Do dey have feelings?Feel so left out!!

Feel so left out.How wld u feel if u r the only Malay n ur other frens r chinese.Den dey speak chinese.U will feel left out rite?Wen to do project.Out of 6 people,i m the only malay.Okay..i m really tired of saying " Speak English!" "Channel 5!!" I m sure dey noe Eng rite?If dey wan to speak chinese,might as well just go chinese school!Hurt by dem.Do dey have feelings?Do dey noe how other people feel?Dun tell me tat dey dun have feelings.Wat is the meaning of multi-racial?Forgoodness sake!Juz co-operate for once lar!No 1 ever noe how i feel.So left out.When dey speak chinese , i juz feel like leaving!But have to do e history project.Den in e morning Jia En say after finish History project do maths project.Den i doing e history project den Jia En n Nisarat start packing to go home.Nisarat is goin to Thailand.Chai Cheng cant b bothered.Den e only time was juz now.I know lar..dey not gossping bout me or wat,at least speak English lahh.Can also understand wat day all toking.Walau.Dont know who to tell tis problem to.Iffa isn't in S'pore.If she is,surely can tell her tis problem.Feel much better if tell her.Husna she is not home.N sometimes tell Husna she will tok to other people at her house.No1 else.Y r dey like tat?Juz hope some1 can comfort me.Don't tink u all noe how it is to b left out.1stly,i m only malay there.Don't even bother to co-operate.Don't even noe e meaning of multi-racial.I juz can't handle tis so hurting,being left out.Juz hope some1 is there to comfort me..Felt so angry too.

Followed 2nd bro to the army shop at Tampines Blk 801 infront Junyuan Pri.I juz notice there is a army shop there.Wah alot of things man!Bro wen there to sew his uniforms 4 e CLT.Den he also teach me how to go there coz wait he say if lost or wan to buy NCC stuff,go there.Den wen to eat Dinner wif my father n 2nd bro.Eat Pepper Beef Steak.So nice!Den after tat wen to Parkway Parade.Go Giant n all tat.Den bro like block as in push me to e esculator tat is going up when we r suppose to go down.Den e people almost bumb onto me.Den my bro laughed like hell.Den all i was juz laugh back.

After all..today is kinda bad n funny day!Esp when 2nd bro likes to play wif my head.Pretend tat my head is a basketball.Juz hope,some1 can comfort me.Juz feel so left out.Dey dunnu how it feels to b do left out..Wish Iffa was here.Juz hope Pam,Anqi,Jia En,Sha Hui n Jane cld understand how it feels to b left out.Esp Anqi..keep toking Chinese.Use initaitive lar.I noe dey don't feel left out coz dey all understand.Whoever told me to go wif more to malay frens,i thank u.4got who is tat person..Not too sure.I know i wan to b multi-racial.But dey also must be.Going out wif more malay people is tough.Natasha,Syafiqah dun really tok tat much.Nisha,Syira n Diana dey go wif deir frens.Now no other frens.PLS !!! 4goodness sake!!!Speak ENGLISH!!!!!!! Tis isnt like the 1st time dey speak chinese.Isn't the 1st time me telling dem to speak English.Wat u expect me to do?U wan me to tell Mdm Zainab again?PlS laR!I HaVe EnouGh oF tHiS!! Really need some1 to comfort me.Give me some advice.Any1? Really...pls....cant waste my tears over tis...hope Pam,Anqi,Sha Hui,Jia En n Jane can stop tis so called toking chinese make me feel so left out,sad..Actually,Jia En n Jane didn't speak chinese.

[To Jia En n Nisarat]Angry wif dem coz Jia En say do maths project after history project.Den i doing history project den dey all start packing to go home.I noe lar dey wan to go home.I also wan to go home.Nisarat is going Thailand already.Den we r suppose to do e Choas game.Den dey all pack up to go home.Walau..tink i not angry or wat ah?Say wan to do maths project den in e end getting ready to go home..

So hurt..i notice tis is e longest blog i typed.It means i m so the very HURT ! Juz hope,hopefully some1 can help me..Getting headache over tis left out thingy...den tomorrow surely fever..Iffa,pls come back to S'pore quickly.Ending feeling so hurt,left out,lonely..Nites..~Off now