty lots of things to say, but somethings are just meant to be kept.
A few teachers too asked if I was okay.
I just nod in denial.
I'm just touched by their concern.
Will try to get over it soon.

I definitely miss the sharing session and laughing session with "awak" - Syafiqah ZA !
With fasting month here, I rarely get to see her during breaks.
And with Council duties, I just can't squeeze time to TCS with her.

Yeah, I really need to unwind.
I'll probably take a walk along the coast on Monday.
After Teachers' Day celeb is over.

Getting up, getting strong, move along.

Okay, that's it.

I'll be gone.
Until I decide coming back.
For now, I'll keep it to myself.
And probably, find a day to unwind alone.
I really need some help for myself.
You just don't understand.




"You gave my strength. You gave me hope. You gave me someone to love, someone to hold."
- Where are you?

I need to get back to my senses

It's undeniable that I really need to get back to my senses.
Feeling very terrible these few days.
And I just can't seem to explain why.
Yet, it's just another dreadful phase of my life.

Physiotherapy was pretty fun today.
But Bambang wasn't here. Oh mann..
Other ACL Patients were very enthusiastic.
And obviously, I was the smallest and youngest among all.

So Pauline now told me to go for the 6months test.
Well, yeah 6 months but now seems to be 8 months already.

Pauline: Adik! When wanna take the test? Too long already leh.

So having the test in probably a month time.
And I hope I can see them for one last time before I'm officially discharged.
They made a huge impact in my life. Really.

This bleak life of mine

I'm fully aware that I've not been myself lately.

There's too many things happening at one time.
Yet, trivial things tend to accumulate to become large ones.
It's just too much i broke down and cried last night.
And no, it wasn't the end.

Anyway thanks SZA.
I was touched.

Physiotherapy tomorrow.
That's what I've been looking for all these while just to get a lasting smile for at least 1 hour.
The time when they truly understand who I'm really am.
They know the best of me.
Which I doubt you do.

I'm just not prepared to take the risk and tear my ligament again.
Mind you, my leg cost $5k more than yours.

Choice challenges, invigorates and enhances.
I think one really have a choice everyday when one wake up from their slumber.
One has a choice on how they want to lead their life.
And that explains the varying characters of people.
I personally love the optimistic ones.
They bring colour to my life.

Been pretty hectic lately.
Caught up with too many homeworks.
Plus, I have to prepare the Econs Presentation, PW Story Board and not forgetting the proposal for Student Investiture.
Can anything get any worser?

Looking forward to this weekend is a big mistake.
I really need a breather.
Now, I'm looking forward to next week. It's physiotherapy time.

On the contrary, Friday's National Day Celebration with my Civics Group, 0912B is FANTASTIC.
Love the spirit. Everyone is working.
Just watch the video that I'm tagged in at Facebook. It shows everything.
HAHA XD

Okay, back to mugging.